I Hope You Burn in Hell, Scott Morrison.

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Source: The Guardian

I don’t think I have ever been so angry at a complete stranger before.

Scott Morrison, the illustrious Prime Minister of Australia has shown absolutely zero leadership and empathy for the incredible natural disaster that is currently burning its way across New South Wales.

As of me writing this, 12/12/19, 1.50am, there are 118 bush and grass fires burning, with more than 70 of them yet to be contained.

That is a whopping 60% of uncontrolled, wild fire that is scorching everything in its path, and turning the entire state into a nightmare.

Whether it has to do with climate change, is neither here nor there, even though its blatantly obvious that it is.

What is of great concern to me, and what infuriates me beyond all measure is the clear failure of governance.

If we can’t rely on the government, what else is there?

I simply refuse to believe that any sane, rational being with a single iota of humanity in them, would allow this problem to go unabated and not work around the clock, 24/7 to fix it.

If I was the Prime Minister, there simply would not be any cause for smiles or parties or any other concern. I would devote every single waking moment to addressing this issue. I would lose sleep, I would break down every solution I find and apply them straight away, I would struggle and refuse to give up, until every single fire has been extinguished.

And yet, this muppet has the gall to attend a party, while an entire state that he is meant to be governing, burns to ash.

Smoke has gotten so bad, so thick, so noxious, it restricts vision and contaminate everything. It has even travelled to New Zealand for fucks sake.

You can’t see the Sydney Opera House. You choke on fumes that are 11x the level of hazardous. You drink black water that has been contaminated by ash.

Where are these leaders?

The Premier of Sydney …. opened a fucking zoo.

Scot Morrison told people to download an app to address their troubles about the smoke.

Then he had the incredible input of saying that volunteer firefighers, who have been fighting the fire for weeks now without pay, want to be there.

FUCK YOU, YOU UNBELIEVABLE LITTLE SHIT. 

No one wants to be actively risking their life for weeks and weeks, in searing conditions, without pay.

The fact that he didn’t even consider compensating these brave men and women for all their sacrifices is beyond belief.

Its like I said, I don’t think I have ever been so irrationally angry at a stranger before.

I don’t know the Prime minister. I, for all reasons, should not have any issues with the man.

But by god, he has made me furious. All his insensitivity. All his callousness. His clear lack of empathy for those who have died, who are suffering and who are fighting for those who have lost everything.

God I hate him so much. Why the hell did he become our Prime Minister? This is such poor leadership, such reckless abandonment of responsibility that I refuse to accept the idea that we somehow deserve this.

No. We don’t deserve this. We need someone better.

And the worst part is that there is nothing I can do to install in a new person.

I want to burn his house down, just to see if he will feel anything. If I knew his address, by God, I would bring a match to it.

Its sickening, the lack of inaction. Its depressing, just thinking about how pathetic his leadership is.

He went to a fucking party during the biggest crisis to hit Australia in a very long time.

God-Fucking-Damn-It.

His inaction want me to take action. But I can’t. I can’t attack the man himself.

So all I can is attack the problem of the bushfire.

But man, if I could, I would tear him from limb to limb for his failures.

I can’t believe people died, because of his terminal stupidity.

Can you imagine that? Burning or choking to death, because of a man who refused to engage with fire-fighting services, despite all their warnings about how bad this year was going to be?

His failure to prepare meant that you lost everything. What a utter shambles.

Its disgusting to think about that.

I really want to do something. Something like this can’t happen again. We the people need to kick that stupid moron out of here. He has proven his failure to govern, has resulted in the death of people.

Anyone, and I mean anyone whose indecisiveness or inaction result in death, should be rid of.

I feel so frustrated. I want to do something to help. But what can I do?

I can’t believe that 60% of the fires that are burning right now, are uncontrollable. We have the largest professional volunteer fire-fighting service in the world.

Our fire-fighters are the stuff made of legends.

And yet even this is beyond them.

Jesus Christ.

I feel so passionately about this, because I think its sickening that Scott Morrison is still breathing, despite his failures. The guy need to be exiled and never see Australia again for his failures.

On a more personal level though, I think I need to volunteer.

I love Victoria. I love Melbourne.

I don’t want the fiery apocalypse that NSW is going through right now, happening here in Melbourne. I couldn’t stand the thought.

I can’t bear the idea of not being able to see Melbourne, to see her covered in smoke and ash. I don’t want to wear a mask everywhere I go. I don’t want to see people coughing, nor having to boil the water every time just to have a drink.

This summer, I’m going to make enquiries on how to be a volunteer fire-fighter. I need to do my part, and I’d rather be on the front-lines than sitting back and listening to any more news about how much of a shit-head our prime minister is.

I’ll choose my own hell, thanks very much.

I just hope Scott Morrison doesn’t get to pick his, and he get sent to the ninth circle of Hell, where all the bastards who fail people reside.

Scott “Fucked Up” Morrison.

Eat a bag of ash.

~ Damocles.

The Need for Speed

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Why is everything about speed for me?

There’s no real sensation as fun for me as moving incredibly quickly.

I’m pretty sure I got a problem.

I’m a guy that really values efficiency. It means things should be lean, functional and practical. Everything should have a purpose.

Everything of value, should be used to an inch of that value.

Nothing should be wasted and if that waste can be recycled, do so.

Its why the pinnacle of motorsport, Formula 1 appeals to me so much.

Everything is efficient.

Nothing goes to waste.

Tenths of seconds are considered luxuries.

Plus I don’t think I ever felt as connected to my mind and body when I am behind the wheel of a car, and I can almost relax in knowing just how focused and attuned I am to the mistakes I make or the areas I get exactly right.

Split second analysis of my grip, my angle, the pressure of my foot, the millisecond in which I judge my braking point …. this happens in an instant, and I just know when I got it absolutely bang on my limit.

