Noir [4/7] (Fiction)

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It was the next day, and Alex found himself alone, cold and sleep deprived. 

The passion that had fuelled last night had worn off and Alex found himself longing for the warmth of Eveline’s slim body as his body shuddered in the cold dark, and he padded naked to the shower to restore some heat in his body.

She had disappeared shortly after they made love twice, citing that she needed to prepare for work the next day.

“Promise me, you won’t keep me in the dark, Alex.” she had whispered as they laid intertwined on his small single bed, pale moonlight shining through, and illuminating her blue eyes.

Alex had silently nodded, his paranoia still screaming in his mind. He didn’t trust himself anymore. Things were moving so rapidly that he wasn’t sure how to feel, behave or act.

Eveline sealed his lips with a kiss, before slipping her clothes on and walking away with her laptop.

Alex didn’t sleep at all, choosing to stare at the ceiling and just appreciate sex for the first time in many years.

When he felt energised to move again, he booked a PC at the local internet cafe and went through the footage, making a phone call to trace the garbage truck’s route with an irate operator.

By the time it was 5am, Alex was jumping onto a train, to the city where he would walk the rest of the way to South Melbourne.

He had passed through the suburb earlier, on his tram trip to St Kilda, but he was venturing on the elite side of the neighbourhood, with its’ high rises, corporate buildings, and brothels.

The entire area, was split by St Kilda Road, in which multiple tram tracks and roads ran down, into the centre of the Melbourne CBD. On one side, it was dominated by the Royal Botanic Gardens, a beautiful parkland that was guarded by the Shrine of Remembrance, a stunning replica of the ancient Wonder, known as the Mausoleum at Halicarnassus.

It’s presence, a sobering reminder of the ANZACs that fought for Australia since its inception, a place all too familiar to Alex.

However Alex was walking on the other side, a strip that boasted luxurious apartments like the Melburnian, with its sweeping, ultra modern sleek design, and another reminder of his past, the Victoria Barracks, its tall stout brick exterior betraying nothing within.

However, the true undercurrent that always accompanied the military, were the numerous brothels hidden and scatted amidst all this honour and prestige. They could be found tucked next to tall buildings, their single storey design, unassuming and innocuous, barely risque signs at the front, with vague promises, like The Cherry Blossom. 

Alex, already harbouring suspicions about Francois’ whereabouts, had already googled the Pink Palace, and noted that it was not on the route that the garbage-men took. However, the brothel was only less than a kilometre away at certain points.

Candice the Collateral thought Alex, as he recalled the image of the slain prostitute whose services Joel nee Francois frequented. She was attractive in a heroin chick sort of fashion. Her features were similar to Kate Moss in her hey-day, with sharp cheekbones, straight blonde hair, doe-eyes and a sensual mouth that was perfected by a small sharp chin.

The similarities between Eveline and Candice’s facial structures were striking, however Eveline’s eyes were far too cold and intelligent, giving her a razor-sharp maturity and mystery. Her figure was a classic hourglass, the silhouette strong and curvaceous.

Candice’s eyes, even in death, were tragic and soft, her body more girly, with smaller breasts and a slimmer profile hinting at innocence and purity, an irony considering her job.

The two women provided a fascinating dichotomy in Francois’ taste and an insight into the man himself.

It also solved the mystery as to who the red Agent Provocateur bra belonged to. It was Candice’s.

Wondering what she might have been like, Alex kept walking along the garbage truck route, as the rain slowly intensified until it reached its zenith, before subsiding into a soft mellow rhythmic pitter-patter that coincided with his footfalls in puddles.

His peacoat soaked through, Alex ignored the water that sluiced its’ way down his neck, and kept following the route, until he finally came across an alleyway.

The emerald eyes widened in recognition as he recalled the work car that was parked behind, and the angle of the bins.

Taking a brief look at the front, the shop that had all the drama, revealed itself to be Alan Grant’s Antiquities, a store that specialised in European furniture and French decor.

Alex smiled to himself, and wandered around the back, looking for clues.

The footage from the video played constantly in his mind, as he mimed it, in the drizzling rain, and paid extra care as to whether he could see any tracks left behind by Francois’ Renault.

Determining there was nothing he could discern, Alex looked hard at the rear door and the size of the alleyway. Making a face of consternation at the mental calculations he performed in his head, Alex moved away and began to make a beeline to the Pink Palace.

He took the most direct route, pretending that he was driving a gold Renault, and to his shock, after 15 minutes of walking he saw such a car parked at the Pink Palace.

Incredulously, he walked closer to the hatchback, and confirmed the number plate.

9KM 87L – Victoria The Place to Be.

Was this really where Francois, the man who was accused of murdering his mistress, was hiding?

Was the art thief on the run from a shady Mercenary, cavorting his way through women?

After all this searching, had Alex really found the notorious owner of a Cezanne?

Alex, remembering his encounter with Flat Cap and Liverpool, kept ambling past the Pink Palace, painstakingly checking his tail for a solid walk around the block, before walking back to the Renault, which was parked at the rear entrance of the Palace.

Alex, shaking his coat to get it something akin to dry, walked in and was assailed by 70s nostalgia and neon pink.

Disco was playing softly, the music giving a fun and energetic vibe to the brothel, emphasising the carefree nature of the transaction that was about to take place.

Amber striped walls, with erotic photos and artwork were accented by honey coloured lights and neon lava lamps. The carpet was a psychedelic cascade of circles, swirls and spirals, that reacted crazily to the lighting.

Even the smell of the Pink Palace, hinted at its unique groove; sweet, sharp and citrus, the neon orange diffuser in the corner of the reception desk pumping out its sensual mist into the foyer.

A neon pink sign hung behind the attractive receptionist, clad in the stereotypical sexy secretary garb.

TRY NOT TO BLUSH

“How can we help you today stranger?” said the receptionist sexily.

“I would like to see the Madam of the house, if you don’t mind” replied Alex.

The receptionist lost her smile, replacing it with a frown of confusion.

“OK,” said the receptionist recovering, “just give me 5 minutes.”

Alex nodded and looked around, noting the thick book on the table, which allowed visitors to look at bios and photos of the girls they wanted for the night.

About a third of the way through, there were empty sleeves, no doubt the bio for Candice removed and the Madam of the Brothel unable to find a replacement girl just yet.

“How can we help you?” said a husky voice coldly.

Alex turned around, and saw the receptionist standing behind the Madam of the Brothel, a pale, tall curvaceous woman with dark eyes and even darker hair. The Madam looked like a pin-up woman come to life, the thin eyebrows perfectly arched, the red lips wrapped around a cigarette and the curly sable hair parted just so.

“Don’t you recognise me?” said Alex with a smile.

The Madam stared at Alex for a moment, before her lips curled upwards in a smile.

“Alex Ryder. I haven’t seen you in over 4 years. Now here you are, even skinnier and closer to death than when I last saw you.”

“It’s good to see you too” remarked Alex drily.

“Now what trouble are you bringing to my establishment Mr Private Eye? You scared Tilly here a bit with your attitude.”

Alex made an apologetic face to the receptionist who pouted prettily back.

“I’m here about Joel McNamara.”

The Madam raised a perfect eyebrow. “Joel?”

“Joel.”

The Madam stared at Alex’s emerald eyes, questioning his motives, looking for any signs she could actually trust him to do right by her and her girls.

“You can trust me. I helped you once, that wasn’t just a one-time thing. I can help you again. Let me help you. This isn’t just about Joel. It’s also about Candice.” said Alex gently.

The Madam sighed in an exasperated manner. She turned to Tilly. “He was exactly the same way when we first met. I can’t deny him when he talks like that.”

“Very well Alex.” sighed the Madam, relenting. “I had a feeling someone was going to come for him sooner or later. Better you than some asshole who wants to hurt one of my girls. Take this card. You’ll find him in the Pink Room. Tilly, show Alex the way please.”

“Thank you.” said Alex gratefully. The Madam nodded and blew a kiss his way, before walking back to her office, disappearing behind a curtain.

Alex followed Tilly up the affectionately named “Stairway to Heaven”, Tilly taking the time to study Alex’s gaunt features and his intelligent attractiveness. She smiled to herself. If only all clients were so unique looking.

They passed down the hallway, filled with alluring pictures, warning posters about condoms and the rules of the brothel.

The hallway itself was hazy, dim and alluring. The sounds from the speakers was rhythmic and throbbing.

It was the music of improper girls, doing naughty things to bad, bad boys.

Alex thought he could hear soft moans, but ignored them, keeping his eye open for fire escape doors and quick exits. Tilly paused outside a beautifully crimson door, with the words The Pink Room labelled in cursive script.

“Here it is, Mr Ryder. Knock first and then slide the card the Madam gave you OK?”

Alex nodded his thanks and she pouted prettily at him, before flicking her blonde hair over her shoulder and making her way back to the reception desk.

Alex looked at the door, and found himself shaking his head.

A French art thief caught in a brothel. How novel.

Alex knocked twice and entered, using the keycard. He stood in the doorway, a barrier for any escape and looked cautiously in the room.

Designed after the infamous Red Room in Twin Peaks, the floor was black and white, with scarlet curtains covering the walls. The bed was black to match the couch in the show and beside it stood two simple lamps. Much to Alex’s surprise, another replica of the Venus De Milo statue was also staring at the bed, mirroring Joel’s house.

Joel McNamara himself, was sitting on the bed, reading a book.

Alex wondered whether he was in some surrealist dream. Shaking himself out of his paranoia, Alex shut the door behind him gently and introduced himself.

“Mr McNamara. The name is Alex Ryder, private investigator. You’re a hard man to find.”

Author’s Note

The story is being made up as I go along. But I can definitely feel the world starting to become more real in my mind.

In this part, I wanted to add a few more layers to the subplot about Francois being a suspect to a murder, but I will be the first to admit, it’s a weak one and I kind of want to remove it. However this is what it’s all about, making mistakes and learning to tighten things in future stories.

So I tried to flesh out Candice, the murdered girl more. But it is very weak and probably my least favourite part of writing this story so far. I wanted to show that Francois was possible of loving two girls, hence the similar facial structures, but he had to want more than just what Eveline offered to him, hence the variance in body style and shape.

I might find a way to strengthen this subplot, but I get the feeling, it’ll be too much of a distraction to the real plot, regarding the Cezanne.

I also wanted to just subtly hint at extra parts to Alex’s past. I won’t mention any details, as it is important to me, that you, the reader, have your own image of Alex and fill him out with your imagination.

Your interpretation of him, is just as important as me writing him.

The featured picture is an legit photograph of The Pink Palace in South Melbourne. However, it has long been sold and renovated into something else. I was struck by the interior design, as it was built during the 70s and knew I had to incorporate it into my story somehow.

I also hoped the details about interiors have helped you, the reader, better picture the place in your mind. I really wanted them to stand out as unique locations in this story. The idea for Joel’s French-centric design was born out of a pure random flash of inspiration as I wrote it, and that literally let to the idea that he was an retired art thief, who adored his home country and wanted to own a piece of artwork from his culture.

I will get into more detail about the Cezanne robbery in the next chapter, but note it will be a fictionalised version of the real heist itself.

Part 5 will come soon.

~ Damocles.

Noir [3/7] (Fiction)

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Eveline Winston looked at her rear-view mirror and pressed her lips together. 

The crimson stained her lips and turned the natural pout into a more sensual gloss.

Sighing, she looked over at her outfit, the same uniform that she was wearing yesterday, the only difference being the dark grey turtleneck she was sporting underneath her coat.

Touching her neck, Eveline ignored the tired look in her blue eyes, before flicking back her onyx hair and opening the door to her BMW sedan.

Opening the latch to the small fence at Alex’s house, Eveline saw that the door was open and she slowly creaked it open, knocking as she did so.

“Alex?” she half yelled to the empty house.

As she moved to take off her shoes, before venturing further, she looked down and saw a thin trail of blood.

Fear blossomed rapidly in her mind and Eveline found herself morbidly curious as she followed the trail into Alex’s kitchen.

~ Earlier

Alex was sitting in his office, entranced and desperate to see whether the CCTV footage would reveal anything of use.

Looking down at the program, he noted that he was only an hour and a half in. He had already poured through the damning excel spreadsheet, his mind abuzz with Joel’s ingenuity and the prospect of a proper Maltese Falcon hunt. Excitement was rampant and Alex could not believe he had scored such a case.

Alex, as he stared at the video, noted the hour and time when a garbage truck arrived in frame and two men began to go about their business, their actions looking small and decisive as they threw bag after bag into the back.

Looking down at his note pad, Alex placed down a question mark regarding the number plate. If he could pull the plate off the truck, there was a good chance he could track down the route and work out where this footage was taken.

However, it was around the 2 hour and 45 minute mark, that Alex finally found why Joel had kept this footage.

It was his alibi to the current crime he was accused of. However the only problem was … it showed Joel doing something else that would raise a lot more questions, and thus lead to the discovery of the elusive Maltese Falcon gambit that now everyone was looking for.

Joel, casually dressed in a polo and slacks, had pulled up in his gold Renault Megane and gotten out, his hands grasping a rolled cylinder. Opposite him, unseen off screen, another car’s lights were extinguished and a man stepped out, large and muscular, dressed impeccably in a suit and overcoat.

The two were seen animatedly talking, Joel using many hand gestures and casually waving the large cylindrical roll in his hand. The muscular stranger was much more tense, his body language still and taunt, hands buried deep in his pockets, his face overcast by the night shadows of buildings.

Alex, wishing he could hear what was going on, paid close attention to the proceedings and the damning date, time, camera type information in the corner of the screen.

The conversation, went on for a full 3 minutes, Joel gesticulating and placating, the stranger menacing and frozen. Joel, exasperated, made a fruitless gesture with his hands, before shouldering the cylinder and walking away.

The stranger stared at Joel’s retreating Renault, before taking out a phone and making a brief 30 second call and then spinning around to his car off-screen.

Alex looked at the time and his emerald pupils widened at the implications it did to his mental timeline.

They widened further still, when he heard a knock at the door.

Alex, assuming it was Eveline got up and opened the door.

The door swung inward violently, breaking Alex’s nose.

Instantly disoriented and stumbling backwards, Alex barely felt the hand that grasped his shirt and register the second blow, which cracked into his cheek and sent him tumbling to the floor.

A boot came and smashed into his abdomen. Alex would have vomited, but there was nothing to give in his wretchedly empty stomach.

Dazed and in more agony than he could remember, black gloved hands lifted him up from under his armpits and Alex could see the yellowed wooden floor of his house lift away from him, in a bizarre surreal experience, as he experienced weightlessness, his feet dragging along the floorboards.

He felt his arms being strapped to a chair in his kitchen, the ripping sound of duct tape burning across his hands and wrists, the sensation followed by a resounding slap across his other cheek that knocked him back into a painful reality instead of a haze of stars.

The two men that stared at him, looked liked modern gangster gentlemen. Both had professional, cold miens that showed, despite their youth, they were confident and experienced at their jobs.

Undercut haircuts, three-piece suits and tattoos that sneaked past their expensive watches and cuff-links, indicated that these men weren’t your average run-of-the-mill street gangsters.

They were adept and proficient. Apex predators that had risen up the food chain and were now in command of everything … sartorially and criminality. They viewed Alex as a means to an end. Nothing more. Nothing less. Nothing personal mate. It’s just pure business.

On Alex’s end, his mind was furiously berating him for not spotting these two men who were most likely watching Joel McNamara’s house. His paranoia was only going to be ratcheted up further by this incident.

“Alex Ryder. Private Investigator.” stated the professional with a flat cap on his shaven head, his tone hinting at derision.

“It’s a cool name innit?” inflected the professional whose Liverpool accent came thick, strong and proud.

“Not bad at all. Myself, I would have gone with Private Detective. But, I’m old fashioned that way.” critiqued Flat Cap.

“Aaah well. Either way, little cunts like you always end up running into guys like us. Nosy little buggers aren’t you?” smiled Liverpool.

“Ain’t that the truth” intoned Flat Cap.