If I fuck up, I lose time. Then I lose the race.

Its simple.

Cause and effect, in a split second of judgement. Action and consequence.

The more I race, the more focused and alert I become. 4 hours of sleep suddenly feel like a full 8 hours of sleep. My body tenses up, ready for the G-forces, and my hands relax on the wheel, ready for the ridiculously painful vibrations that will shake my arms to pieces.

I can feel myself become a different person, the moment my helmet slips over my head and my old Oakley goggles covers my eyes.

It sounds ridiculous and stupid, but I think I was born to do a lot of things.

Soldier, Loner and Racer.

God I love to race. Even crashes don’t phase me. I live by the maxim that crashes are a matter of when, not if, for a racer.

Because if you don’t crash, you don’t make mistakes, it means you aren’t seeking the absolute limit of grip, speed and control.

My last go-kart session, I crashed 3 times.

But I explored the absolute limit of the kart and the track and left nothing behind on the table and subsequently posted the fastest time of the session.

I am probably addicted to the sensation of speed.

The wind whipping my body, the jerkiness of the kart and the smell of petrol is such a familiar, exhilarating tonic to my system.

Its also sparked my interest in cars and probably increased my desire to be faster and better at everything.

In reading, I’ve maximised my pace for picking up information.

In exercising, I’ve taken a page out of Lucas Botkin of T.Rex Arms in fully making sure that all my sessions are about pushing myself to the absolute limit and making sure my 90% is getting faster and better.

There is no point in slowing down anything. The quicker you engage things, the better your mind works and the more you learn.

I feel like when you only got 1 shot at life, why waste anything?

Probably explains my irrational hatred for revolving doors.

They slow you down, get stuck frequently and waste a minimum of 2 seconds in your life.

Plus in cases of emergencies, they limit the number of people exiting a building.

And as seen in The Godfather, someone can jam the door and you’ll be sleeping with the fishes, looking like an idiot stuck in some glass box.

Can you believe that? Then there’s this weird statistic … if you go through a revolving door 30 times … you lost an entire minute of your life …. in a fucking door.

What an incredibly stupid design for a door.

But I digress.

I was discussing speed.

I feel like if I slow down, things get dull and uninteresting. Its why I am considering buying a bike next year, and trialling that out.

Nothing accelerates harder than a bike and tbh, driving around in them, in Grand Theft Auto V is such a thrill, I can’t help but wonder if it’ll be the same in reality.

They’re risky, they’re dangerous, they’re liable to kill you … but as a racer, if I’m not pushing the limit …. why stick around on Earth?

I love going fast. I love driving and I am pretty sure I got a gears in my head, instead of a proper brain.

One day, I would love to compete on an international stage or even an Australian-wide stage and prove that I can go toe-to-toe with the best.

Rallycross in particular. There’s nothing like seeing those small, nimble hatchbacks engage in such tight, wheel-to-wheel action, drifting, accelerating and desperately trying to get ahead.

I admit, I started my own event company, to make money, just so I can pursue my obsession with racing.

Hell, even the name, Tofu Events is a reference to my favourite racing anime, Initial D.

One day.

I’ll cross that finish line first somewhere.

Coming second in a race, is just being the first to lose.

~ Damocles

 

 

B30 Challenge Week 4 Rundown

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This was and will remain the view …. every-day for the past month. My three constant companions is the Runnin (feat. A$AP Rocky), my skipping rope and my beat-up TeamMONASH water bottle. 45 mins. Soon to be 60.

Exercise Statistics:

6 workouts – Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday

Furthest Distance – 5.43km

Run Distance – 28.77km

Time – 5 hrs

Calories – 1938

Average workout time – 50 mins

Biggest news first.

I’ve lost a confirmed 2kg in the whole month. Sitting at 82kg now.

Not bad. But I feel like there was some definite room for improvement. The biggest one being if I didn’t push myself so hard during Week 3 and thus pull both my leg muscles, I would have seen better gains.

I also need to watch my diet a lot more. Just because this is becoming routine, doesn’t mean I should start slacking off my diligence when it comes to the amount of food I eat.

Dieting is tougher than exercising.

Drink more Damocles. Drink water. Drink anything, but don’t snack.

On a more positive note …. skipping has become a slight mania for me. I’m now jumping smaller and faster, feeling more light on my feet and the rope movement is speeding up.

Its a good feeling. Now I just have to get the perfect swing side to side and I’ll start looking like some amateur boxer.

This next month or so, I will have to boost the intensity. Maybe skip for longer. Sprint a bit harder …. they say that the closer you get to your goal, the harder it is.

I have to focus and don’t let myself slip.

Consumption:

I ended up eating a whole bag of Trolli’s gummy worms on Wednesday, where I decided to take a day off.

Tsk. Relapse. I feel extremely guilty afterwards.

I ended up pushing myself even harder on Thursday.

Intellectual Exercise:

Maths: Has taken a hit. I haven’t solved a problem in a while, since I’ve been so busy with the TET Festival and redesigning a website. Have to maintain more discipline. Need to get back to answering those daily questions. It only takes 15 minutes damnnit.

English: Read my ramble about my addiction to speed and why it has defined almost everything I do. Need for Speed.

Reading: Thank god though, that I haven’t slipped here. I’ve taken to the habit of bringing my water bottle and Napoleon book everywhere. I have just reached one of the heights and incredible low of Napoleon’s career …. the battle for Austerlitz and Trafalgar.

Its truly amazing how much his tactical genius shone, and ushered in a whole new rulebook that would last till 1945.

I would like a better EDC (Every Day Carry) bag though. I would like to stick my SOF Tactical Tourniquet in there, as well a powerbank for my accursed Galaxy 9.

Would probably like to shop more to better improve my overall EDC ideology, but that can wait once all my crazy purchases for TET has been handled.

Speaking of the festival, observe my website? Send through any feedback.

That about sums up Week 4. The first month of the Before 30 Challenge.

Overall, I guess I am pleased with my progress.

But like all annoying perfectionists who value efficiency in all things, I can’t help feel I could have done a bit better.

You’re always 2 seconds slower than you would like to be.

Gah.

Just have to apply myself even harder.

~Damocles

 

 

B30 Challenge Week 3 Rundown

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Lucas Botkin & Liku in a T.Rex Arms video, showcasing why dry-firing can translate over to real practical shooting skills. Lucas has been somewhat of an inspiration for me, his factual, documentary-style tutorials, overall aesthetic of website and videos and no-bullshit attitude are refreshing in this world of stupid talk. Plus he started his own company, T.Rex Arms, a holster manufacturer, at the age of 19 and is now teaching law enforcement and military members on the finer aspect of shooting …. despite being self-taught. 

Exercise Statistics:

5 workouts – Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday.

Furthest Distance – 4.88km

Run Distance –  22.74km

Time – 4.04 hrs

Calories – 1532

Average workout time – 48 mins

I have to say, the break between last Friday’s workout and my follow-up one on Tuesday was easily the biggest morale breaker for me.

I have never felt so incredibly sluggish when starting my workout on Tuesday and to top it off, I had extended it by another 15 minutes. I somehow felt far worse than I did the previous week and I just didn’t want to do it.

By Wednesday though, I was feeling better.

However the Saturday was the roughest. I woke up early, as to not miss out my workout and on an empty stomach, did my routine.

Skip, Skip, Skip. Run, Run, Run. Push-up, Push-up, Push-up.

Repeat.

Throw in a squat or two. Side step instead of run. Walk if I am feeling too tired to run. I throw in a couple of draws too.

At the end of my workout, I always push myself to run to the end of the block, instead of just the small 30 metre distance I set myself.

I pushed myself so hard, I ended up pulling my calf muscle.

I gave it 110%. I know that I can’t get better if I don’t push myself. I have to push to the point of failure.

But …

That ended up with me skipping Sunday to let my leg recover.

And compromised my pace today on Monday.

Damn leg.

Consumption:

Not much snacking. I ended up eating all my supply on Monday and so for the whole week …. I ended up not eating anything crazy and surprisingly didn’t find any cravings. I still need to drink more water though.

Still washing my face though. Those eye-bags are still extremely prominent.

Intellectual Exercise:

Maths: OK. I remember the smaller things. Like 180 degrees in a triangle. Struggling with algebra. Which is incredibly annoying, since I used to rule algebra.

English: Here is the latest: The GAFA Child.

Reading: I am a bit disappointed with myself. I have been reading a bit less. Probably due to the insane amount of stress I’ve gone through this week, particularly in regards to the TET festival. I’ve been so worked up and concerned, I’ve almost stopped reading.

Got to get back into it. I need to learn to bring my book with me and my water bottle everywhere.

Probably should just learn to accept bags in my life to be honest. Even though I hate wearing them.

That sums up Week 3.

What a struggle it has been to get out of the three day funk. On the plus side, my skipping is getting more efficient and faster.

My stamina still needs a lot more work and how to maintain a high level of proficiency over my body at what I feel is 90%.

I want to raise that 90% effort to a high level.

Next week, Week 4 marks a whole month of this routine. I will also be measuring myself.

Am I nervous?

Damn right I am.

I hope to see some small change occur.

~Damocles.

 

The GAFA Child (Fiction)

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A remnant of a time long gone, the Ute served as the entry to the Feral Children’s lair.

Part 2 of a mini-series

The Bushranger looked down at the caricature of a woman. Even with her exaggerated features, hastily drawn with pencil, and from a loving father’s memory, she was striking. 

Almond eyes that curved beautifully when she smiled, a full row of maintained teeth on display, her hair falling over one side, there was no doubt that Grace, was adopted.

Deputy Jonathan, did not have Asiatic features, like Grace, but his strength of emotion when pleading for the Bushranger to save her, indicated that she was no less his daughter.

Greed, née survivalism was what drove the Bushranger to take the job, despite the lack of information regarding his prey. Bullets didn’t pay for themselves, nor did maintenance of his equipment.

Dingoes, crocodiles and feisty kangaroos were all small fry compared to the Feral Children. He had only ever encountered them far away from the 7 GAFA settlements, but they were legion, and they were rabid.

This job wasn’t going to be easy.

Especially when the deputy demanded that his daughter be returned alive.

The Bushranger decided not to mention the slim odds, that were only getting more anoxeric with each passing day.

It had been a long week, of slow tracking and careful judgement. He would soldier on, through the night, and rest in the shade during the hottest hours. Meals were rationed, and the tracking was often delayed, because he needed a water supply. Such was the life of a hunter in the midst of a slow decaying apocalypse.

When the whole world had gone mad, the simplicity of his lifestyle kept him sane.

Even so, he questioned his sanity when he finally managed to track the Feral Children to their lair underground, the Ute.

The husk of a once fiery red Holden Commodore disturbed the Bushranger, and he swiftly moved the camel to a safe distance of over a kilometer.

Like so many myths, legends and facts, that blur with the passing of time, the Commodore was in actuality a sedan, but so many years had passed, that folklore had simply renamed it the Ute.

A memory was dredged up, of a younger man hooning around town in the exact same car, only his was a metallic green. He recalled the thrill of speed, engine revs and the squeal of brakes.

The soft kiss of a woman in his passenger seat, the wax he applied to the paintwork, and the sound of triumph, when he crossed the line first.

The soft rustle from the camel, bought the Bushranger out of memory lane.

Looking through his newly acquired telescopic scope, he scanned to the left and right of the Ute, trying to discern any tracks.