“Look mate, between you and me? I’m not really into this sort of stuff. Myself? I’m more a whiskey and cigar man. These hands?” Liverpool smacked his right tattooed knuckles into the palm of his left.

“They prefer to cut the tips off Cubans, not widdle fingers like yours, eh?

Flat Cap punctuated Liverpool’s speech with a dry and bored statement “So give us what you found.”

“And any notes you might have made yeah? We really prefer not to have this sort of shit whizzing around the suburb.”

Alex coughed and tasted the metallic tang of his own blood. Defiance still glittered behind his emerald eyes, as his mind raced to salvage the situation.

“Look mate” said Liverpool gently, “We’re professionals you and I. Just give us what we want, and we’ll be on our way, like the darkness before dawn. We’re not gonna hurt ya. You don’t have to say nuthin if you prefer it. Just point, and we’ll take care of it for you. Easy as that sunshine.”

“By Order of the Peaky Fookin Blinders and all that rubbish” said Flat Cap with amusement.

Alex, stared at these two men, confused and wondering what the hell they meant, by Peaky Blinders, until it clicked that it was a pop culture reference.

“Mate, you’ve confused the bloke by that last statement” despaired Liverpool.

“Sorry mate. Thought it was a cool line to say.” demurred Flat Cap.

“Come on man, a bit of professionalism here.” tutted Liverpool.

Flat Cap raised his hands in a placatory manner.

“Right, so Mr Ryder. Where is it?”

Alex, feigning defeat, nodded to the study and Flat Cap went inside. Alex hid a smile,  remembering that he religiously backed up the files on his personal google account whenever and wherever he could. Everything he worked on was always on the cloud. Even the CCTV footage and the Excel spreadsheet.

To his regret though, the laptop was probably going to be lost forever. Just another financial loss that he would have to live with. Perks of the job.

Flat Cap came out with the laptop and the notes that Alex had written down about the case. Thankfully the manilla folder that Eveline had given him was hidden in a hollowed desk drawer and he couldn’t see it in Flat Cap’s hand.

“Anything else?” said Liverpool to Flat Cap.

“Unlikely. His office is more sparse than a monastery.”

“Well, Mr Ryder, this is your first and final warning. Please don’t go peeking about again yeah? If you do, you’ll probably run into us again. I hate being a proper twat about it, but this is our job yeah? Here, as a gesture of good will, I’ll reset your nose.”

Liverpool grabbed Alex’s nose and with a sickening crunch, slammed it back into its proper place. Tears sprung to Alex’s green eyes and he kept the groan that was coming up, down in his throat.

“Next time, I’m afraid we won’t be so judicious OK? So please mate, for your own sake, just stay out of this.”

Liverpool placed a placating gentle glove hand on Alex’s shoulder and patted him gently.

“It’s only business mate. Perks of the job yeah?”

Alex nodded and agreed. “Perks of the job. Right.”

“Attaboy. I knew he would understand. Well, these tapes should loosen up soon, so keep struggling lad.”

Liverpool and Flat Cap gave Alex mock salutes and silently exited the house as suddenly as they came in.

Alex could only watch them go and wriggle uselessly against the duct tape.

“Shit” muttered Alex before he cynically decided that there wasn’t much point to struggling. After all, Eveline said she would be coming soon. So Alex allowed his head hang down, and took a nap.

It felt like ages later, but when he woke up, he saw Eveline staring at him, and her arm shaking him violently awake. He glanced at the elegant silver TAG Heuer watch on her arm and noted that he had only been sleeping for 25 minutes.

“Oh my god Alex. Are you OK? What happened? Who did this to you?” rushed Eveline as she checked over him, her hands running over his face and body.

“First things first. Can you get a knife and cut me loose first?”  said Alex, exasperatedly.

“Right. Sorry.” Walking over to the kitchen, Eveline pulled out the first knife she found in the knife slots, and cut Alex loose, who gasped as blood rushed back into his hands, pinpricks of pain erupting all over his nerves.

Eveline watched as Alex tore off strips of duct tape from his wrists and winced as he took a glass of water and rinsed the blood out of his mouth, the pain evident on his face.

Alex looked at her and shrugged. “This comes with a lot of jobs. I’ll explain everything soon. You got a laptop? They took mine.”

Eveline nodded and went back to her car, and took out her work laptop.

Powering it up, in Alex’s office, she listened as Alex explained what happened, why he was tied up and what he found in Joel’s house.

“And so that’s the basics. Did you know anything about where Joel was on the night of the murder?”

Eveline thought back to the case and replied “He said he had an alibi. That it was impossible to link him to the murder case, because he was somewhere else at the time. Joel even mentioned that he think he could get evidence that he wasn’t there, the night that Candice died.”

“Do you know what time Candice died?”

“It was 8.10pm. Reports stated she died with 4 stab wounds in her abdomen. The knife that was used apparently corresponded to the ones in Joel’s kitchen.”

Alex frowned and checked the virtual gallery he took. Sure enough, there was an empty slot in the knife holder on the bench.

Angered that he had missed it, Alex stayed silent for a moment.

Eveline, with a hint of nervousness in her voice, asked “What did you want to show me? Why did you need my laptop?”

Alex, still angered missed the tone. “When I was searching Joel’s house, I found something. It was in my laptop, but I backed it up on my google drive. It was an SD card with just 2 files on them. An excel spreadsheet and CCTV footage. I’ll show you the footage first, because that is what proves Joel’s innocence. He was meeting someone the same night that, the prostitute Candice died.”

“Which reminds me, what’s so special about Candice?” queried Alex.

“She was his favourite.” replied Eveline with a strange quick dismissiveness.

“Do you know which brothel she belonged to?”

“The Pink Palace.”

Alex raised an eyebrow and made a note on his phone.

“OK, well, here …” Alex spun the laptop around to the point where Joel was wielding the cylindrical sphere and he frowned when he saw Eveline gasp at the footage.

He waited for her to finish, and crossed his arms before asking her direct.

“What do you know about the Cezanne?”

Eveline looked down.

“Enough” she said softly.

“I don’t need to show you the excel spreadsheet do I? Joel already told you about it all already.”

“What excel spreadsheet?” asked Eveline confused.

“It’s the blueprint to the Ashmolean Job.” said Alex with a smile on his face. “I didn’t know I was chasing an art thief. It’s very bizarre that he kept this kind of evidence. But then, it was his greatest job. A proper turn of the century heist.”

“But what I can’t figure …” said Alex wonderingly, “is where you fit in all of this, Eveline. What’s your real relationship to Joel? If that is, of course, his real name.”

Eveline stayed silent. Alex, stared at her, questioning why all the sudden, he was feeling more and more attracted to this sad woman in front of him, her hands in her lap, tears streaming down her cheeks.

Damn it thought Alex. Every time. 

He stood up, grabbed his peacoat and placed it over her shoulders.

He sat on the desk in front of her, his face close.

“Tell me the truth Eveline. I can’t help you, if you don’t.”

Eveline sighed and looked up at Alex. His green eyes piercing through hers.

“I don’t know his full name. He just goes by Francois.”

Eveline’s voice became softer as memory grew stronger.

“I met him a year ago through a mutual girlfriend. I had just gotten out of a 5 year relationship and was desperate for something new …”

“At first, he was shy and awkward, but once I got to know him a bit better, he showed me that was all an act. The real Francois, is genuinely confident and smart. He’s … everything a European man is meant to be.”

Alex’s eyes narrowed in slight jealousy.

Eveline gave a bitter laugh. “He promised me a lot. Some he delivered. A lot he didn’t. But on our first holiday together to Europe, he showed me the Ashmolean Museum in Oxford and made jokes about the security of the place. I remember being so confused as to how much he knew about the place. So later that night, I googled it and put two and two together.”

“Did you confront him straight away?” interjected Alex.

“No” replied Eveline. “I knew I had this on him now. I wanted to save this for the right moment.”

Alex scoffed to himself. “What a lawyer you are.”

“I’m a good one” shot back Eveline. “I didn’t work my way out of a shithole for nothing. You don’t know what I’ve been through to make it to where I am now.”

Alex raised his hands in an act of surrender to calm her down and concede the point.

“Anyway, you would have done the same.” said Eveline defensively. “Francois opened a new world for me. There was no way I would have shut it down early. I had everything I wanted for the first time in my life. I didn’t care he was an art thief. I just wanted him to love me.”

Alex looked around at his sparse house, the lack of trappings and decor and privately agreed. He would have done the same. Living on the edge of ruin wasn’t a lifestyle, it was a cycle that never ended.

To break free of that cycle would be liberating.

“Anyway, about a month ago, he came to me, telling me about a mercenary that knew about his past. Francois desperately needed money and he only had the Cezanne left. The mercenary offered him 11 million. Francois agonised over it for days. He really didn’t want to part with the painting.”

“Did you know who the mercenary is?” asked Alex slightly urgently.

“Francois never told me.” said Eveline. “He just said that somehow the mercenary tracked him down somehow and that if Francois didn’t do as he was told, he would kill someone close to him.”

“When Francois heard about that, he told me to go into hiding. So I went to Brisbane to stay for a while with my aunt before coming back. But when I did, Francois had disappeared and his case actually turned up at my legal department. He was contacting us remotely, saying that he did not kill Candice, the prostitute he must have been seeing behind my back.”

Eveline said with hatred “I didn’t know about Candice of course, but …”

“You were too far in.” said Alex quietly.

Eveline nodded. “What Francois did, doesn’t matter anymore. All that matters is that Cezanne. So I investigated the case for a week. But I couldn’t find anything.”

“And that brings you to my doorstep, promising money you don’t have.” said Alex amused.

Eveline looked up at Alex. The feminine sapphires locked into the masculine emeralds with a strange intensity.

“You need to help me find it Alex. If we find the painting, then we can both be free.” Eveline grasped Alex hands imploringly. “I promise you, if we find the painting, then the money will allow us to disappear. We won’t have to worry about anything.”

Alex felt his resolve weakening. His paranoia screamed at him, but he cast it aside. He wanted to feel liberated. He needed a break from the prison he had created for himself.

Alex searched for words to answer Eveline’s pleas. “OK. Let’s find this Cezanne.”

Eveline gasped and hugged him, her arms tight around him. Alex’s mind flashed an image of a pen signing another contract, in servitude to this beautiful, desperate lawyer.

“Thank you Alex.” she whispered.

Then, in a moment of desperate spontaneity, she kissed him.

Alex, reeling from the recent injuries, emotions and revelations, pushed her back momentarily. Looking at the half closed eyes, the sensual lips and the glistening tracks that her tears left down her cheeks, Alex gave in and pulled her close.

They scrabbled at each other, tearing clothes off in a frantic bid to release something that they both held tight within.

Author’s Note

At 3088 words, this is the longest chapter I’ve written. This was done, because I needed to follow the structure I’ve written for myself, as well as believably build up to the final climax of this chapter (pun fully intended).

In particular, this is Eveline’s chapter. I wanted to flesh her out as a character, to give her motivation and go beyond the cool, cold professional that I originally set her out to be.

She had to be vulnerable, yet manipulative, as per the femme fatale style that she always was meant to inhabit in this narrative. For those fans of film noir if you read a bit deeper into her actions and words, it should all be familiar tropes.

I was going to delve deeper into writing a proper sex scene, but I liked how I ended it too much, so I decided to scrap it, in service to the story.

Part 4 will be coming soon.

~ Damocles.

Noir [2/7] (Fiction)

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Alex stared out of the 96 tram, the smooth electric light train cresting a small hill to reveal the beach and the iconic ivory St Kilda Sea Baths building.

It was the day after he had received the investigative case from Eveline Winston, the lawyer who he suspected was in love with her client.

But such qualms were not any of his business. So instead of pondering further, Alex spent the entire night reading and rereading the dossier that she had given him, memorising the details and feeling the old excitement of a new job slowly take over his thoughts.

It was so infectious, that Alex ended up only getting 2 hours of sleep, before jerking awake and taking a quick warm shower and walking to the tram stop to change onto the 96 at 4am in the morning.

In the early hours of the morning, St Kilda was a sleepy and lonely place, with morning mist rolling in and grey clouds adding to the strange surreal atmosphere. Beaches were emptied, with only a few early risers walking their dogs along the footpaths of the beach, their thoughts wrapped in woolly beanies and puffer jackets, little puffs of breaths fighting to escape the chilly air.

Even on board the tram, the vibe was quiet and still, Alex leaning his head against the glass, mirroring the forlorn look the other 5 passengers had.

Deciding to stop by the McDonalds for a quick brekkie, Alex got off a stop earlier, atop the hill and looked around, admiring the Esplanade, the huge mouth that was Luna Park and the classic art-deco exterior of the Palais Theatre.

Checking behind him, to ensure no other lawyers would ask him for business, Alex crossed the empty road and along the lawn, remembering the childhood dreams he had of owning one of these beach apartments when his parents used to take him here often.

After making a quick stop to grab a couple of Hash Browns, Alex left the McDonalds and continued his way deeper into St Kilda, towards the true heart of the suburb, the strip at the end of the Esplanade.

Dressed the way he was, with his all black outfit; peacoat, chinos and dress shoes, Alex might have looked out of place in other parts of Australia, but in Melbourne, such was the norm; overdressing for the beach.

Victoria … the only state where the beach is an optional extra to the Australian lifestyle.

Alex wandered slowly past the bakeries that sold fresh Turkish delights and baklava, the thrift stores that had discount retro hippy clothes and the cafes that were slowly opening up for brunch. He peered into shops and made mental notes about everything and nothing, as he slowly ambled his way down the street, familiarising himself with the lay of the land.

By the time he reached the end of the street, the time was nearly 7am. The morning dew and mist was beginning to clear, and people were beginning to awaken and start their daily routine.

Alex, deciding he had enough acclimatisation, began to pick up his pace and start for the address of Joel McNamara, the missing innocent man.

Located only a few blocks away from the heart of St Kilda, Joel’s house was a handsome affair down Foster Avenue. With its handsome limestone exterior, the home was accompanied by a small palm tree that stood guard on the front lawn. A single-storey affair, it reflected the beach vibes that was prevalent across the entire block, and after picking the lock, Alex discovered the interior was equally affluent.

A strong French motif was prevalent across all the interior design choices. Joel was clearly a Francophile, with multiple tri-colour themed decor and mugs. Taking the centrepiece was a large model of the Palace of Versailles on a coffee table.

Alex found himself, remarkably confused and impressed. On the wall, were several Monaco Grand Prix inspired posters, the eye-catching use of colour and fast cars adding more talking points about the living room.

Treading carefully through the living space, Alex slipped on cheap latex gloves and began to examine the L-shaped couch that framed the Palace of Versailles. Noting there were no rise or indentation in the soft rich leather, Alex moved to the kitchen. The sink was meticulously clean, with all the dishes placed away and even a layer of dust on the metal basin itself.

With the obvious hot-spots not providing dividends, Alex decided it was time to move to the bedroom.

Cracking open the door, Alex frowned when he saw the state of the bedroom.

It was ransacked.

Clothes were strewn everywhere, from coats to shirts to pyjamas. Underwear was heaped over the side table, a post-modern lamp thrown casually on the floor, the cable reaching desperately behind it to the socket. The double sized mattress was flipped off its bed-frame and was leaning against the wall.

The wall was open, the large mirrored sliding door agape, revealing a cavernous wardrobe that had all of its content on the floor or haphazardly strewn against one another on the hanger.

Alex was standing in the only clean corner of the room, with the only other relatively intact item being a life-sized replica of the Venus de Milo, a pair of grey and white Calvin Klein underwear over her head, leaning provocatively opposite to him.

Alex stared at the room, trying to deconstruct the mess and piece together what the room might have looked like before it was ransacked.

The bed was central and against the wall, with the large mirrored wardrobe opposite, next to Alex and the Venus. When the ransacker had come in, they had flipped the bed first, assuming whatever it was that Joel was hiding, was under there. Once it was obvious nothing much was there except mothballs, the ransacker had torn through the wardrobe and probably left empty handed.

Alex wondered whether any other room was trashed. He stepped out and saw that the house had one extra room, the study, in which a large ornate mahogany desk had its drawers opened, but was relatively undisturbed. None of the books on the shelves were on the floor, and things were ruffled but still neat.

Confused, Alex walked back into the bedroom, thought hard and long for a good few minutes, before smiling.

Walking over to the Venus, he flicked off the underwear and looked at her, admiring for a few seconds the workmanship of the sculptor that did such good work for a replica.

Running his hand over the marble, Alex found what he was looking for.

A switch, in the area just beneath her navel, and beautifully disguised as part of her robes.

The Venus statue’s knee popped open.

On a very small tray, was a SD card.

Alex peered at it and frowned at the myriad of questions it raised. Pocketing the SD card in his coat, Alex closed the tray and waited for the responding click before walking out, leaving everything as exactly as he had found it.

As he stepped into the hallway, he took out his phone and began snapping photos. He had just finished collating a gallery on the living room, when he saw a strange clue tucked to the side of the couch, in the corner of the room.

Walking over, he found a red brasserie. Checking the label, he noted the Agent Provocateur label and the bust size. Taking a photo of the bra, he placed it gently back where he found it and continued his work, doing his best to stop his wandering mind from delving further into possibilities and suspicions.

A half hour later, satisfied with the gallery he had built in his phone, Alex walked back out the same way he came in, quietly and unobtrusively, another voyeur capturing the essence of a person without their knowledge.

As Alex waited for the 96 tram to take him back to the city, he pulled out the business card that Eveline had left in the dossier, and punched in the numbers.

Eveline’s cool, professional voice came through after the second ring.

“Eveline Winston speaking.”

“It’s Alex.”

“Alex. Why did you call me?” queried Eveline coldly

“I paid a visit to Joel’s place. Found something of interest there. Care to meet me at my office?”

“You what?” Eveline asked incredulously. “What did you find?”

Alex milked the moment for a second unnecessarily. “Just meet at my office.”

“I’m tied up at work. But I’ll come straight away when I’m free.”

“OK.” stated Alex bluntly, before hanging up.

Alex spent the tram ride home, looking through the pictures he had taken on his phone, combing through the house, recreating a virtual tour in his mind and realising a little too late, that he hadn’t check whether Joel had owned a car. He flicked over to the front of the house photos and noted, there was nothing in the driveway.

Wherever Joel was, he had taken his car with him. Recalling the details of the dossier, Alex knew that Joel owned a bright honey gold Renault Megane hatchback, with the registration number being 9KM 78L. Thinking back, Alex knew that he hadn’t seen any such vehicles along the road either whilst walking there.

The ransacking would have taken place between the period when Joel went missing, so within 2 weeks. Alex patted his peacoat’s pocket to reassure himself that the SD card he had found was still there.

Back at home, Alex turned on his laptop and glanced at his cheap watch. There was still a good 2 hours before Eveline could arrive at his house. Plugging in the SD card, Alex felt a brief moment of panic about password protection, when to his relief, the files aboard could be opened without any security.

To his surprise, there were only 2 files onboard the card.

The first, was a long CCTV footage reel, that went for 4 hours. Black and white, with heavy grain, the camera was locked to the back entrance of some restaurant, showcasing dumpster bins, and staff cars. It was largely still footage, with the occasional movement of staff throwing things in the bin, and curious feral animals wandering around.

Alex stared at the grainy footage, for the first half hour, trying to figure out why this footage was on the SD card, and where this could be, before restoring it into a small window, and leaving it aside for him to occasionally peer at while he looked at the next file.

The second was an excel spreadsheet, that when Alex looked at it, seemed to be encrypted. Numbers,symbols and letters were juxtaposed, smashed and joined together in seemingly random combination with each cell seemingly more incoherent than the next.

However, when he looked at it closer, he noted that there was a full stop at the end of each row. Indicating some kind of sentence that could be made.

There were 4 of these sentences, of varying length, at the top of the excel sheet, and then when he scrolled further down, a large block of white empty cells appeared, accompanied by a caption that ended with an exclamation mark.

Alex stared at the sheet before flicking over to the next 3 sheets, which to his shock, was un-encrypted and instead displayed details of a heist. Names of associates with their contact numbers,

“Joel, Joel, Joel. What the hell were you up to?” asked Alex to the air.

Author’s Note: 

Part 2 of 7 part series, proved to be a much smoother write for me, now that I’ve established some basic rules about the world I am building. I’ve made a couple of basic character traits for each of the main players, and I admit, I am now starting to fall in love with the world I’ve built.

It probably also helped that I am assisted by some excellent dark/noir jazz playlists on Youtube that provide par excellence ambience for me to write.

Part 3 will be coming very soon. Hopefully later today.

Please note that a recurring theme will be exploring a new part of Victoria in each part of the series.

~ Damocles.

Noir [1/7] Fiction)

North Melbourne

The Private Investigator cradled his precious cargo on his lap as the green and white tram rattled along the wet road.

Hot, warm, protein and carbs heavy, the cheap Chinese meal was a luxury that his bank protested. But the P.I. was sick of living off board-like pasta and failed disasters in his kitchen. 

He needed this meal, like an addict needed his fix. It would keep him sane enough to function for a few more days, before he would relapse again. To hell with financial consequences when there were a lot more pressing matters at hand like his growling stomach. 

The P.I. was readjusting the meal on his lap, finding a spot where it wouldn’t burn him, when a woman sat next to him. 

He shuffled inwards towards the window, the Melbournian in him eager to get away and establish some personal space.  

Briefly checking her over, he noted the expensive cut of her coat, the thigh high boots that were slightly splattered by rain and the heady scent of her perfume. 

The face was angular, with sharp cheekbones, gaunt cheeks and heavy kohl applied across her piercing blue eyes. Dark raven hair cascaded down her long neck and buried itself deep into the collar of her coat. 

Blocking out the attraction that stirred his heart, the P.I. turned up the music on his phone and looked out the window, the jazz accompanying the rain drops that splattered the glass and casting the world in hues of blurry grey. 

The rhythm of the tram’s movement was sleep-inducing, the slow acceleration that would briefly propel the wheels, creating a soothing mechanical cacophony that dulled the senses. 

Then a bell would chime, as one of the weary, cold and self-occupied passengers would pull the string that ran along the upper handrail and indicate their stop was next. 

The tram driver would gently apply the brakes, letting the tram slow to a strangely abrupt stop that would make everyone lurch forward a little. The doors would issue their strange rattle and vibrate as they shook open in their hinges and passengers would shuffle off and more would waddle on, their faces a similar moue of quiet isolation to everyone else. 

Occasionally the P.I. would hear a muffled curse, as a passenger door refused to open, courtesy of an older model tram, and the driver would begrudgingly unlock the door to his cabin, straggle down to the door, undo a latch and force it open with a twist of a key. 

The P.I. ignored most of this, a familiar routine on the 59 Airport West route, and instead watched the suburban landscape roll past, the classic houses with their brick roofs and square windows slowly being encroached by tall eucalyptus trees and vines that crept ever upwards. 

As the tram climbed the hill, the P.I. sensed, rather than felt, the woman next to him, begin to shift a little uneasily. He looked at her out of the corner of his eye, and deduced that this tram ride was alien to her. She was peering out his window more, checking the number of the stop, and slowly counting down. 

To his concern, as the 59 tram slowly came to a stop, near the Church where it would turn past the Royal Children Hospital, it seemed like she was getting off at the same stop as he was. 

The P.I., suspicious and paranoid, decided that he would get off one stop early, even if it risked getting his precious dinner cold.

The tram rattled onwards, oblivious to the tension that was being ratcheted inside of it. 

As it serenely passed another tram, a long number 57 to Flinders Street Station, emblazoned with advertisements for a new Marvel film, the P.I. saw the iconic highway that stretched overhead, it’s circular frame illuminated by thousands of LED lights that shone red and yellow.

As the lights passed over his head, he wondered whether he was being overly paranoid. The woman might just be lost. She might not have any relation to him. Hell, he should ask her, where she was going. Be polite and offer her guidance.

But the P.I. did none of those things. He had been burned too many times now, to afford to make any mistakes.

The amber and crimson glow awashed over both of them and he waited for the tram to roll to a stop at the Flemington Community Centre, near Debney’s Park. 

Getting off a stop early, but knowing that he could cut through the park and make it to his small home on Princes St Street, the P.I. waited for traffic to pass, before running through and jumping the low fence that separated the park and the footpath.

He instantly regretted it, as the grass turned to slush and mud under his foot, and began to kick up flecks of mud on his pants. Scowling at the laundry disaster that awaited him, he kept running anyway, his dress shoes squelching with every step. 

The rain only grew stronger, as a wind berated him for being outdoor and paranoid, nearly sweeping the dinner out of his hands. But he held on tight and was grateful when his feet finally hit pavement.

Rushing up High Street that adjoined his home’s street, he took out his house keys from his peacoat and ran left of the first roundabout, trying to ignore the sensation of water running down his neck, as the rain intensified. 

Undoing the latch at his small red and white picket fence, he held the dinner plastic bag between his teeth as he ducked under overgrown trees and opened the door, before setting down the bag on the hall-table and starting to shrug out of his wet shoes. 

Kicking them off, he stripped off the wet black chinos he had on and threw it in a washing machine, before wriggling out of his peacoat and dress shirt.

Now nearly naked, he grabbed a towel and began to dry his hair, before slipping on a fresh polo shirt and chinos and addressing his dinner.

He kept a paranoid eye on his front door, afraid that, at any second, the woman would come through and ruin his life with her problems.

Plating the combination noodles, he had just gotten through 4 bites, when he heard the dreaded bell at the front door ring.

The P.I. looked forlornly at his dinner, the habit that kept him sane every week, and sighed, before pushing it aside and walking to the front door.

There, standing in the doorway of his home, with an umbrella over her dark hair, was the woman from the tram.

Her eyes widened in shock, as she recognised him. He was the man sitting next to her on the tram, who kept glancing over at her in suspicion. The gaunt guy who, in another lifetime, would be considered handsome, but instead was unhealthily skinny and tired, his sharp cheekbones a knife’s edge across his face and his thin mouth more of a slash than anything attractive.

But despite his emaciated appearance, the emerald eyes were still alert, sharp and intelligent. They pierced hers like a spotlight shining on a stage.   

The P.I. on his part, acted as if all his dreams were turning into boring hellish realities, and motioned her in.

“How did you … I’m sorry, I …” she started, confused and surprised.

“It’s OK. My name is Alex. Come on in to my office.”

The woman nodded silently, and placed her umbrella off to the side of the door, and began to take off her shoes. 

Alex nodding, walked through the tiny hallway that led to his kitchen at the rear and instead opened a door off to the right, which had a tiny study room.

Bare and clean, with a simple desk, notepads and a laptop, the office was Alex’s domain, where he ran his P.I.’s business, a venture that had seen very little clients.

The jobs were scarce, but there was just enough money to ensure that bills were paid.

It was fortunate that the house was already paid off. If it weren’t for that happenstance, he would be homeless.

Pulling out a chair for the woman, Alex sat down on the other side of the desk and powered up the laptop and arranged the notepad. He turned on the nearby CD player, and inserted a custom CD that had mellow songs to induce better memory recall.

Whether it worked, was up to debate, but it was a tip given to him by a friend who was no longer around, and he was doing it out of habit and remembrance now.

The woman from the tram peered around the door and sat down gratefully when Alex gestured.

Sparing one last thought for his Chinese dinner, Alex pushed the regret away and looked attentively at the attractive woman who, in the span of less than 20 minutes had steered his life in another direction. 

“So, what’s your name?” started Alex. 

“I’m Eveline Winston. I work as a lawyer at the local magistrate court. I need your help with a case of mine. “

“A lawyer huh?” said Alex dismissively. “Don’t you guys usually have your own in-house investigators for these sort of situations?”

“We do, but this case is … different.” replied Eveline coolly. 

Alex raised an eyebrow and raised his pen in anticipation. 

“My client has gone missing. He’s been away for 2 weeks and we suspect he’s on the run. But the evidence all suggest that he’s innocent of the crime he’s supposedly guilty of. So we’re not sure why he’s disappeared.”

“I’m going to need a name Ms Winston.”

“Call me Eveline. I’ll give you the name once you agreed.”

Eveline reaches into her coat and hands him a piece of paper. 

Alex, looking down at it, scans it quickly and finds his heart racing a bit quicker. It’s a sizeable amount of money. At least 9 months worth of bills paid off here. He could eat out more often. Afford better clothes. Live like a person with a stable income. 

But the fine print says a voice in Alex’s head. Reading further, Alex isn’t allowed to market this case if things go well. He’ll have to make this case a first priority. 

At first, Alex refuses to accept the job. He hates conditions and stipulations and strings attached to a job. And there are many on this contract. But … he was poor and when would be the next time he would see this amount ever again? 

Alex gritted his teeth and took out a pen and signed the dotted line on the bottom. To hell with financial consequences. He also provided the bank details for his account. 

Handing it back, he watched as Eveline kept the carbon copy and handed him back the original. 

“Thank you, Alex. Here, this is my dossier on the case. Read through this and it’ll explain everything.” Eveline passed him a manilla folder and made to get up. 

“Hold on”, said Alex, raising his hand in a stop gesture, “I want to hear it from you first.”

Eveline sigh. She’s a busy woman. She would rather be elsewhere than here, in a stranger’s office. But Alex’s green eyes compel her to stay. 

“Fine. What do you want to know?” said Eveline with exasperation. 

“Tell me your client’s name. I also want his stats. The usual like, height, weight, eye colour, hair colour.”

“It’s all in the bio I gave you.” said Eveline coldly. 

“I want to hear it from you. You’re a lawyer aren’t you? Surely your memory is as good as they say.”

Eveline rolls her eyes and recites mechanically “His name is Joel McNamara. He is 176cm tall, with blue eyes and sandy coloured hair. He weighs around 80 kilograms and his main distinguishing feature are a pair of winged tattoos on his arms.” 

Alex scanned Eveline’s blue eyes. She was acting like every other professional doing their job. But the way how she answered, seemed to hint at something more. 

He didn’t like it. 

“What’s Joel like?”

“What do you mean, what’s Joel like?” 

“As in, he’s a nervous kind of guy? A funny larrikin? A sarcastic prick? That’s what I mean by what’s he like?” 

Eveline pauses for a second and Alex continues to scan her eyes. He senses there’s something more to this. 

“He’s sweet. But also shy and awkward. He’s an innocent man accused of doing something he didn’t do.” 

Alex grunts, his suspicions confirmed. But now that he has deduced it, it’s of no more interest to him. 

“Where was he last seen? I’m also going to need his address.” 

Eveline skips a beat again. Alex doodles a small love heart next to her name. She’s fed up with this interrogation. 

“He was last seen at the courthouse. His address is in the dossier. Read it. Give me a call when you got something.”

Standing up, she glares at Alex and walks out, pausing only to put on her shoes and collect her umbrella. 

The sound of rain pitter-patter and the smell of petrichor wafts through the open door, before being punctuated by the front fence’s gate being slammed shut.

Alex, watching her from the doorway, made no mental apology for his paranoid questioning. No courthouse would offer the sum he had just signed just to get some random Joel back. They would let the police handle it. This was Eveline’s doing and she was doing it out of love. 

Scoffing slightly, Alex closed the door and remembered his cold Chinese meal. Grimacing at the taste, he endured for 5 bites before tossing the rest of it into a bin, his appetite gone. 

OTO-SAN (Fiction)

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The Twilight Samurai nee Tasogare Seibei (2002)

The train lost momentum through the frozen country. 

Snow descended like a beautiful rain, as it dusted the the myriad of buildings around the train station.

The father looked out, his breath misting the shinkansens window as he stared at an elegant woman in a traditional kimono slowly shuffle her way onboard.

The vibrant colours of the kimono, crimson and ivory with a rich lilac sash reminded the father of the one he had at his home, forever untouched for over a year now.