The Ute was situated in a large clearing, with 4 suspiciously man-made mounds around the entrance, at each compass point. They were the type where Feral Children could pop out and defend their home with ease and disappear into the tunnel system below.

Sparse greenery grew all around the Ute, obscuring vision and preventing clean line-of-sight, and surreptitiously, there was a lack of animal noises. A rifle shot would reverberate across the entire area.

The Bushranger deliberated on what he needed to do. Jumping down, he made the camel kneel, and take a drink from her canteen, whilst he searched his saddlebags.

Laying out the contents, he noted the still full boxes of ammunition he had left. One each for his pistol, and rifle. 200 rounds altogether. A paltry sum.

Looking down at his belt, he noted the 5 magazines of 17 rounds of 9x19mm for his pistol and the smattering of 7.62mm 5 rounds stripper clips for his long rifle.

His ever-faithful Leatherman MUT E.O.D was secured on his belt, accompanied by a brace of throwing knives and a large CRKT M16 tactical knife.

Burrowing his brow in consternation, he flipped open the CRKT, and made a detailed sketch of the lay of the land in the dirt, consulting his telescopic sight every so often to confirm details. Scowling in concentration, the Bushranger mapped out his approach and waited for nightfall.

Like all good soldiers, the Bushranger knew that the best time to strike was just before sun-up. Dawn was when the sentries were the sleepiest, and the attacking force had a bit of light to work with, whilst remaining in the dark. Then when the sun finally came up, if the attack failed, the sun was in the defending force’s eyes.

And so, just before nightfall, the Bushranger played a cruel trick.

He aimed his long rifle at the four mounds, and fired a round into each, in quick succession.

Just to get them out, and sleep deprived by sun-up.

The successive cracks of the rifle disturbed the entire area. Birds found themselves flying away in fright, kangaroos leapt blindly through the bush land and the Feral Children came out in force.

Like their cinematic namesake, the Feral Children were vicious, animalistic and almost Hobbit-like in stature.

Malnutrition, and poor exposure to sunlight, meant that skin was stretched across their bones, and their overwhelming paleness meant that they rarely ventured out during the day, for fear of being burnt.

Their eyes were also blood-shot and unaccustomed to bright lights, and many had severe disfiguration from constant in-fighting and ritualistic barbs, fangs and teeth being pushed through skin as part of their twisted religious fanaticism towards the Saltwater Crocodile.

For all their insanity and aversion to sunlight, the Feral Children were well armed with traditional weaponry; spears, primitive bows, boomerangs and blow-darts laced with red-back venom.

They fought with tenacity and a ferociousness that belied their small size, and often used numbers to overwhelm their opponents.

27 of the Feral Children came out, their weapons held cautiously out, as they hopped and aped around, their gangly bodies, hunched after years of living underground.

The Bushranger, zoomed in on one individual, whose barbs were more prominent on his face and shoulders. It was a extraordinarily ugly individual, whose pale features only served to enhance his bald head, and large nose with a pair of crocodile teeth punched through like a ring.

His shoulders bristled with piercings, some turning septic, other fresher and weeping blood, that he smeared across his back and chest like war paint. The Bushranger named him in his head, the “Big Fucka”, an apt description, for he towered over the others by a full head.

As the telescopic reticle centered on the Big Fucka’s head, the Bushranger checked his rifle and decided against it. They would only spot the muzzle flash, and thus ruin his plan.

Settling back, he slung the rifle over his shoulder, slowly moved away from his sniping position, placed his scarf over his mouth and nose and begun the long crawl.

700 metres later, and what felt like thousand of rocks and a powder box of dust hitting his chest, the Bushranger came across the first sentry.

Lying as still as possible, and keeping his breathing shallow and light, the Bushranger took one of his throwing knives out, and gripped the CRKT in his other hand.

Rising from the small shrub and red dirt like a djinn of Middle Eastern folklore, the Bushranger advanced on his prey and when he was only a few metres away, threw the knife right into the sentry’s throat.

The head snapped back and upwards, and the Bushranger leapt forward and thrust the blade of the CRKT into the sentry’s heart, whilst using the stuck knife to further lacerate the throat wound.

The Feral Child died without a sound.

And the Bushranger moved on.

6 more died the same way, without a whimper echoing across the ground.

Satisfied with the perimeter being cleared, the Bushranger looked at the four mounds and rehearsed how he was going to deal with them, when he came running out of the hood of the Ute.

Taking a deep breath, adjusting his mask and squeezing his eyes shut as hard as he could, to improve his night vision, he tightened the long rifle over his shoulder and stepped over the rusted red bumper of the Ute and ducking his head, entered the lair of the Feral Children.

Darkness swallowed him whole within a few metres.

Personal Analysis:

I have always struggled to make action engaging. I think its hard for me to make the set-up engaging and then keep the crescendo effect going. Its easy to visualise an action set piece in your mind, but a lot harder to make it engaging reading.

The next part should allow me to really stretch my descriptive skills and hopefully make an homage to Episode 3 of The Mandalorian action. A lone gunslinger shooting and fighting his way out of a desperate situation whilst protecting someone.

I also drew inspiration for the Ute‘s entrance in the film Red (2010) in which John Malkovich’s character; Marvin Boggs invites Frank Moses (Bruce Willis) and Sarah Ross (Mary-Louise Parker) into his house: a rust bucket Chevrolet, to avoid the decoy house.

Trying to incorporate Australian slang into this though, was tough. How do I do it seamlessly? I guess you will be the judge of that!

Until the next chapter

~Damocles

B30 Challenge Week 2 Rundown

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There’s MarioKart ….. and then there’s Karting for Mario. I like to think I’m always racing for Mario cos of my early love for MarioKart 64.