Hung on a wooden frame, it was the centerpiece of his cupboard at home, and with his two daughters, they regularly brushed and maintained the kimono, ensuring every strand of fabric was shimmering in its splendour.

The father felt his breath catch, as he beheld the beautiful woman in the elegant kimono, slowly walk past him, her alabaster skin, nearly matching the perfect bone-white make-up, and the deep rose lips. Her brown eyes were sculpted to an inhuman level, the deep dark pencil stroke accenting the shape of her eyes and brows.

The raven hair was held up in a fan-style, supported by an ornate lacquered comb, an the father found himself catching and inhaling the soft feminine perfume as she  moved past him and sat down.

The beauty of the woman caught in his mind, the father found himself lurching forwards, as the shinkansen began its slow acceleration again, before flinging itself headlong past the city outskirts and into the countryside proper.

Peering out, he watched as the landscape change from countless buildings, to  natural scenery, as bamboo groves flashed by, their green leaves tempered by snow, frozen lakes resting dormant at the base of mountains and the ever shifting snow, as it fell in the distance, and on the window, only to be whisked away by speed and replaced by another flake.

The father saw the reflection of the beautiful woman in his mirror, and pondered on her ghostly appearance across the landscape of his country, the woman perfectly still as she sat on mountains, trees, lakes and hills.

To his surprise, her face slowly morphed and he was reminded of his great love, his wife of years ago.

Tears welled in the corner of his eyes and the father felt himself short of breath, as he stared out at the woman of his dreams, her serene smile haunting him.

His hand touching the glass, he longed to hold her, but knew such a desire was impossible to fulfil.

So he held it up and stared out at her, the glass barrier invisible to them both and he imagined what she would say, when he met her again.

But her voice, silent for so long, did not come to him.

All he remembered was her shy giggle and the way how she used to make soothing sounds when they slept together in their small cold apartment.

The father’s reverie was broken, when he felt his phone vibrate in his coat pocket.

Shaking himself out of it, he looked at the script across the tiny screen and a smile replaced the haunted look on his face, as he read his daughters’ text messages.

He missed them terribly, the long winter having separated them for months now, and both of them looked after by a kind neighbour.

At 12, his eldest daughter was almost a grown woman, her maturity belying her years, as she learned to be a responsible and serious mother to her baby sister, at 7 years of age.

She tidied up after her sister, would whisper soothing songs to calm her when she was afraid or hurt, and when they missed their father, the eldest sister would do her best to imitate his deep, soft voice and both would invariably hug and stay together as they slept the loneliness away.

She even knew how to cook rudimentary meals and would do her best not to bother her father when he was working, only doing so when she truly struggled with something, like a particularly bothersome maths sum or how to respond politely to the mailman when he delivered their father’s gifts to them.

The father looked down at his wallet and took out the cheap Polaroid he had taken of his daughters, and he kissed his fingers and pressed them to the faces of his children.

The shinkansen sped its way through the countryside, and the father stared out, his brown eyes slowly losing their tired and haunted edge, as he began to recognise more and more landmarks of his hometown

When the train finally slowed to his stop, he picked up his bags and stumbled out, pausing briefly to acknowledge the presence of the beautiful woman, who silently stared out at the station.

The chill clapped his cheeks and the father pulled his jacket lapels closer to his neck, as he pulled up the handle on his suitcase and shouldered his overnight bag across a shoulder.

Rolling his shoulders into his jacket more, he made his way down the old staircase of the station and slipped the ticket stub into the gates and began to make his way through the provincial town.

His feet crunched softly under the snow, and the father kept his pace steady and calm, as he nodded in recognition to the friendly street vendors who called out his name and welcomed him back.

Stopping briefly by a convenience store, he purchased his daughters their favourite candy, ignoring the forlorn lack of notes and coins in his wallet, and placed them in his pocket, alongside hand warmers and the origami paper figures he had made.

Walking back out into the snow, the father saw an elderly man struggle in his garage with boxes and bins.

Looking at his watch, knowing he was late to meet his daughters, the father sighed and set down his bags on a relatively dry patch of ground and offered his assistance, the old man smiling in toothy appreciation as the father lifted the heavy box and set it down, labouring quietly to help the clean up.

The old man placed a hand on the father’s shoulder and offered him a bowl of miso soup but the father politely deferred and promised he would come back to help. The old man, nodding understandingly, let the man go and waved goodbye as the lonely figure of the father trudged his way through an empty street, the white snow blanketing him.

The eldest daughter, sat in the pristine old apartment, the lamp glow casting an amber light across the room, as she and her sister fussed over the simple meal of grilled cod and warm rice and the small cup of sake that she had heated up for her father. Worried, that he was so late, the eldest daughter had just finished reheating the sake, when she heard the the doorbell ring.

Placing the small cup down gently, she and her sister ran to the door and watched as the door gently opened and their father came in.

Both of them bowed low and the father laughing, gathered them up and they both laughed and squealed in joy.

Kissing them both and holding them in his large arms, the father deftly shut the door behind him and set his bags down, his happiness restored as he beheld his beautiful daughters, the very images of his long great love, proof of their time together.

As per his custom, whenever he walked through the apartment, he stared briefly at the beautiful kimono that was hers, and always made the same vow again and again to protect and care for his daughters, the same way he did for her.

Author’s Note

A slightly different approach to writing, I wanted this piece to be a bit more poetic in its word use and reflective in its style. I strive for “slice of life” moments, like when you notice something that is strikingly beautiful amidst a lot of common things. Such things could be a beautiful woman who just happened to put a bit more care into her style and thus stand out from everyone else.

Or when you notice something interesting amongst a lot of boring things.

This was largely inspired by the movie The Twilight Samurai, easily one of my all time favourite samurai films, and I tried to emulate that realism approach the film had to an ordinary man who misses his wife but loves his children dearly.

~ Damocles. 

 

The Machine. (Fiction)

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Den of Thieves (2018)

They called themselves, The Machine. 

Precise. Violent. Ruthless.

The scourge of the city.

They didn’t bother with pretending to dress nicely, like criminals in a film.

No suits. No hiding. No illusions or allusions to something honourable or respectful.

This was a war, and they were the apex predators.

And in any war, like any fighter, they dressed accordingly.

Head to toe, they looked like a professional military fighting force.

Black long sleeved garments, cargo pants, heavy protective plate carriers, war-belts and open carry holsters.

They were a SWAT Team, armed to the teeth with assault rifles, pistols, breaching shotguns and dozens of cable ties.

The only difference were their masks. All criminals needed a mask.

Each of them, had a unique all steel ballistic face mask.

The leader was Clown.

A garish mixture of red, white and blue. Red lips and tears streaked down and past the jolly red nose, staining the ghostly pale white face. Blue shadows were sprayed around the eyes. Tragic and terrifying.

The medic was Roman.

Solid gold, it cut a stoic expression, with narrow eyes slits, a patrician nose and expressionless lips. It featured curls atop, to mimic hair and ridges that resembled a legionnaire’s cheek shields. Inscrutable and indomitable.

The support was Oni.

A visage of the Japanese underworld, the mask was sheer obsidian with red accents. Scarlet short stout horns curled towards the sky from the top of the mask, that contrasted the large flared onyx nose, and gave prominence to the large mouth, with flared crimson tusks. Demonic and dangerous.

The scout was Alien.

An elongated heart shape, with an over-sized forehead, the mask was a gradient of midnight blue to jet black, with the darkest part of the mask ending at the chin. The eyes were two diagonal tear-drops that glowed a night vision green and occasionally thermal white. Fear-inducing and frightening.

No one knew where they had come from, or how they got all their equipment. They left no traces of their identity anywhere. The countless shell casings were all devoid of prints. The boot prints only indicated their size. Witnesses couldn’t even place their voices, because they used voice modulators.

They moved and behaved like a former Special Forces unit, but all leads concerning their identities died, the moment queries started. No one was listed as missing, killed or having gone rogue. All men were accounted for in the military. None of the branches had any clue who these men were.

Even attempts to track their movements fizzled out. The police found themselves  getting desperate. They shook down prostitutes, drug dealers, other thieves … none of the major gangs knew who this crew was. Whoever they were, they didn’t associate themselves with the riff-raff.

They were exceptional professionals, disciplined to a fault, and tactful enough not to boast about their exploits. These men left no trace except their name and signature at the start of every robbery.

Every single witness reported the same speech, whispered about the same monotone delivery, and the instant fear it bought upon deliverance.

Good Evening ladies and gentlemen … 

We are the Machine. We are here for money, not lives.

You are to be restrained and immobilised. If you are experiencing distress, breathe and relieve yourself on the spot. 

Everything in these premises is insured, so you will not lose anything. The system will provide. 

If you allow the Machine to do its work, you will be unharmed. 

Interfere, and this will occur.”

Witnesses would report that at the end, the Clown would execute the cuffed security guard on the spot, with three shots. Two to the torso. One to the head.

Screams would emit throughout the bank and several hostages would faint on the spot. No one would try to be a hero. Hostages wet themselves on the spot. The other security guards felt like doing the same. Managers didn’t resist or ask stupid questions. Complete compliance was ensured.

Every single crime committed by these men ended with a single dead security guard. Every single robbery took place in under 9 minutes, from breach to extraction. Every details of every branch they hit, they knew intimately.

The Machine knew where the vault door was, who the bank manager for the day was, what type of coffee the cashiers liked, the time-locks, the trucks that would deliver the cash, the schools that the daughter of the manager attended … every aspect was covered, every detailed dotted, and every fact checked.

There was a modus operandi. A play-book they never deviated from. Every single survivor report would corroborate it.

Alien would secure and sweep the premises and keep an eye on the response time.

Oni would disable the cameras with quick bursts from his massive machine gun, before training them on the hostages.

Roman would pressure the manager, displaying photos of his family, friends, ex-lovers … and gain access to the vault.

Clown would execute the guard, before securing the hostages phones, and cable tie their hands, then place hoods over their heads.

Then he would leave and begin rifling through the deposit boxes, the vault and prepping the money alongside Roman.

Once everything was complete, all of the best valuables stored away in duffel bags, each member of the team would take one and sling it over their shoulders.

Alien would run out, and secure the car, a nondescript but powerful vehicle that was capable of outrunning any cruiser but never the same make and model as the heist before.

He would pull up, and Oni would fire a long burst from his gun, causing everyone to press their faces even harder into the ground, and the three men would pile into the car and be out, before the squad cars could turn up.

Not a single word would be exchanged between the men. No one would say anything, unless things went wrong. They would let the guns do the talking and Clown to his speech. Actions spoke louder than words.

The only true sounds that would be heard, as they drove away, were the constant screams from the hostages, as they wailed and begged, terrified that they had died after Oni’s machine gun rampage.

It was textbook. It was violent. It was efficient. It was deadly.

And it worked every time.

The only time, it had ever gone wrong, was when there was a pair of squad cars that arrived earlier than they had anticipated.

The resulting firefight was brief. Over in a matter of minutes.

4 officers dead, 240 rounds of ammunition expended. The cars had come away like Swiss cheese, the officers not much better off.

The police had sworn revenge for their fallen brothers and sisters. But no opportunity came.

The Machine was too efficient. Too cautious. Too disciplined to make any error. They had found their groove. Their niche.

Even when a mistake was made, they had come out with superior readiness and firepower.

They were the apex predator in town, and soon the entire city knew it, when robbery after robbery went unpunished.

Security guards application went down. No one wanted to be a statistic after a Machine crime. Banks found themselves seeing more resignation forms than applications.

Which left them more vulnerable.

Copy-cats began to appear everywhere, causing even more work for the police.

Most were sloppy. They didn’t possess the right gear. They weren’t disciplined. They forgot to shoot cameras, confiscate mobile phones, adequately use the right cable ties.

They used cheap guns; home-made shotguns and small calibre pistols. They would spent too long at the scene of the crime, trying to take everything instead of escaping with something.

Most couldn’t kill the security guard. They weren’t ruthless enough to set an early precedent to the rest of the hostages. They weren’t scary enough.

But the deed was done. Bank robberies were now in vogue. Everyone wanted a piece of the action.

Soon discussions were being made, about bank managers being armed, in case of an emergency. This backfired spectacularly, when a manager wounded more hostages than the copy-cat robbers did.

Gun instructors found more ways to make a living in this time of chaos, as more and more people sought their knowledge. Banks began organising training programs and funding support classes for their staff.

One branch even went so far as to simulate a robbery for realistic teaching purposes.

The mayor, desperate to fix his approval ratings, began the slow militarisation of the police. Now officers began to carry heavier firepower in their squad cars.

Shoot-outs between criminals and police reached an all-time high. It reached a tipping point where policemen were doing more property damage than the criminals, with their firepower.

Bystanders got caught in the fray more often.

Then it was gun stores who found themselves out of stock, as people began to believe in their own ability to protect themselves than the law.

A defining example was expressed, at a local small bank in an outskirts neighbourhood to the town, where 3 copy cats came in with stockings over their heads and tried to rob the place. 2 patrons drew their concealed carry pistols and began to fire at the robbers.

Both patrons died, along with one of the criminals, and 3 hostages were wounded in the fray. The other two impersonators died, when the police arrived and opened fire.

It was a time of chaos. Cops grew more and more aggressive as their brethren grew tired of being over-worked, under-appreciated and under-mined. Corruption within the force, an all-time high in the country, shot higher still.

Extra judicial justice was now more and more common. Patrols took bribes more often. Cops started pulling rifles out more than their pistols.

Atop of all this, the Mayor watched as his city tore itself apart. He was furious. The delicate balance that he had worked so hard to maintain between cop and criminal, was now completely erased.

He had played each other against one another and profited from it for so long, but now, the money was drying up. His anger and fury led to poor leadership.

Inefficient governance from the Mayor crippled the town and allowed the Machine to do its work under the cover of anarchy.

And work they did.

Heist after successful heist soon made them millionaires. They could now afford to do one last raid and be financially secure for the rest of their lives.

But the Machine knew that they couldn’t just do any ordinary robbery. It would have to reflect their status as the apex predator. It would have to be a message.

So they bid their time. They stopped taking down small banks and branches. They allowed the copy-cats to sow more discord in the town they had made their own.

The cops were bewildered by their sudden departure.

But they were grateful in a strange way. These men were untouchable. At last, they could salvage something akin to reputation from this mess. The break gave the beleaguered men and women in uniform some confidence back.

Rumours began to spread among the force that the Machine had finally stopped their crime spree.

One outlandish officer claimed he killed them. Another said they had moved on to another country, and began taking down targets there. Even more theories were circulated that the Machine had taken each other out in their greed.

For the Mayor, he didn’t care. This was his chance. He went out and claimed a victory for the city without truly announcing that they had actually caught the Machine robbers.

Now, he claimed, they could focus on the real crime.

The Mayor went into fanatic leader mode. He diverted even more money to the police force and began to ignore and overlook certain cases that were too brutal.

In every press conference and media outlet, the Mayor promised to be tough on crime. He swore that he would regain control of this town. Affirmed that he was the boss. Vowed to bring justice back.

Soon the police were cracking down hard on all types of banks. They reduced their response time from 10 minutes to 6 minutes. They came armed and ready. Countless copy-cats were arrested and many more killed in this moment of reprieve.

The city could breathe again. The Mayor could breathe again, with tributes pouring in from criminals and policemen alike, adding zeros to his account. Things were beginning to be normal again.

The Machine merely noted all these improvements and continued their preparation for their final heist. The end-all signature on their legendary chapter.

Their target was now the Mayor.

This had always been the plan from the get go.

The Machine against the System.

There were 4 common links among the men of the Machine.

Each had been presumed KIA (Killed In Action) by their respective foreign military and sought refuge in a foreign land. Only Clown belonged to the country that they had bought terror to.

Each man had grown to love the country they had adopted. But the flaws and lack of governance had become all too apparent after years of settlement. Every single one of them had conducted multiple types of vigilantism justice after a crime touched them. All of them had lambasted and blamed the Mayor for years about the corruption.

Each had lost all their relatives or contact with them, since their last military action. None had any strings that held them to any part of society. But that didn’t stop them from looking out for their families from afar.

And each man had his own personal score to settle with the Mayor.

Oni blamed him letting a murderer free, after he killed Oni’s niece.

Roman had lost his only daughter in an understaffed hospital.

Alien was a direct and tragic consequence of immigration laws.

The biggest grievance however, belonged to Clown.

Clown knew that the Mayor was responsible for his “death”. A former squadmate who had betrayed Clown’s squad and left them for dead in the desert.

A traitor who used his “tragic” story to win sympathy and votes and gain control of a city, where he had run it into the ground with his corruption. Clown and the men of the Machine were a direct consequence of the Mayor’s corruption and incompetence.

Each member of the Machine crew, were completely focused on the Mayor. It was he, who was responsible for their actions.

It was all on the hands of the Mayor. The Machine was merely life’s response to the system the Mayor had created.

The robberies, the new-found riches, was mere compensation for these men who had lost so much and wanted to build anew.

Outside of the robberies, the four men barely spoke to each other. Their native languages were too diverse from each other, but years of military training had taught them basic commands.

And that was all they needed. Each knew of each other’s story, but privately considered it insignificant to their own personal tale. However such justification didn’t matter when taking a score together. All that mattered was that each member was aware of his job and were to execute it well.

To take down the Mayor, they were going to have to make it past a veritable platoon of  bodyguards, not least of all, take into consideration the Mayor’s past as a soldier.

Clown had dismissed that idea. The man was soft. Spineless. If he was a true soldier, he would not have betrayed Clown’s squad.

The others nodded in agreement.

In addition, terrain was on their side. The Mayor had purchased an ultra-modern forest retreat that was situated well away from the town that he governed.

A beautiful and stylish house, the retreat featured a large clearing surrounding it and a nearby private lake, that generated a moody mist that enveloped the entire area.

Tall pines and birch on hilltops, surrounded the compound, with a single road that lead to a major highway to the town, some 6 miles away.

A security booth was situated at the road, to allow the police to check visitors and there was a permanent sniper’s nest for the Mayor’s bodyguards to use.

An expensive speedboat was docked at the lonely pier, and there was even a private helicopter pad that allowed the Mayor to park his private black and white McDonnell Douglas MD-900.

All in all, it would be challenging for the Machine to infiltrate and kidnap the Mayor, especially when he had three potential escape routes ready to go at any given time.

But to finally retire, the Machine had to go through with this. There was simply no other way they could walk away, knowing that the Mayor was still running the city, and sitting atop 200 million dollars worth of illicit sales, bribes and dirty information.

Money that would secure the men’s future until death.

Information that would protect them from any reprisal.

Bribes that would loosen any obstacle that stood in their way.

It was the perfect score.

It was to be a whole month after the city had died down that the Machine finally got its gears moving again.

When the hour of final raid came, it was twilight and the sky was beginning to darken and soften into black.

In the Machine’s safe-house, Oni, Alien and Roman were quietly nursing beers, wrapped in their thoughts.

Oni, sitting silently on the couch, his huge frame taking up half the space, stared at the TV, allowing the visual and noise to wash over him like ambient distractions.

Alien was contemplating the dart board, with multiple knives embedded in the centre bullseye, wondering if he could pin another one.

Roman was hunched over the kitchen table, scratching his chin and staring at the sudoku puzzle that Oni had designed for him, only reaching for his beer once he solved a line.

As Alien threw the knife, Oni switched channels on the TV and Roman solved a square, they all heard the sounds of sirens nearing.

Oni reached under the large coffee table in front of him, and drew out a large assault rifle, standing up to his full frame and aiming it squarely at the door.

Roman and Alien, both drew pistols from their waistbands and stood to the sides of the door, their weapons held close to their chest, ready to engage.

The sirens came closer, and closer, before dying out and disappearing.

Relieved, the men lowered their weapons and were surprised when the door was opened and a man in uniform stood there.

Oni, his reflexes the fastest, snapped the heavy rifle up and was about to send two to the head, when he recognised Clown.

Scowling, Oni safetied the weapon and lowered it, motioning to the others that it was OK.

Clown made a mute gesture of apology and gestured to them to ready up.

The time had come.

A month of reparation and training was about to come to fruition.

Upon being given the green light, none of the men smiled or showed any emotion. Instead, they silently padded back to their room, where they began to change and kit-up.

Dark woodland camouflage long sleeved shirts and pants came on, with Alien slipping on extra camouflage scrim and netting to hide his body better. Whilst the others looked ready for war, Alien looked ready to hunt.

Each man tugged their body vests tight around their torso and checked their holsters for fit.

A variety of pistols were slammed into hips, and each man chose their favourite weapon;

Clown with his assault rifle, Roman opting for a nimbler submachine gun, Oni hefting a huge machine gun, and Alien slinging a sniper rifle across his back.

Clown made sure his police uniform was easily torn off in case of an emergency and waited for his men.

In their only ritual, they came together in the living space and presented to each other their masks. Each man would whisper a brief battlefield prayer in their native tongue, before ceremoniously putting their masks over their heads together, as a unit.

Clown led them to the police car that he had stolen and killed for, and they piled in, and silently waited through the long drive to the outskirts of the town they owned.

Amber lights flashed across their masks, as suburbia began to flatten out, landscape,  away from the skyscrapers and high-rises of the central business district.

Looking out, the men saw houses that showcased ordinary men, women and children living together. Some were watching TV, others had a man and his child playing baseball; there was even a couple making out on the couch, their window left open for all the world to see.

Domestic bliss.

The sanctity of a home. The comfort of the ordinary.

Clown, Roman, Oni and Alien stared out, reminded of a quote that they had heard bastardised many times in their military career:

“People sleep peaceably in their beds at night only because rough men stand ready to do violence on their behalf.”

Tonight, the Mayor’s sleep would experience such rough men ready to do violence.

It was nearly 3 hours later, when the houses became sparse and the tall trees more abundant, that Clown began to slow the car down.

He was now taking his time, using the police side-mounted headlamp to scan the dense forestry, eyes peeled for the marker he had placed for Alien.

Spotting it, a surreptitiously placed discarded Coke bottle that leaned against a tree, he signalled for Alien to bail out.

Alien kicked open the door, and whilst the car was still moving at a good clip, half-stepped and half-ran out, his sniper rifle unslung in his arms, disappearing into the dark woodland in less than 5 seconds.

Clown kept going, circling around the Mayor’s compound, looking for the last Coke bottle. Upon its discovery, Oni leapt out, his huge frame hugging his precious machine gun and he ran up the hills, letting the darkness take him.

Roman looked at Clown and they both synchronised their watches, for 20 minutes and both men settled in for the wait, Clown tearing off his police uniform and getting comfortable. Neither men spoke, as they waited by the side of the road.

~

Alien crept through the woods, grateful for the thick mist that was rolling off the lake and providing even more difficult visibility for the sniper nest.

If Clown was correct in his recon, Alien would be coming up directly behind the nest, his job being to secure it and then provide cover for the rest of the team and prevent any escape routes from being used.

The nest was situated on the right side of the lake, closest to the road, to allow the sniper team to cover their VIP en route to the road if the police checkpoint was taken down.

With the retreat situated directly in the middle, the nest was at a relatively high elevated position, almost level with the second storey of the compound, giving the team incredible overwatch over the surroundings and into the building itself.

Alien, aware that there were most likely traps surrounding the nest itself, placed each boot carefully in front of the other, his sense attuned and alert, paranoid about every sound and any movement he could see.

As he moved from tree to tree, creeping ever so closer, he kept scanning his surroundings, his caution paying off when he saw a thin wire run at ankle height between two trees.

Scowling in concentration, Alien followed the wire with his eyes and saw a large Claymore mine staring back at him.

Noting the small metal hook that stretched the wire, he carefully lifted the hook and slowly spooled it back, and stepping into the safe area, behind the Claymore before slightly shifting the angle of the mine and attaching it to an area that would protect his flank if there were any counter-attacks.

Knowing that he was in the right area, Alien kept moving, now in a low crouch, his footsteps silent in the dense undergrowth.

Every few steps forward, Alien would touch the side of his mask, turning the world from night green to thermal white, and scan the floor and trees, unsure if the snipers would be above or below.

His patience was rewarded, when he saw a dark spot in his thermal vision, on the ground not some 10 metres away from him. Flipping over to his night vision, he saw 2 pairs of feet, lying face down in front of him, camouflage netting covering them.

Taking out his suppressed pistol, Alien scanned around to do a final check, to make sure there were no sentries, and that these men had truly only used a Claymore to protect their rear, Alien walked up to the two mounds that were meant to be men, and without hesitation fired four shots, two into each of their heads.

Shoving the bodies aside, Alien settled into their warm sniper pad, and pulled their netting over him, and taking the dead spotter’s night vision binoculars, began scanning over the lake for Oni.

Oni, having encountered no resistance to his side, was approaching from the left side of the lake.

It was his job to take the brunt of the fire. He would find an appropriate spot, suppress the house, draw fire and hope that Alien would take over multiple targets as they came out to attack Oni. Once the initial attack stopped, he would help Alien engage any escape vehicles and be support for Clown and Roman if they needed it.

With a small army of 30 men, the Mayor was extremely well protected, his paranoia about his crimes and corruption evident by the type of men he chose.

They were your standard ex-cop, ex-infantry private contractors. Cheap, disposable and in plentiful supply. They understood basic tactics and were disciplined enough against the criminals that the mayor feared. But push them against the Machine and they would crumble.

The Mayor slept upstairs, with a bevy of prostitutes that he enjoyed soliciting and having fun with, on all his woodland retreats. In the rooms next to him, were his quartet of most trusted and dangerous bodyguards, who were all ex-SWAT officers.

It was Oni and Alien’s job to try and eliminate those first.

The lights of the house shone over the lake, shimmering the water and creating a warm glow.

Oni crawled over the hill and settled down behind the sights of his machine gun and checked his watch. There was still 5 minutes to go. Looking over at where the supposedly sniper nest was, he pressed his radio once and heard a reply squawk. Relieved that the first part of the operation was smooth, Oni squinted his eyes through the tiny red dot and superimposed it onto a security man’s head at the docks.

Clown and Roman waited until the very second that the 20 minute mark ticked over before beginning to flash the lights on the squad car and driving off the highway and into the road that led to the back of the retreat and the police checkpoint.

Oni and Alien saw the sirens light up the forest and began to control their breathing, their feet plush into the leaves and grass of the forest, the cold steel of their guns resting against their masks’ cheeks.

The policeman at the checkpoint, stared at the flashing lights, thought about calling it in, but decided against it and waved the squad-car forward.

Clown lowered his window and the policeman’s eyes widened in shock, before feeling three thuds across his chest.

Clown kept the car moving forwards and Roman flicked off the lights, as they pulled up to the front door of the house.

From above, the head bodyguard, a tall ex-sergeant from an elite SWAT team stared down at the car, and frowned when one of his trusted men shook his head at the radio.

Scowling, he grabbed his rifle from a locker and signalled to the rest to get ready.

Alpha, Bravo, Charlie, Delta.

Simple, smart, and efficient names. They had a combined 15 years of experience in SWAT teams, and many more as regular patrol officers. They had fought cartels, gang-bangers, angry and abusive husbands and mobs. They were hardened fighters, used to street violence, and not above taking a lot of money on the side.

These men were the thugs of any police force, gangster cops that could be expected to take the dirtiest jobs, the highest bribes, and employ the most violent methods.

There was nothing more they loved than a good fight. The Mayor offered them plenty. Political opponents, high-ranking lieutenants, journalists … all were removed at the Mayor’s whim. These men were the foundation of the Mayor’s power, the extension of his will and guardians of the system.

Modern day Praetorians.

Alpha was Clown’s counterpart, a burly, tough and brutal man, whose face was scarred by a cartel bomb years ago.

Bravo was Roman’s analogue. Stout, muscular and possessing skilled hands, Bravo was callous in his application of medication, preferring to twist his knowledge in interrogation techniques.

Oni’s twin was Charlie. Equally big. Equally terrifying. A hulking mass of a man that could bulldoze his way through doors as if he was knocking over a vase. He stood at over 2 metres tall, and once shrugged off a small calibre pistol shot to the chest as if it was an bee sting.

Delta equalled Alien. Wiry, small, sneaky and playful with a knife. He was an expert hand to hand combatant, once taking out 5 gang-bangers who cornered him in an alleyway with just his knife. He adored serrated steel and relished any opportunity to wield it.

Just as Alpha aimed his rifle at the squad car, and his men were slapping on their vests, a single crack split the silence of the night.

What followed was chaos and fear, as machine gun fire streaked across the upper floor of the house and terrace, and shattered windows splintered and showered glass fragments everywhere.

Oni, keeping his finger poised and steady, watched as bright red streaks from tracer rounds flew from the barrel of his gun and laced their way across the back lawn and into flesh, as security guards ran out, guns up, only to be flung backwards by the heavy bullets.

Oni kept up the suppression, the heavy kick of the gun, barely registering in his shoulder, lacing round after round across and around the lawn and house, sighting muzzle flashes and punching bullets into cover, watching men reel back as metal, glass and wooden splinters entered their face and hands.

From across the pond, Alien heard the frantic radio calls from the Praetorian guards as they tried to reach the two corpses next to him. Ignoring them, Alien blew on his trigger finger, and swivelled his sniper rifle onto a man’s head, who was gesturing wildly at the woods, to his team-mates and felt the gentle kick in his shoulders as he pulled the trigger.

The man’s head snapped sickeningly hard and propelled the body into the ground, the dead fingers working the trigger of his gun, spraying rounds in a crazed cartwheel of death.

Several of his compatriots screamed and dove to the ground, where Alien’s crosshairs followed them and stilled them.

Meanwhile, on the other side of the house, Clown saw Alpha’s rifle up at the window and sprayed a burst, through the windshield of the squad car, Roman mirroring his movement, as they kicked open the door of their car and ran to the front entrance of the house.

A hail of bullets smashed through the front doors, splintering wood and causing Roman and Clown to take cover on either side of the door.

Inside, Charlie was laying it on thick, with his assault rifle, as Alpha grabbed the Mayor’s shoulders and with Bravo covering them both with his body, the three of them moved from the upper floor to the lower, as Delta scouted ahead of the three, flicking his weapon left, right, centre and up, down, searching for targets.

Charlie continued firing into the front entrance, until he saw the four of them go past him and into the kitchen where there was another staircase to go below the porch. Peeling off, he narrowly just avoided the counter-fire from Roman and Clown, as they kicked open the door and stitched gunfire across the corners of the room.

Holding for a moment, Roman nodded to Clown about the upstairs floor, and Clown pressed his radio.

Alien heard the radio squawk, and scanned the mostly glass upper floor, noting dispassionately the trio of dead women that Oni had killed in his initial machine gun burst. Scowling, he sighted one more man hiding behind a closet, his gun jutting out from behind the cover.

Pulling the trigger, he shot the man once through the head, and followed it up with two more through the chest as the body fell forwards, blood erupting violently and splashing the wall.

Satisfied there was no-one else, Alien gave a signal back and began eyeing targets on the lawn, most of whom were lying in puddles of blood.

Of the initial 30 men, 12 of them laid in pools of blood. The others had retreated to the darkened interior of the house, where they refused the orders to go back out.

Alpha stared out from the basement of the house, and looked at the simpering man next to him, and disgust entered his mind. Looking away, he stared out and knew that his sniper team was dead.

The main road was blocked.

Only the helicopter, and the boat were the two viable escape options. If they weren’t shot up. Luckily the pilot was still alive, bunking in the basement having saved his life.

But in order to reach them, he needed to remove the sniper.

Looking across at his squad and the remaining 14 men, Alpha pulled Delta close and whispered to him.

Delta nodded tersely, with the beginnings of a confident smile emerging on his face. Motioning for 3 men to follow him, Delta snuck away, and disappeared into the darkness of the night.