Exercise Statistics

5 Workouts – Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday.

Furthest Distance – 3.14km

Run Distance – 14.37km

Time – 4.8 hrs

Calories – 1424

Steps – 9593

Average workout time – 31 mins

I have managed to get into a more regimental discipline about my exercise. 7.30pm or 8pm is my usual time to exercise for half-hour. I start with skipping, then a short run, then walk for a spell, throw in 10 push-ups and then rinse and repeat.

I do it all on the road, using my car and the end of my block as a measure of distance. I skip in public, feeling better that strangers are judging me, and thus forcing me to go the distance than quit halfway in ignominy.

I feel the last of the sun, then the cold of the night wraps around me in that half hour.

Its nice.

I’ve had to skip 3 days out of the 7, and I admit, I’m not incredibly happy about that. But next week, starting Monday, the time is going to stretch to 45 minutes. If you don’t push yourself, how can you ever improve?

On a different note, I have been karting twice this month, and I’ll be the first to admit, I am pleasantly surprised to see that I am come first twice amongst a lot of amateurs. It means my racing is getting better and that’s all I want to see happen, if I am ever to make it in a professional setting.

My line needs to be cleaner, my momentum faster and my braking points later …. as someone once said …. I’m always 2 seconds slower than where I want to be.

Practice? I hear you say?

Yeah, sure if I can afford 35 dollars for a 10 minute session.

Fortunately I have a wheel rig attached to my computer.

So off to the simulator I go.

Consumption:

Surprisingly, its better. I’m snacking less and feeling a bit less hung up about it. I don’t need to have it as much as last week and I’m drinking a lot more water.

Another plus, is that because of the exercise I do, now I wash my face regularly. Lots of car fumes, dirt and sweat to remove.

Maybe I can get some semblance of handsome-ness with good skin care?

Sure, Damocles I hear you say. That’s like claiming, with skin care, Revlon and surgery you could one day rival Cillian Murphy, when in all honesty you probably resemble Pete Postlethwaite more.

(Google them. Hard to think they were father and son in Inception.)

Intellectual Exercise:

Maths: Steady improvement. Not much else to say. I reckon I can pass Grade 6 maths now. Grade 8? Still getting 60% pass rates.

English: Here is my latest. The Bushranger.

Reading: I am now up to the part where Napoleon has just claimed sovereignty over France. And its incredible how much he has reversed the damage the Revolution inflicted on itself in France. Goes to show how the combination of charisma, clear leadership, efficient and clever governship can literally transform an entire country.

What a leader he was.

I can rightly say, I am an admirer. And I wish there were more dictators.

Everything else seems so inefficient and maddeningly slow.

Here is a list of the new words I’ve learn this week:

  1. Revanchism
    • a policy of seeking retaliation. Especially for lost territory
  2. soi-disant
    • self-styled … so-called.
  3. Histrionically
    • over-dramatising your speech
  4. Bishopric
    • a diocese under a bishop’s control
  5. Oleaginously
    • oily …. falsely or smugly earnest.
  6. sangfroid
    • composure/coolness shown in dangerous conditions
  7. Epistolary
    • in the form of letters
  8. Pusillanimous
    • timid
  9. Semaphore
    • a alphabet of signals using arms/flags.
  10. Arraigned
    • call or bring someone to court
  11. Scrimshaw
    • scroll-work/engraving done on bone.

That about sums about Week 2.

They say it takes a month to really let everything become muscle memory.

Means I still have another 2 weeks.

That equates to another 14 days of my custom Rocky playlist, especially my power song: Runnin’ from Creed 2 composer Ludwig Goransson.

Nothing gets me more amped than that.

I think I am doing all right.

But no gain was ever fully earned by feeling all right.

Its time I left this comfort zone and push even harder.

Chat to you all in the third week.

I hope the Bushranger proves a nice read!

~Damocles.

The Bushranger (Fiction)

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Set in a none too distant future …. where a world has gone mad.

Part 1 of a mini-series.

The sun shone mercilessly across the great desert plains. Heat hazes rose from the ground, causing shimmering mirages.

The earth was scorched red, through centuries of exposure to unyielding sunlight and what greenery there was, was sparse, coarse and rough. The sky was endlessly blue, with little cloud cover and mountains, hills and mounds ebbed and flowed endlessly across the horizon.

In this inhospitable environment, nothing moved if it didn’t have to. The native fauna, sought cover and water and stayed close when it could find it.

However, out of the shimmer, rode the Bushranger.

Swaying atop a camel, his long gun slung over his broad shoulders, and his gloved hands lightly holding the reins, the Bushranger cut an intimidating figure.

An Akubra Cattleman shielded his face, casting his piercing emerald eyes, and tanned, rugged features in perpetual shadow. He wore a loose scarf, that could double as a mask, a wheat coloured Brompton jacket that hid a dark green vest, and matching straw-coloured jodhpurs that ended in calf length reddish brown boots.

The camel, a trusted creature, was adorned in a rich tapestry that echoed the colours of the outback, and had two saddlebags on either side, that carried all the supplies the Bushranger could need.

He had been travelling for close to two weeks in the wild. In spite of the hardships, and that close encounter with a pack of dingos, he was still physically fit, mentally alert and in full control of his faculties.

Scanning the horizon, the Bushranger took out his pocket monocle from a pouch on his belt, and saw signs of civilisation almost 3 kilometres away. Pulling out his map, he checked the direction he was headed with his compass, and urged the camel from a slow gait to a faster medium trot.

Coober Pedy was a town that boasted a population of less than two hundred people … and it liked it that way. Formerly known for its opals, and dugouts, Coober Pedy was one of those places that had remained largely untouched by the Great Fire event due to its remote location and self-sustaining nature. The fact that it was so far from any coastline, had a lot to do with its survivability, and it served its purpose as of the 7 GAFA (Great Australia F**k All) towns left on the continent.