Repositioning the rest of the men, he strategically situated them in rooms all around the basement floor. Some stared out glass doors, at the tempting lake, whilst others got comfortable laying prone on the floor, staring at the doorway.

Bravo chose a choke point that if Clown and Roman came down, they would have to confront a three prong assault, tackling the hallway to their rear as they came down the staircase, or dealing with the two doors in front.

In addition, Alpha and Charlie were in the room adjacent to the staircase, ready to shoot right through banisters and railing, with a door behind them ready to exit.

Clown and Roman stared down the staircase, knowing that it was a trap. The gunfire had ceased and receded into silence, and they had found no one on the ground floor.

Pressing his radio, Clown awaited for confirmation from Oni, before looking at Roman. Together, they unhooked 4 grenades and slowly crept down the staircase until they were level with the first gap in the railing.

Pulling the pins, Clown tossed his pair to the two rooms in front, while Roman stuffed his down the hallway.

Sprinting back up, as gunfire roared and nipped at their boots, Clown and Roman surged back out the front entrance and Roman waited by the front door, while Clown went at a full sprint towards the rear of the house, hoping to cut off any runners with Oni.

Oni had already moved forwards and positioned his machine gun at the likely enfilade angle and saw Clown peer around the corner of the house, as they both heard yells and shouts and the sounds of hurried movement.

Just a nano-second before the explosions and frag shattered everything, Oni could have sworn he saw bright flashes at the sniper nest.

But it was forgotten, as he saw a man his size smash through a glass door, along with 7 other men, three of which were crouched and running as fast as they could.

Oni aimed his weapon and mowed 4 of them down instantly, bodies shuddering as bullets tore through them.

But the big one was still up and he roared and returned fire, charging straight at Oni.

Oni ducked for cover, as the rounds pinged through his machine gun, one of them cutting through his bicep, as he scrabbled at the ground, trying to hide.

The fire stopped as abruptly as it started and Oni tore at his leg, drawing his pistol, as Charlie appeared over the brim and with his empty rifle, clubbed at Oni, smacking away the sidearm.

Oni rolled to his feet and the two massive men stared at each other, before settling into defensive poses, Charlie adopting a boxer’s poise, while Oni hunched into a defensive jiu-jitsu stance.

Clown’s eyes widened in shock as he saw the two of them settle into their stances, but by then, the Mayor, and Alpha had reached the helicopter, the pilot desperately trying to spin up the rotors.

Emptying his magazine into the helicopter cockpit, which soon became splattered with the blood of the pilot, Clown ran forwards, towards his revenge, his pistol outstretched, the slide rocking back and forth as round after round entered the helicopter.

Elsewhere, just before the grenades had gone off, Bravo had recognised the distinctive noises and charged headlong up the stairs, screaming and firing in desperation, and colliding head-first into Roman.

Both men fell to the ground, as the explosion rocked the house and placed all the defenders out of commission except for the Praetorians and the Machine.

Scrambling back, both men went for their pistols and began firing wildly at each other, not truly aiming, just squeezing the trigger as fast as their fingers would allow. On their backs, and wriggling from side to side as bullets impacted near and on them, they looked like bizarre break dancers, desperate to avoid death.

Blood immediately began to pour, as surface wounds appeared across both men’s arms and legs, before together they ran out of ammunition.

Exhausted and desperate, Bravo pulled out a surgical knife from his chest rig and threw it at Roman, who caught it square in the face.

His head snapped back, and laid still.

Moments passed, before eerily, Roman sat back up, the knife sticking out of his stoic, expressionless mask.

He pulled the knife out, and Bravo opened his mouth to scream, but were unable to find the sounds, as the knife entered his throat and blocked them from coming out.

Groaning, Roman fumbled for his pistol, managing to just slam in a reload and angrily shoot Bravo three more times, before slumping back, clutching at his arms and legs and pressing the radio three times, to indicate his wounded state.

~

Alien heard the distress call, above the sounds of a man choking to death, his death rattle emptying into Alien’s ear. Rolling off to the side, he released the choke-hold on the man he had caught trying to ambush him and ducked as an explosion went off near him, the Claymore mine shredding the two men who dared to set it off.

Alien looked around, his senses nearly overloading him, as he stared through his mask, scanning around furiously.

As he stepped around, he suddenly tripped and the movement saved his life, as Delta rushed from the shadows, his arms outstretched, knife in hand.

Grabbing nothing but air, and tripping over Alien, as he kicked out his feet, Delta lashed out with the knife and narrowly missed stabbing Alien’s head.

Rolling away, Alien pushed himself up and drew his own knife.

Both men stared down at each other, weaving their knives slowly, their hand movements like snakes eyeing down threats, jabbing forward with terrifying speed.

Circling one another, Alien felt fear and adrenaline coursing through his body.

Delta, with a serious grimace across his face, lunged forwards with a yell.

Alien side-stepped and blocked the knife-hand sweeping in towards his stomach. Turning his torso, he let Delta in closer to him, to prevent him from getting distance, and stabbed down hard with his own knife.

However, Delta, reading his intentions, jerked backwards and spun around in Alien’s grip, breaking free and stepping away.

Both men took deep breaths, and charged in again.

Like mirror images, Delta’s support hand grasped Alien’s knife hand, with Alien mimicking the same defensive move.

They stood still, like statues, tense sinews and strained muscles, fighting each other, unwillingly to give up pressure. Desperate to avoid death and the killing move that would follow. Alien stared through the night vision green to scan Delta’s eyes, who showed immense concentration.

Suddenly remembering his advantage, Alien swiftly shifted the pressure down, instead of up, and Delta buckled, as the Alien mask smashed the bridge of his nose, stunning him.

Reeling back, Alien cut away at Delta’s knife hand, causing him to drop it, before severing the man’s armpit and then slicing out the tendon at the ankle.

Delta, his legs splayed out and on his knees, stared up at the Alien that was going to kill him.

Burying the knife back of Delta’s neck, and slicing through, Alien watched as the blood poured out and stood back, as the body fell forward limply into the dirt.

Gasping slightly, he picked up his rifle again and aimed through the scope, desperate to get back into the fight.

~

Down at the lake, Oni and Charlie mirrored the fight at the sniper nest.

Charlie was throwing punch after punch, with Oni ducking and weaving, his huge mass slowing him down, as he tried to get close the distance.

Their styles were radically different.

Oni needed to defend and tackle Charlie onto the ground, before he took too much damage from Charlie’s powerful boxing moves.

He had already absorbed too many jabs, grateful that he mostly just had to protect his face and throat, as he could rely on his chest rig to soften body hits. Even with his mask softening the hits, the force was immense.

Oni was also desperately trying to read Charlie’s moves, to avoid the devastating uppercuts that could end the fight.

He kept his elbows up, hands out, blocking and ducking like a madman under the onslaught.

In the end, when the fight wasn’t going your way, it was time to improvise.

Oni saw his damaged machine gun on the ground behind Charlie and began to subtly move him towards it.

Charlie, focused too much on landing satisfying punches, kept up the flow. A jab to the right, followed by a feint, that transformed into a straight left. Haymaker that he knew would miss, but could follow it up with 2 jabs into Oni’s chest and then a big swing into the side of his head.

Only the final swing didn’t occur, because he stepped into Oni’s machine gun, breaking his concentration, and Oni immediately rushed forwards, wrapped his arms around Charlie’s legs and swept him onto the ground.

Charlie’s eyes buckled as Oni wrapped his legs around his torso and squeezed them together in a vice like grip. Charlie desperately tried to punch at Oni’s face, but with his movement limited and with most of the power coming from the hips, the punches were ineffectual and beginning to weaken under the immense pressure that Oni was applying to him.

Feeling Charlie was close to a blackout, Oni squeezed even harder, and heard a sickening crack as Charlie’s spinal cord snapped and immediately resistance went limp and weak.

Holding on for just a few more seconds, Oni stumbled away from Charlie, sweating profusely, his breathing, ragged and raspy. Picking up his discarded pistol, Oni walked over to Charlie and delivered a coup de grace to the back of his head, before sinking to his knees in exhaustion, staring at Clown.

~

With the helicopter destroyed, the pilot killed, Alpha was forced to move the Mayor down to the docks. The final option. Everything had gone completely wrong, even in his protection duty, as the Mayor had gotten hit in the leg by Clown’s pistol fire.

Half carrying the limping Mayor, Alpha gritted his teeth in anger, and fired his pistol back at Clown, who took two to the chest, dropping him hard onto the floor.

Gasping for breath, Clown shuddered as he opened up the chest rig and pulled the ceramic plates from beneath to stop the huge deformation of the rounds from pressuring his body.

Rolling off to the side, as more pistol fire slammed into the ground near him, Clown reattached the chest rig correctly and got into a crouch, his eyes watering from the pain.

Cursing, he saw that the Mayor was already in the speedboat at the pier, and tried to fire his pistol, except he couldn’t see the sights through his blurry vision.

Struggling upwards, Clown got to his feet and tried to rub his eyes, only to touch his mask.

Shaking his head instead, he cleared the tears, dropped the magazine in the pistol, racked the slide and pressed on, cold fury in his eyes.

Alpha saw him move down and fired at him, as behind him, the Mayor struggled to operate the speedboat through the pain in his leg. Above the gunfire, Alien looked through his scope and finally settling his breathing, centered the crosshairs on the boat itself, and began firing methodically.

Bullets ripped themselves into the control panel, causing sparks and the Mayor to shriek in pain, and duck for cover in the boat. The engine spluttered and sparked as rounds after round continue to slam into the boat.

Alpha, realising what was happening, dove off the side of the boat and towards the docks, where he pulled himself up, just as Clown came charging down and drove them both into the lake.

Alien looked up and swore under his breath, and remembered the distress call. Coldly speaking over the radio to Oni, he told him to head over to Roman and see to his wounds, as he continued to suppress the Mayor, hoping Clown was alright.

In the dark water, Clown and Alpha struggled together, their arms clutched in each other’s chest rigs. The cog in the Machine, against the elite of the system.

Seeing Alpha’s pistol come out, Clown let go and scrambled away, watching as the pistol barked underwater and the bullet coming towards him, only to drop suddenly off, robbed of its momentum.

Seeing the pistol run dry, Clown swam for the surface, taking a quick breath, before Alpha pulled his leg under. Opening his eyes in the murky water, Clown punched Alpha in the groin, and watched as he reeled back.

Taking out his knife, Clown stabbed at Alpha, only to get kicked in the face as Alpha tried to get away.

Losing his grip, he made for the surface again and saw that Alpha had begun swimming for the pier. Swearing, Clown did the same and go to the pier, just as Alpha had climbed up and was spinning back around, trying to reload his pistol.

Boosting himself up, Clown grabbed the Alpha by the chest and threw him back into the water. Taking a massive breath, Clown dove down and this time, stabbed manically through the water, slashing at anything that resembled Alpha’s form.

Alpha screamed as his arms took the brunt of the attack. His training was trying to kick in, to remind him to keep up his defence, but by then the terrifying Clown mask was so close that terror took hold of him.

Clown stabbed the knife into Alpha’s chest, and strangled him savagely with the other, watching as large air bubbles erupted from the mouth, mute with horror and fear. He kept going, working the blade methodically, tightening his grip on the neck until finally the last gaggle of bubbles came billowing out, and the eyes turned glassy.

Bursting through the surface again, Clown swam back to the pier and exhausted, hauled himself onto the sand, lying flat on his face, dead to the world.

~

It seemed ages later that Alien came running down, and began slamming his fists into Clown’s chest, waking him. Clown struggled up and went mute with horror for a second, when he saw a Roman, a Demon and an Alien stare at him, before recovering and remembering where he was.

Getting up, Clown saw that the Mayor was zip-cuffed to a lawn chair and was pleading with his eyes, his mouth having been stuffed with his own socks.

Looking over at the Machine, his squad, they nodded and Oni handed him a knife.

Clown remembered the speech, that he had rehearsed and reaching under the mask, he deactivated the voice modulator.

Good Evening Mayor … 

We are the Machine. We are here for money, and your life. 

You have been restrained and immobilised. If you are experiencing distress, breathe and relieve yourself on the spot. 

Everything in these premises is now ours. Nothing you own is sacred to you any-more. The system no longer exists for a man like you. Only the Machine will spare you any attention.

If you allow the Machine to do its work, you will be spared further pain. 

Interfere, and this will occur.”

Clown punctuated the speech with a swift knife into the Mayor’s thigh and dismissing the muffled scream, pulled out a pen and paper from his chest rig and wrote the word “PASSWORD.” in block letters.

Ripping the socks away, the Mayor began spilling out all his secrets, Oni standing by with a tape recorder, whilst Clown wrote them down.

Once he had finished, the Mayor slumped in his chair, exhausted, staring dully at the knife that stood out from his thigh.

“I just want to know one thing before I die. Who the fuck are you guys.” he murmured.

Clown tucked away the notepad and pen in a waterproof sleeve. Raising the mask briefly, he stared into the Mayor’s eyes.

“You! You …”

The Clown sealed his mask shut and stepped back.

Roman, Clown, Oni and Alien stood side by side, as the Mayor looked up at them.

The Machine drew their pistols as a unit, and fired together.

4 bullets. 4 attempts at redemption that had been destroyed. 4 men that had been turned into something else, something mechanical.

Turning around, the Machine walked towards the house, to their prize among the dead, silent and emotionless, their masks betraying nothing of how they felt inside.

Author’s Note:

Quite easily the longest story I have ever written in a single sitting, clocking in at around 8400 words.

I started it yesterday, taking a break around the 1500 words mark, before finishing it off today at 10.30pm. in between serving customers at work and taking breaks here and there.

The inspiration for this, mostly came from the film Den of Thieves (2018) which to me, was a decent attempt to pay homage to the legendary film Heat (1995).

I used the basis of extremely violent, highly trained thieves, and originally wanted to describe a bank robbery, but it ended up turning a lot more interesting and reminiscent of the 007 short story by Ian Fleming, For Your Eyes Only which I stole the entire basis of a cabin retreat, surrounded by dense forestry and a lake.

If you are struggling to imagine what the retreat look like, I took inspiration from the film Gone Girl (2014) when crafting together the overall look of the Mayor’s home. In particular, I referenced Desi Collings’ cabin retreat, where Amy seeks refuge.

Obviously for the Machine, I didn’t really intend for it to be about how the “system” failed these men, but I needed a recurring theme as to why these men were so driven, so ruthless in how they operated and performed in bank robberies.

This was also inspired by why in fiction, you seem to see so many iconic masks for bank robbers but not many other criminals. I don’t really know the reason myself, but I was pondering that question and wanted each member of the team to stand out and have an identity for him.

Clown, was obviously American based, with his colour scheme and the fact that creepy clowns are a very iconic American pop culture reference. His masks resembles that of the clowns in Payday 2 (2013).

Oni, my personal favourite, was Japanese-influenced and meant to be the antithesis of typical Asian depictions, him being the biggest and strongest guy, akin to a sumo wrestler, of the quartet.

Roman, was based on the video game designs seen in Ryse: Son of Rome (2013), in which I also took the idea of Praetorian guards to design the counter-SWAT team for the Mayor and of course the Centurion character in For Honor (2017). Of course, this indicates Italian origins for the character.

Alien’s mask, was actually designed around a custom mask I made in the game Payday 2 (2013), in which it was called Alienware and I made a very similar colour scheme, only the mask’s eyes didn’t glow green or white. He is a rather obvious nod to the US-Mexico border problems.

Another writing technique I tried was seamlessly merging the four separate fights. I don’t think I had ever written anything quite like this, where I was trying to create connective tissues between the 4 different locations, as well as create something unique for them all.

Of the 4, I struggled with describing Alpha and Clown’s fight the most, as trying to make a water fight sound interesting is difficult to pull off, when your vocabulary is limited to words like “splash, swim” etc. I hope what I managed to do, did convey the chaos, but at the end of the day, action … is inherently better suited to film, than writing.

Maybe I should read more Matthew Reilly to get a better understanding of action. I can always visualise his scenes perfectly well, when reading his books.

That’s it for now, I hope you didn’t mind the long read.

Expect some reflective stuff soon.

~ Damocles.

P.S. This is now officially, 9000 words long. Not bad eh?

 

Adam. (Fiction)

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The Guest (2014).

At night I’m driving in your car
Pretending that we’ll leave this town
We’re watching all the street lights fade
And now you’re just a stranger’s dream
I took your picture from the frame
And now you’re nothing like you seem
Your shadow fell like last night’s rain

For the last time …. 

(Lyrics taken from Chromatic’s Shadow song)

The melancholy sweet pop song wafted through the air of the apartment room, the atmosphere changing where Adam was sitting down, his eyes glued to the screen. He watched as an attractive brunette sat down at her dressing table, her bare face ready for the night out.

Clad in a crimson silk bath robe, that still showcased her wet skin from the shower, Adam stared intently at the laptop, his blue eyes narrowed in concentration, as he tried to pierce through the screen to see what type of brands she was using.

There were dozens of bottles and brushes on her table, and Adam could make out most of them with the zoom feature.

Tom Ford eyeshadow, Chanel No. 5 parfum, Fenty bronzer … the brands and items were expensive and effective at transformation.

The brunette took her time, her already sharp features enhanced, brushstroke by brushstroke, powder by powder, each pencil sketch; a refined definition.

The cheekbones became sharper, the tapered and sharp jaw, even more acute, the shimmering emerald eyes lifted by mascara, the wavy brown locks lined by a hot hair straightener.

Adam felt his breath catch slightly, as the bathrobe came off, and he saw her bare back and buttocks, the long straight legs that seemed to stretch to infinity and the small diamond shaped birthmark on her left thigh.

He watched as she reached up, the long hair falling to the side, revealing a full, shapely breast that was soon covered by a purple lace Agent Provocateur bra. The hips were also soon accented by matching purple high waisted briefs.

Adam felt his breathing coming in shallow and fast, as he beheld the brunette in her purple lingerie, admiring her figure in the full length mirror of her walk-in wardrobe, the marble navel taunt and flat, the long slender arms outstretched above her head, as she pouted and pursed her full red lips.

As she plucked clothes off the rack and tossed them onto her large double bed, Adam also allowed himself to get up and mirror her actions, flipping on the large plasma TV in the centre of the apartment to reflect the laptop’s feed.

Looking down at his phone, he noted the time and flipped his thumbs over to an app, that began to play music from the Bang & Olufsen Beosound Shapes, a rhythmic, pulsating song, The Demon Dance by Julian Winding.

The song throbbed and vibrated the apartment, turning it into a dark twisted fashion show. +

Pleased with the atmosphere, he padded over to his own walk-in wardrobe, and looked at his own collection of exclusive menswear and decided to go with something that would complement the woman’s dress … a Navy Twill O’Connor tuxedo that would contrast the woman’s red Silk Duchesse Pleated Pants and Cotton Velvet Jacket.

Standing at 184 centimetres tall, Adam was the type of person that could be summed up in one word: obsessed. Obsession drove him to success, obsession allowed him to work hours on end without any loss of focus … obsession had given him everything in life, except the perfect arm-piece to bring to cocktail events.

Everything about Adam, signaled intensity. His body was a Michelangelo sculpture, all marbled muscle and virile masculinity, with an equally strong face, that boasted of a strong jawline with a cleft down the middle of the chin and piercing blue eyes that stared out from under tousled, wavy black hair.

Many looked at Adam, like he was the very first and perfect specimen of a male that God had ever created. It wasn’t far from the truth, with his intelligence and ruthless nature an equal match and complement to his physical appearance.

Such looks however, were bought and enhanced by money and a scalpel, and Adam remained conscious of that fact, despite the hundreds of compliments thrown his way, since his life altering surgery.

But his obsessive nature and intelligence were all his, a narcissistic point of pride for him.

Staring at himself in the mirror, he touched his stomach and could only feel hard muscle resisting the pressure. Pleased, he got dressed in the Tom Ford tuxedo and noted with pleasure that the brunette had also finished the final touches to her own Tom Ford outfit, wearing the blazer with only her bra underneath, her enviable collarbone and full bust on display, the bra only just hidden by the button up nature of her velvet jacket.

A hanging diamond necklace came around her neck, as Adam adjusted his black bowtie and dabbed his neck with Giorgio Armarni profumo.

Then, both of them went for their final items, wallets, phones, watches and other essentials. He watched as the brunette dialed in for a Uber, and the door to her apartment close softly behind her, before killing the live feed and heading down to his apartment garage, where a myriad of sports and hypercars awaited him.

Taking a pair of keys off the rack, he turned on a dark carbon black Mclaren P1 and slowly eased the vehicle out of the garage.

They had arranged to meet at one of NYC’s finest restaurants, Daniel and at 6.30pm, Adam parked the Mclaren and got out, at the same time as the brunette. They both smiled at each other, and Adam offered one of his forearms for her to hold, the brunette pursing prettily at him, in recognition of the gentlemanly gesture.

They walked to the revolving front door, all bronze, and dark wood with marble walls, and were shown to their seats, the moment the maitre d’hotel recognised Adam.

Settling in, the brunette glanced around her happily, eager to sample the French cuisine on offer. Adam, waited patiently, rehearsing what he suspected she would order, and was pleased to know his prior research about her was correct.

Adam rolled off his order smoothly, and the rest of the dinner was spent, with Adam confirming what he already knew about the brunette.

Vivienne Lockwood was her full name, a heiress to a luxury cruise company, and well-renowned socialite. She dabbled in the film industry as a producer, and enjoyed a great number of dalliances and social circles.

Both of which had mysteriously shrunken a little in recent times, with several of her male admirers having been taken away on long holidays or her favourite one disappearing at sea.

So she was pleased when she met Adam, a veritable Adonis even among the famous and beautiful of the elite.

What she wasn’t aware of though, was that Adam had been researching her for the past 6 months, a project that had come about from his obsession with her, having once seen her on the spread of a magazine.

For 24 long weeks, Adam had studied her and carefully orchestrated everything to lead up to this moment.

The installation of the security feed in her apartment had been easy. He had gotten his workers to install it, under the pretense that the apartment building was faulty. In addition to a live-feed, there were trackers on her cars and an app on his phone that notified him of any strange deviation in her schedule.

Adam was also hardwired into her social media, frequenting her page regularly to check in on her favourite spots, her regular brunch eateries, her small desires and even her closest friends, which he had done cursory research on, to determine her best friend.

Everything about her was scrutinised and examined under Adam’s unerring inspection. Her online brand, the social media manager of her team, even the fabric of her bed … none of it escaped Adam’s attention.

Aware of her large social circle, Adam didn’t have any hesitation in removing her favourite distraction with a well timed scuba trip and drowning him in the Bahamian waters.

It had been easier than he had expected. With his huge mass, the man barely struggled, and died with minimal resistance, no doubt the huge amount of alcohol in his system contributing to the speed in which he met his demise.

The body was found an entire week later, far out to sea, Adam already back at work in his office, when the news was announced.

It was common for Adam to spend his nights, staring intently at the live feed of Vivienne’s apartment, observing her in her grief, marveling at the way how she writhed whilst masturbating, and watching her in her deepest, darkest and most private moments, sympathising with the times when she talked to her friends or herself as she admitted faults and sins, wishing he could be there for her.

And now, now he was with her, on a proper date, saying and expressing all the right things. Laughing with her, smiling with her … Adam was delirious on this high and wanted to ride it forever.

He wanted to own it, and possess it. Control it and mold it to his liking. He wanted it begging and yearned for it to dominate him.

But patience!

He couldn’t mess things up now. Not when he worked so hard and so long.

So he kept up his appearance, his shield. He was the perfect gentleman, the type of man that Vivienne had told her girlfriends, hundreds of times before. He poured generous amounts of her favourite wine, that he had privately bought to Daniels, hours before their meeting. He laughed at stories that she bought up, even though he was fully aware of their ending, having seen her instagram stories hundreds of times.

Adam was endlessly charming. He knew his best side and rehearsed endlessly how to laugh in multiple ways, from sympathetic chuckles to big booming laughs that showed how much he loved her jokes. All of these actions were calculated and designed to only display his perfect side, the angle of the face that was the most pleasing, photogenic and aesthetically worthy.

Vivienne loved it all. She couldn’t believe that she had finally met the perfect man. She was entirely oblivious to his efforts. They seemed natural. This was her first time meeting a man, who was so effortlessly a man.

The first date could not be going any better. She was determined to see things through to the absolute limits tonight with Adam. She wanted all of him.

He wanted all of her.

When dessert came, Adam took a calculated risk and placed his hands over hers. She responded immediately, caressing his hand back.

From there, the night took on a dream-like quality.

Blurriness overtook the proceedings. Adam was riding such a high, he wasn’t sure he was even properly aware of what he was doing.

He recalled the shape of her legs in his Mclaren, the hard press of her lips against his as they smashed together in the elevator ride up to her apartment.

The sensation of familiarity as he knew instantly where to go in her room, having seen it a thousand times before on his laptop.

The way she giggled as he peeled off her blazer and held her breasts and bra in his hands.

The kisses that felt warm and soft on his stomach as she slowly made her way down.

The soft squelch of her groin against his, the warm sensation suffusing through his entire system.

The erotic moans, as her arms were splayed across his back, clenching him harder to her as they moved in unison.

Then darkness claimed him.

~

Adam awoke to the sounds of a song that only he could hear:

Think of me
I’ll never break your heart
Think of me
You’re always in the dark
I am your light, your light, your light
Think of me
You’re never in the dark

(Lyrics taken from Kaleida’s Think song)

Snapping upright, Adam looked across and panicked, hoping that the night had turned out differently.

He was instantly proven correct.

He was still in his apartment, all the glided cage luxury suffocating him, the bed empty and cold, no naked gorgeous brunette next to him.

He had imagined the ending.  Everything was true up to a point; when he bought out her favourite wine, she had asked him, suspicious as to how he knew.

His stammering answer roused her instincts and with a cold fury, she stormed out of Daniels and set the hounds on him.

He only barely escaped the numerous lawyers and subsequent scandal through his use of dummy corporations, a private settlement with the Lockwood estate and the promise to erase all footage of her.

All 6 months.

All 24 weeks of footage, research, examination and study …. gone.

But Adam was an obsessive man. He would find another woman. His quest wouldn’t stop.

Not for anyone.

Not for anything.

Eventually … Adam would find his Eve.

Author’s Note:

I struggled with this one.

It was difficult to find a proper twist and revelation for this story. And I originally wanted to create a story about an abusive boyfriend. But the story starting turning into another type. Thus how this narrative ended up going into You (Netflix) territory.

I wanted to make Adam attractive, but destructive. The film The Invisible Man (2020) really kind of helped me establish how an incredibly good looking individual, can still be charming, debonair and intelligent, whilst utterly abusive, and intrusive. Adam was very much based on my first impression of Adrian Griffin in that film, with a splash of Joe Goldberg from the aforementioned Netflix series above.

And of course, David Collins from The Guest, which features one of my all-time favourite synth soundtracks.

However, I suffered from writing block regarding this for a long time. Over a solid week.

But I suspect it’s simply to do with the fact that I do not have a lot of experience or exposure to abusive relationships. A lot of my own personal experience is incredibly benign and loving, with almost nothing unhealthy about them, and all the fiction I expose myself to, are similar.

If I do suffer from writer’s block … I know that I am tackling a challenging topic. A story that I don’t have a lot of clarity and descriptive powers to handle.  It’s a step away from my comfort zone, discussing things military, myself, sappy romance and action scenes.

An important aspect of writing is to attempt these kind of topics that you have no handle on. Even if the product is shitty. And I think this one is.

There are some obvious clues that I struggled.

Sentences become a bit meandering and lack their crispness and I end up letting the narrative peter out and fizzle in a unsatisfactory kind of way, instead of having my hand on the steering wheel and guiding it to a proper conclusion.

Hence, I think my twist in this story, about it being a dream, is, I think, a bit of a flaw. Too reminiscent of Shaymalan twists.

But to make the whole thing a dream, felt even cheaper. So I made it out that Adam was dreaming about the perfect conclusion to his obsessive quest.

There were a lot of things I was attempting here. I wanted to allow you, the reader to experience the songs, so that you have some kind of soundtrack you could play whilst reading.

I was also italicising a lot of brand names to help create the world and instant familiarity, whilst trying to highlight how shallow and narcissistic this world that Adam inhabited really was.

Finally, it’s obvious, but if you arrange letters in Vivienne, you do get the name “Eve” in there. Hence the rather on-the-nose reference. Lockwood, I stole from a Harlan Coben character, but is apt, because he is locked in the woods of his own obsessive nature.

That’s it for now. Expect another few more pieces soon.

~Damocles.

 

 

The Clockmaker (Fiction)

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Arts et Metiers Station in Paris, France. 

The hourglass poured sand through the tiny crevice, the glass bubble trapping the mountain of sand within. 

Grain by grain, it slowly filled up until it reached its zenith and a spiny hand reached out and flipped it, checking it with his timepiece. 

An analogue item, in a digital world, the Clockmaker preferred gears over electronics, the application of physics over the magic of charges.

He liked cranking levers, turning wheels and making tiny adjustments with his precise screws. The colour of bronze was more pleasing than the clean sterile nature of the modern age.

The Observatory where he was working, was a steam-punk haven, of clocks, gears, steam, bronze, copper and wood. The roof was a burnished metallic sphere, that resembled Line 11 platforms of the Parisian Arts et Metiers station.

It arced over the entire spherical workshop, with a singular window cut out in the front, that allowed the Clockmaker to project his large telescope out.

Taking up most of the room, and providing an appropriate shadow under which the Clockmaker did most of his work, the telescope was an incredible feat of engineering, that rotated on large mechanical gears, that interlocked each other and a series of wheels that led all the way up to the viewing platform.

Up there, the Clockmaker had made a small wheel for himself that using minimum effort, could rotate and adjust the large optical telescope for his liking and fine tune the focus.

The base of the telescope was open, an chasm that showcased the intricate engineering and the gleam of all the copper, metal and bronze.

Due to its spherical design and central circular platform, all of the Clockmaker’s workshops were lined along the wall, with a single straight table at the base of the telescope, the precise centre of the entire space. At the bottom was also a large auto-winch, which he used to move the telescope on its axis.

Along every bench were thousands of projects that had been started and all with varying levels of progress. A single large train engine here, an unfinished sewing wheel there, and all type and sizes of screws strewn about, in what seemed like a careless manner, but were actually very precise placements for reference.

A gas stove ran in the rear, and that powered the steam generator that provided gas-light for the workshop, a pale, flickering, yellowing light that burnished the bronze interior.

As he watched the hourglass slowly fill up with sand, the Clockmaker wiped his hands on a rag that hung from his hip, and using his wrist, nudged the large goggles from his eyes, onto his forehead.

He would take a break, briefly and eat something before continuing his greatest project.

Walking away from the central workshop, he stood next to his coat rack and plucked a greatcoat off. Covering his slightly dirty white linen shirt and black waistcoat, he moved to his hat stand, a beautiful mahogany affair, and wrestled the flat cap atop his tousled brown hair.

Opening the large door that featured an enormous combination lock of his own design, he stepped out into a chilly world where green fields had been replaced by white fresh snow and blue skies with grey storm-clouds.

The Clockmaker flipped his lapels up to protect his neck and thrust his hands deep into the pockets of the greatcoat and began trudging his way across the fields, into the nearby town, where life was slowly beginning to accelerate as bakeries sold their goods and half-frozen newsboys shouted at people to collect their papers.

Hunched into the coat, he moved silently through the dirty cobble streets, the industrial sounds of a production revolution surrounding him, as men, covered in soot, flame and coal, banged away at metal and rivets, sweating profusely under their strain.