Governance was feudal at best, and savage at its worst. Families fought one another regularly but they were bonded together by their hatred of outsiders. The Crazy Coobers was a real phenomenon that described any situation where a coastal stranger entered their town, and found themselves driven out by sheer tribalism attitudes. Yet, they still had to answer to the Spring Law, and so, when the Bushranger entered, with a corpse in tow, they didn’t react as per their reputation.

Instead, they merely trained their guns on him.

To their silent relief, he kept moving, through the main thoroughfare, and when he did stop, it was in front of the Sheriff’s office.

Looking around at the litany of guns trained at him, from rooftops, to basements, the Bushranger ignored them all, and focused his attention on the corpse that was used to smell but had since been thoroughly dried up by the desert conditions.

The face was handsome once. As were the lively eyes. Both had been shot out, leaving only congealed jelly behind in empty sockets. But the bounty was still recognisable. The clothes were ripped from endless rocks, grass and dirt. Even the flies had left the corpse alone.

Dragging it to the entrance, the Bushranger gave a polite knock, before bowing his head to enter.

Sheriff Taylor was an overweight bureaucrat, who preferred creature comforts to anything resembling police work. He was elected by the populace, on accounts that he let everyone do whatever the hell they wanted, and got paid accordingly in the only currency that mattered … water and food.

Looking with distaste, at the Bushranger, he set down the pen he was using and peered beyond the tall figure.

“Ah Christ …. Jono, would you look after this for me mate?”

Deputy Jonathan stood up from his desk and motioned towards the back.

The Bushranger nodded and stepped back out, to take the corpse to the rear of the office.

“Good work on this guy. Did he give you any trouble?”

Hearing no reply, the deputy shrugged.

“Well, you didn’t seem to come off any worse for wear. Here …”. The deputy tossed something towards the Bushranger.

Catching the pouch, he pinched it open and nodded with satisfaction.

As he turned away, the deputy whispered something.

Making no sign that he had heard, the Bushranger kept moving, and walked across the thoroughfare, and into the gun shop.

Hendricks, was just like the drink. Dark, stout and rare. He was one of 3 gunsmiths left in the entirety of the GAFA, and the long rifle that the Bushranger had slung over his shoulder, was a personal gift from smith to saviour.

The Bushranger, slid across the pouch and added two more from his belt.

Hendricks slit them open, and examining them closely, grunted affirmatively.

Walking to the rear, he came back with 2 boxes of ammunition and a small telescope.

Loosening the rifle from his shoulder, the Bushranger placed it gently atop the wooden bench-top, and watched as Hendricks installed magnets atop the rail of the gun. Hearing a satisfying click, as the telescopic sight mounted itself atop the gun, and with little effort, pull apart again, Hendricks placed the sight into a clip-on pouch and handed it over to the Bushranger.

Affixing the pouch to his belt, the Bushranger nodded in gratitude, and walked back to his camel, where he leapt atop, and with a quick flick of his wrist, untethered the beast.

Riding out of town, he urged the camel on for a quick trot.

Nearly an hour later, the Bushranger saw the twin landmarks of the Breakaways, a mass that was once covered by sea, now native fauna. White, gold, red, brown mixed seamlessly in a picturesque and untouched manner that only millions of years of landscaping could design on land.

Finding a shady outcrop of rock, and bushland, the Bushranger grabbed the bundled up mattress from the camel, and placed it on the floor. Driving a stake through the ground, and undoing the bit from the camel’s mouth, he allowed the girl to wander, and find water, whilst he searched for firewood.

It was only an hour later, when the sunset was beginning to turn into darkness, when the Bushranger finished his sparse meal of salted kangaroo jerky, and lightly cooked witchetty grubs, that the deputy came out of the bloom on his horse.

With one hand by his pistol, the Bushranger motioned the deputy to stop at 10 paces away.

“Easy” said Deputy Jonathan, his hands high in the air. “I just wanna talk, mate.”

The Bushranger predictably said nothing to this useless statement.

“Look, I got another job for you. Its about my daughter, Grace.”

Pausing for dramatic effect, but greeted with an anticlimactic response, Jonathan continued weakly

“She was kidnapped a week ago by the Feral Children. You have to help me, she’s all I’ve got left.”

The Bushranger tilted his head slightly at the news.Then he made a rubbing motion with his fingers.

“We’ll give you at least triple the amount you saw in the pouch for that last bounty.”

The Bushranger opened his mouth, and allowed his jaw muscles to unclench. His voice, gruff, rough and gravelly from a lack of use, sent chills down the Deputy’s spine.

“Where.”

“They took her … to the Ute.”

To be continued ….

Personal Analysis:

I think I really like the world I’ve created here. Its meant to echo current fears about climate change, in which I made a bold natural disaster known as the Great Fire wipe out all coastal towns in Australia, thus only leaving those tiny places in the outback as the final frontiers/settlement left.

Spring Law, is of course my play on Alice Spring, which acts as the major form of governance in a ruined Australia, that echos a little bit of Mad Max and my inspiration for this post, The Mandalorian.

You can probably see the clear references to the titular character, in the Bushranger.

I still got a lot of work to do though, with pacing and how much world-building is needed, whether I can trim down details or just overall improve the mood of the story.

As always, if you got feedback, message them to me!

However, stay tuned for part 2, next week.

~Damocles

B30 Challenge Week 1 Rundown

Exercise Statistics

Height: 174cm

Weight: 84kg

BMI: 27.7 (Overweight)

Recommended weight range: 56-75.4kg 

I have been extremely slow to get my exercise regime going. I only started today, 7 days after I promised myself I would get going. A clear sign of my reluctance to exercise and mental difficulty in motivating myself to do it.

But that is the truth. I skipped today for 30 mins, mixed with running and a couple of sets of push-ups.

Burnt 110 calories. A pittance for many.

I need to engage myself more. 1/2 hour of working out is too little, and yet …. I can’t be bothered to do it.

Making this shameful report though, did force me out.

Consumption:

Its been a remarkable struggle. I have been drinking a lot more water as a result of trying to combat the snack pangs that my stomach have been having. It has taken me a surprising amount of willpower not to eat more and no doubt has contributed to my lack of motivation to exercise.

There are snacks at work. Snacks at Coles, Woolworths … all these temptations gnaw at me and my stomach and is arguably very difficult to control.

I bought myself the Natural Confectionary Co. 10 Mini Fruity Gems Bags in an effort to control myself. I ran out of those by Friday.

Its tougher than I thought to turn off the sugar cravings. But push through I shall

Intellectual Exercise

Maths: I am little better than a Year 8 student. Its embarrassing how much my maths skills have slipped. Algebra, division, square root …. a lot of these skills are rusty and in dire need of practice-repair. I have been working on this site Maths Buddy Online every day, from Grade 1 to 8. I have gotten more than my fair share of wrong answers.

But its slowly improving.

English: See for yourself here: Dialogue Practice 1

Reading: I have started Andrew Roberts’ Napoleon the Great and frankly its brilliant. The book is thick, hefty, with tiny script and thoroughly engaging with its wordplay and hefty anecdotes from Napoleon’s 33,000 letters.

I am only up to page 145 of 820, and no doubt, finishing this book will be a long task, like how I read James Clavell’s magnum opus: Shogun  during high school. I love that book still. It is so rare to find such a readable and robust book and I am glad I have started again.

The Napoleonic Wars remains my favourite period of history, and it is still a delight to read about that era of humanity, and just why Napoleon truly defined the period in which he ruled. The book itself is so engaging, because Napoleon himself is such an incredible character.

If you had to read a book about the man himself, look no further than this.

Most amusing to me, is that, like a lot of great men who rose to incredible power, he’s not even a native of France. He’s a Corsican.

On a more tangible note …. here are all the new words I’ve learnt:

  1. Bicameral
    • Having two chambers. A term predominantly to describe type of governance.
  2. Cicatrix
    • The scar of a healed wound.
  3. Coglione
    • Italian for asshole.
  4. Elan
    • Energy, style and enthusiasm (something I lack for physical exercises)
  5. Impecunious
    • Having little or no money.
  6. Manque
    • Having failed to become what one might have been (Napoleon was a writer manque)
  7. Miasma
    • An unpleasant or unhealthy smell or vapour.
  8. Septuagenarian
    • A person between 70 to 79 years old.

That sums up Week 1.

I am feeling intellectually more stimulated and keen to write more, even if I do ape after my hero, and am a writer manque.

I definitely have more room to improve on in regards to the physical aspect.

There is still a very long way to go before I hit the ideal 74kg goal.

On a side note, all this stimulation has also fired me up for my own business Tofu Events. I am also keen to pick up a language. But I should pace myself a bit.

Who knew living healthy had so many benefits?

non ducor, duco. (I am not led, I lead)

~Damocles

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Such a pity this isn’t a real image of Napoleon. However, it does display the immense charisma, incredible work ethic and sheer magnetism of the man. I’ve always liked this image though.

Dialogue Practice 1

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When Harry Met Sally (1989). Meg Ryan (left) and Billy Crystal (Right) as the titular characters in the famous deli scene. There’s even a table dedicated to them at the Katz’s Delicatessen in NYC.

Context: A couple, in their 30s, out on a date for the first time together. Having recently plucked up the courage to ask out his coworker, John is nervous but keen to make a first impression. Mary on the other hand, used to being asked out, is relaxed and confident, however she is secretly pleased John had asked her out, as she has always had her eye on him in the office. They are having a candle-lit dinner, in a private booth, of a recently trending Japanese bar in Melbourne.

John: Just so, I don’t make this mistake of talking too much about work, do you prefer us to talk about something else?

Mary: I’m relaxed. I don’t mind talking about work, but …

John: Yeah fair enough, we talk to each other enough there anyway. Umm … do you have any siblings?

Mary: (laughing lightly) Yes, I do. I have two younger sisters. Ashleigh and Jane. They’re 27 and 25. Both are about to get married soon.

John: Really?

Mary: Yeah. I’m sort of the black sheep in the family. I’ve come close a lot of times, but it’s just never really panned out.

John: Do you mind if I ask why?

Mary: Yeah I do actually. Sorry.

An awkward silence descends ….

John: Sorry. I shouldn’t have tried to ask. I’m just nervous.

Mary: Its OK.

John: Dates are difficult for me. I never really quite know what to ask.

Mary: Well, you could try asking about things that aren’t related to my exes for one.

John reflexively coughs in disbelief. But when he sees Mary smile, he feels a bit better.

John: OK. Let me try again. What do you like to do after work?

Mary: Well … aside from going out on dates with awkward men, I like to watch Netflix, going to my Pilates class and learn new languages.

John: Wow. What are learning at the moment?

Mary: French. I know … I know … its cliched. But I spent a semester abroad there in high school, and I ended up falling in love with French culture.

John: avoir bonne mine

Mary: Wow. Merci beaucoup. That was impressive.

John: Just a bit of high school French. Its about the only thing I remember.

Mary: How about yourself John? What do you like to do after work?

John: I’m kind of the same. I like to unwind with Netflix. But I like taking up a lot of new classes. I’m not learning any new languages, but I do some self – defence classes, and recently I took up some textiles classes.

Mary: textiles? Like sewing and knitting?

John: Yep. What? …. I just one day realized that I can’t actually repair my clothes and instead of spending 80 dollars to get them repaired, why not do it myself? See this tie?

Mary: Don’t tell me, you made that ….

John: I did! It took me about a week. But I was really happy with the way how it turned out.

Mary: Can I?

John: Sure.

Mary: Wow Is this silk?

John: Yep. I had it imported.

Mary: Is this your first attempt?

John: Yeah ….. nah I’m just kidding. I’ve been doing textiles classes for at least 2 months now. So its not that recent. But I made my first tie about a month ago. So now I’ve been doing socks, ties, and I’m about to make my own shirt.

Mary: That’s amazing. I should take up a class like that.

John: Well if you are keen, I’m happy to take you to one of mine!

Mary: I’d like that.

John: Care for dessert?

Mary: We always have room for dessert.

John signals the waiter and orders matcha ice-cream with red bean topping. His body language is relaxed, confident and this is reflected in his more casual posture. He isn’t standing to attention as much, and Mary seems to let her guard down more.

The date is a success.

Personal Analysis:

I still think its a bit clunky. I think I struggle the most with getting into other people’s head. I am so wrapped up in my own, its difficult to imagine a different style of talking, with realistic pauses, word use and just sounding different to me.

This probably represents my best attempt. I tried to make John sound more confident as the conversation went along, whilst Mary, with her experience, was just allowing John to take the reins.

A bit of an improvement over my old ways of talking.

But ….

Practice, Practice, Practice.

Damocles.

The Before 30 Challenge ….

Male, 26 years old.

Not in the greatest shape.

Physically and mentally.

These are the facts that matter with this challenge. This is my new label to instil some discipline into my life.

Recently, I’ve been struck with the melancholy introspective thought that I am not where I want to be. I don’t have the best body. I don’t feel particularly sharp. I feel I struggle with words. I haven’t read enough books this year.

A lot of these things, have stemmed from my destructive habits I developed during university.

After all, I was dissatisfied with my course, anxious about passing, disenchanted with how utterly broken universities were run and feeling lost and without purpose.

This of course, meant that I meant a good deal of time feeling aimless, lazy, procrastinating and dissatisfied with any results that were handed to me.

I used to be a lot poorer mentally, but such depressing airs did little for my anathema for self-pity, so over the years, I’ve been writing on a private blog, talking myself out of the funk.

I’m not a person who is used to feeling low, and so … lots of harsh self-criticism later, I’ve managed to create a mindset that is a lot healthier, a lot more stable and with disciplined control over emotions.

So then, why do I feel mentally poor? Well its less to do with self-esteem and more with mental acuity. I don’t feel as learned, as clever as I should be. I can feel my synapses dying for some mental exercises.

It has gotten to the point where I am actively trying to BODMAS my way through counting registers at the end of my shifts just to keep my maths skills sharp.

2019 also marks the year where I have read the least amount of books.

A defining mark of shame for a guy who likes to say he is a bookworm first, before anything else.

To address the other issue. I believe I am a little bit overweight.

Even that statement is a bit of a revelation to me. Its stranger to see it, written factually than just a concept you can ignore in your head.

But, as I’ve mentioned …. I haven’t gotten where I am, without being brutally honest with myself and criticising the flaws.

Can’t fix problems, if you can’t ID them.

And if you can’t be honest with yourself, who else can you trust?

Now, I can hear you say Damocles, that’s all good and all, but what is the point of all these revelations if you aren’t willing to commit to the proverbs you preach? Who is going to judge you and your acts?

I guess this is why I’ve named it the Before 30 Challenge.

This challenge has come about, simply because I want to think that people in their 30s are at their peak. Peak attractiveness, peak confidence, peak everything. I’ve always been attracted to women in their 30s, because mentally and physically, they just seem to have it all together.

I want to feel and see the evidence of that when staring at my 30s reflection.

I refuse to live a life where I will look back and have cause to regret. Because that would mean I made a mistake, that was in my control. And there are a thousands things I control, and its foolish to think that the world is spiralling out of control, when I know I can do so much with myself here and now.

Its a lack of responsibility to care for yourself, that leads to a lot of darker things.

So hence, I am starting this challenge to look after myself.

On the mental side, I will start doing the following things:

  1. Write at least once a week. It can be personal. It can be a poem. It might be a screenplay. It could be a short story. Anything. As long as I write and practice.
  2. Read a chapter of a book once a week. Not hard. But I’ve stopped reading for so long, it makes me tired. I want to get my reading stamina up again. I’ve missed flicking pages, adopting new styles of writing and learning new words.
  3. Start doing more mathematics equations on a daily basis.

For the physical element, I plan on starting these regimes:

  1. Cut down on the snacking. Limit myself to only 1 snack bag a week
  2. 1/2 hour of skipping rope a day
  3. 1/2 hour of push ups/sit ups a day
  4. Increase my weekly number of running and walking exercises. Except … I politely refuse to do any hiking. Because if I wanted to climb mountains, I wouldn’t have invested in a car, discovered jumping out of planes or be satisfied with climbing them in Red Dead Redemption 2 …. on a horse.

All these things seem easy. But for a lazy slob like myself, I think it will prove challenging.

I’d rather set myself realistic and simple goals, than try to overachieve and fall on my ass and feel even shittier about myself.

Habits and routines are hard to get into, but once I commit to them for more than a month, I hope they will get less painful and less de-motivating.

On this journal, I will post my weekly exercise, and allow you all to critique, and hopefully witness some form of growth in my writing skills.

Please support me along this journey, and with any luck, by the time I am 30, I will have exceeded all these targets and really feel like I’ve restored some order to my aimless life.

Life should have objectives … they help us feel like we got purpose.

acta non verba.

I’ve written enough about the Before 30 Challenge. Now its time for me to execute.

~ Damocles.

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I’ll get to your level one day Saitama. Hopefully without the balding effect.