Belches of fire erupted from warehouses around him, and he reflexively ducked as a police carriage, slowly rattled its way past him. Scanning up and down for any more of the constabulary, he cautiously made his way out of the street and closer to the nicer parts of the town, where he could find nourishment.

Aware of his disheveled appearance, the Clockmaker kept to himself, doing his best to avoid well-to-do couples in their finery, dresses and jewels, and the piles of horse manure on the road alike.

Spying an unobtrusive bakery, he stepped in quickly and ordered himself a loaf of bread and butter, tucking the wrapped goods under his coat and hurriedly passing over the few coins he had.

The bakerwoman, had been too absentminded to notice him properly, but when she saw his figure leave the store, her eyes had widened slightly in recognition of something.

Scurrying away, he deftly made his way back through the industrial area, stopping occasionally to wolf down pieces of the bread that he liberally smeared with butter, using his fingers. Scanning nervously the entire time, he only relaxed his pace when he reached the relative safety of the fields, where hibernating trees, soured the landscape and cast an air of isolation and gloom over everything.

Doing his best to stop his feet from freezing over, the Clockmaker was glad when he reached the front door and unlocking the heavy combination lock with frozen fingers, he stumbled in, just as the wind was beginning to pick up.

Slamming it shut behind him, he looked at the remaining half a loaf he had eaten and touched his stomach. Feeling sated, he settled it down on a round workbench, near the gas stove to keep it warm, and hung up his coat and hat on the racks.

Picking up his goggles once more, the Clockmaker went back to the hourglass and noted that it was nearly empty again.

Waiting patiently, he flipped it as it neared the hour and turned his attention to the large project in front of him.

It was a woman.

To be more accurate, it was a pair of women.

Both were cold and lifeless, one shiny mechanical and the other formerly flesh.

The dead woman, was the Clockmaker’s wife. He had accidentally killed her in a flash of rage and been remorseful ever since. His obsession with her, and the keen loss he felt, had led to a singular night, where gripped with fanatical inspiration, he broke into the town’s graveyard and dug up her corpse.

He left only the funeral veil behind and had laboured under her weight across the field and night, and into his Observatory.

The Clockmaker believed, with the power of the Observatory and genius of his intellect, he could recreate his wife and transfer her essence from her body into the new one he was making.

His greatest project, was hideously intricate and a poor simile for the woman next to it.

Featuring an enormous amount of gears, cogs, and screws, each part of the mechanical body featured a large crank handle, that could allow the limbs to move. Situated at joints, the screw would turn anticlockwise, or clockwise to allow rudimentary movement, left and right, with another handle allowing up and down.

The fingers and toes were frozen in place, but at the wrist and ankles were cranks to allow slight pronation, allowing the feet to adopt a “foot in heels” posture, and the hands to close into a right angle grip.

The body itself was a mass of gears and metal, with copper wiring through it all, that lead to a unit at the back, where the Clockmaker could program the body to bend at the waist, raise her arms and move her head. He had yet to place the bronze plates over her body, to mimic her belly, breasts and buttocks, but they were being cooled in the corner, having been just smelted and caressed into shape.

But it was the head, that drew the imagination. It was here, he was taking the longest time to perfect.

Every detail had been painstakingly recreated. The aquiline nose, the wide eyes, the tiny beauty spot on her left cheek … only in the Clockmaker’s eyes, improved and enhanced by beauty and infinity the gears and the ridges that only clockwork could provide.

Her blue wide eyes had been turned into a quartet of gears that when he cranked them, emitted a pale blue light, that he had fashioned from an old bulb with a sheet of blue plastic.

The nose was awaiting the finishing touches of bronze plating, whilst the lips were a strange mockery, with a mouth that opened and closed, according to the crank situated at the corner of her mouth.

Only her hair had not been replicated, the luscious blonde locks replaced by straight sticks that poked out of the scalp.

Overall, the Clockmaker’s project was a masterful display of engineering, physics and precision, but could only ever be considered beautiful in his eyes.

It was then, in the midst of his concentration, as he was delicately screwing in the breast plate into the side of the body, he heard noises outside his door.

A thunderous banging on the door shook him.

“THIS IS THE POLICE. OPEN UP. WE HAVE A WARRANT FOR YOUR ARREST, FOR MURDER AND THEFT. OPEN UP OR WE WILL FORCE OUR WAY IN.”

The Clockmaker’s eyes widened and he immediately ran to the door and grabbed a workbench, barricading the entrance.

Staring up at the huge telescope, he began the auto-winch, which would generate power and move the instrument. He frantically overturned the hourglass and began to time his process.

Moving quickly, he began to screw in every single finishing touch, as the banging got louder and louder, until the noise was total and echoed endlessly in the room.

Dull thuds could be seen imprinting themselves on metal, as the door shook and heaved under repeated blows from rifle butts. But the hinges were strong and the Clockmaker had reinforced the door with multiple bolts to prevent entry.

Then, a dull, shrill shriek was heard, as the auto-winch reached its capacity and the Clockmaker eyed the completed clockwork body lovingly, before rushing over and allowing the winch to stop.

Taking strands of copper wiring and inserting them into the two bodies, in the heart and the head, the Clockmaker, caressed the clockwork body on the forehead and looking distastefully at the dead corpse, he let the auto winch go.

Gears shrieked and steam bellowed from giant pumps as the telescope moved, spinning in a circle, generating power to the two bodies.

The noise was unholy, unbearable, a deafening envelope of cogs, screws, gears, metal, steam, heat and burning copper that wrapped and shrouded the Clockmaker in dense smoke.

Power surged through the corpse, reanimating it, causing limbs to flail around, and discharge excess gas and waste build-up,  yellow, pale, decomposing liquid and fluid ejecting out the orifices of the body. The hair atop started to burn, through the copper strands inserted and strangely the blue eyes became clear for a second, as the glassy look was replaced by clear pupils that screamed internally.

Shots rang out, as the policemen outside fired their rifles into the Observatory, causing ricocheting bullets to bounce around inside, as they struck metal, after metal structs, fragmenting themselves into sharp pieces of lead.

But the Clockmaker continued, taking over the auto-winch, as he kept manically winding the huge telescope around, and with it the two corpses. Three pieces of shrapnel tore through his chest and arms, but he ignored them, concentrating wholly on the reanimation process.

Then an explosion tore through the Observatory.

The policemen, having had enough, had placed a stick of dynamite in the corner of the door and blown it clean off its hinges, lifting it into the air, where it crushed the Clockmaker and buried him under it.

The policemen ran in, rifles drawn, but any bravado they had immediately was replaced by fear as the smell of putrefaction and burnt copper reached their senses.

Four of the five officers instantly vomited on the floor, the moment they saw what had become of the corpse, burnt and smoking, with foul liquid splattered everywhere.

The last officer, the Captain, instantly reached for his scarf and drew it up to his nose, his eyes wide at the travesty that had occurred.

To his shock, the clockwork body that the man had worked on for so long, for so many sleepless nights was now staring at him, blue lights switched on, its arms outstretched like some kind of woman seeking comfort.

Its mouth was open, in a silent scream, the eyes unblinking in an unending stare, and there was a terrible screeching noise as the gears and bronze plate of the body tore at each other, as it tried to turn its torso towards the Captain.

His men screamed, and fled into the night, whilst the Captain stood, frozen in horror as he watched the Clockmaker desperately crawl out from beneath the door that had killed him, and with a shaking hand, reach up for the abomination he had created.

The Clockmaker failed to grip the frozen hands, and collapsed into a pile at her feet, expiring as the blue lights that were meant to be eyes slowly dimmed and the entire clockwork body shuddered and collapsed under the strain, burying the Clockmaker’s body.

The Captain, mute, and uncomprehending in terror, stared as the hourglass on the table finally stopped pouring sand and without warning, shattered into a thousand pieces of glass.

Author’s Note:  

I admit, the inspiration for this piece came from out of nowhere. I was originally going to write a strange horror story about a good-looking Clockmaker who would kidnap young women and force them to become sacrifices for his telescope, but struck by the period of time that I was writing about and the obvious steam-punk influence, I went for a different Frankenstein route.

Aside from the Frankenstein influence, this was actually inspired by a similar plot, that I loved, in one of my favourite Napoleonic historical fiction series, Matthew Hawkwood – Resurrectionist. In addition, I also stole some elements from a steam-punk young adult series, that I loved reading, known as the The Laws of Magic series.

Keen pop-culture enthusiasts will also probably note the similarities between the clockwork body and the famous robot in the film; Metropolis (1927)

This was one of the stranger attempts I made to write horror and I still think it needs a lot of work.

Still, I liked the overall novelty of the idea and is originality and the conclusion was probably one of the fastest I’ve ever written, the story really gripping me as I wrote it.

~ Damocles 

 

The Salaryman (Fiction)

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Courtesy of Albert Le, Japan Trip – 2018. 

The smell of takoyaki tickled the salaryman’s nose. 

Sweet with a hint of frying fat, it woke inside of him, a long dormant hunger that was supposed to have been buried under the 4 sake shots he had taken earlier at a bar.

Fumbling around his pant pockets for his wallet, he looked forlornly at the 5000 yen note and the 5 tiny bronze coins. It was all he had for the night.

The smart thing was to head home, and save the money, eat some 2 minute ramen and then sleep the whole night off.

But his stomach rumbled, and the salaryman thought about the lonely dark 6-tatami sized room and the tasteless ramen he would eat. The cold shower he would take and the dirty pajamas that had holes around the elbows and knees.

The inevitable slow login on his tiny laptop and loading of an AV DVD he had borrowed from the nearby adult shop. The sad, unfulfilling sensation, as his hands tried to bring him close to something akin to ecstasy but it would only ever last seconds and fill him with shame.

He thought about the unenviable task of cleaning himself off with a tissue, and discarding it away before falling asleep, unhappy and restless.

This mental film kept playing over and over in his mind, and it finalised his indecision causing him to pause mid-step and nearly bump into a couple strolling behind. He enviously looked at the young man, with his pretty girlfriend, and apologised with a bow, staring at the girl’s feet, perfect in little red heels.

They went around him, smiles on their faces. As he watched them disappear, the tiny clicks the red heels made on the damp concrete, sounded like to him, the hands of a clock counting down the hours he had left to enjoy himself, this very night.

“To hell with it” thought the salaryman, and he stopped walking towards his apartment and turned around in search of the takoyaki stand, following the smell.

The bright neon of Osaka‘s city-scape felt like a thousand pin-prick needles of light into his brain. As far as the eye could see, buildings after buildings, after buildings stretched towards infinity. Most were tired and weather-beaten, the constant hum-drum of millions of people taking its toll, grime and pollution reaching up the walls.

Some were so old, that no one knew what their shiny and clean exterior looked like anymore. During the day, the buildings lost much of their appeal, the shabbiness of it all apparent and creating an ugly concrete jungle.

It was why there were so many neon signs. It was a way to hide the mismatched nature of the buildings, the thousands of strange designs, faded paint and harsh staircases. Osaka, could only ever be appreciated at night, where the lights provided a gloss over the ugliness of the city. A thin mask that disguised the rot beneath.

Everywhere he looked, there was so much happening.

Thousands of people walked the street, many just like him, a lean, average man, in a simple, cheap black and white suit, with ties loose around their necks and hands gripping their precious brown leather briefcase.

In contrast, young carefree teens were in large groups, their colourful, contrasting clothes emblazoned with kanji text, and strange English words.

They laughed, yelled and play-fought on the street, boys one-upping each other to prove themselves worthy to the demure and coy girls, who giggled and whispered to each other, spurring the boys on to greater antics.

Then there were the quiet couples, who strolled arm in arm, the men dressed down casually, with polo shirts and chinos, the women in long, plain skirts with elegant blouses and subtle jewellery. They talked softly to each other, stared longingly, and passionately discussed the film they had just seen and the sushi train they just ate.

Shopkeepers strolled through the crowd, enticing foreigners, holding up colourful menus and chattering away in rapid-fire Japanese, punctuating sentences with accented English. They were bold, friendly and ruthless. Tourists, overwhelmed by the service, smiled and nodded, their eyes wide and mouths agape as they stared at the delicious images on the menu, entering and leaving the shops, full but poorer and the shopkeeper pleased with his outrageous pricing.

The salaryman stared out at this mass of people, as he waited by a lonely takoyaki stand, its lantern shining a yellow light over the tired chef, who looked like he would rather be anywhere else, than making octopus balls on a busy Osaka street.

Having wasted 20 minutes searching for a decently priced stall, the salaryman hoped this would turn out OK. This was the problem with living in a tourist town … nothing was ever right for the locals.

And … nothing tasted as good either. The takoyaki when handed to him, smelt promising. But on the first bite, it was a little cold on the inside, the octopus inside slimy and rubbery, and the coating tasted of flour, instead of a crispy, soft melting sensation.

Disappointed and sad he had lost money on this gamble, he glared at the chef, who pointedly ignore him and began making a new batch for a tourist couple, he ate half of the plate, before tossing the rest away, disgusted and in need of a good drink to wash away the taste.

As he walked a short distance away, he wondered whether the takoyaki was a sign of things to come. Shaking off the disquieting feeling, he saw a red-light hostess bar up ahead, and looking up, he noted it was on the 5th floor, but could still hear the yells of men singing their hearts out, a good sign.

Walking through the gloom, he saw that the elevator was crammed through the narrow hallway and that it was out of service. Sighing, he put his left hand on the staircase, which felt slightly sticky, and began to climb.

The girl that greeted him with a bow, stretched her thin arm over to the manager, who was dressed immaculately in a sharp suit, with a black bow-tie. Pocketing the entry fee, he took out a ring binder and placed it open in front of the salaryman.

Inside were 30 polaroids of varying girls, in a myriad of seductive and coy poses. Most had the peace sign up, were dressed in garish skimpy mini-skirts and resembled dolls more than actual women. Squinting, he stabbed his finger down and chose Mayu.

The polaroid of Mayu showed a young woman, with brown hair in a bob with a part across her forehead, almond eyes and a straight narrow nose. She was the cute girl with cat-like features that made her sexier. Her outfit in the polaroid, a sailor fuku, her head at an angle, revealing a three-quarter profile and her pout with a peace sign was what sealed the deal for the salaryman.

The manager nodded sagely and walked through a curtained doorway with the bar’s logo and a few minutes later walked back out and handed the salaryman a room key.

Walking through, he could smell the pervasive odour of cheap perfume mingling with equally cheap cologne and the sharp acrid smell of cigarettes and alcohol.

The sounds that accompanied the smell were equally provocative, loud phrases of famous enka songs were belted through the walls and doors, and just below the volume of the cacophony, were muted moans and fluttering sighs.

Ignoring it, he opened the door to his room and looked around, the tiny room reminded him strangely of his apartment.

There was a TV next to him, with a pair of microphones attached for karaoke, and in front of the TV was a U-shaped couch that spanned the entire room. There was a small unobtrusive table in the middle, and an Ipad that allowed him to order drinks.

Sitting down, he ordered himself a neat whiskey, and waited for the girl, as he started to pick which song he would sing.

However, he could not make up his mind. He couldn’t shake off the feeling of disquiet. The silence inside the room, was such a stark contrast to the hallway he had just entered and the bustle of Osaka, that he was starting to get uncomfortable when Mayu entered.

Wearing a sheer top, that did little to hide her small breasts, and a mini-skirt that just hid her pert bottom, Mayu cradled the small glass of whiskey and complimentary snacks and saddled up next to him.

Nervous, the salaryman averted his eyes from her breasts and placed his hands in his laps, hiding his excitement. Mayu smiled, revealing slightly crooked teeth, and began to hold onto his arm and whisper endearments.

She asked him for his name, promised him he was handsome, and cried out that she wanted to do things to him. The salaryman endured all the ego-stroking, wanting to believe it himself, that he was big, strong and that he could really make pin her to the wall right now, if he desired. But it didn’t work. He was aroused, the body roaring to go, but … the mind was elsewhere.

She tried to coax him to sing, to really relax, after all, this was her job. She knew that if the customer wasn’t happy, she could lose her job. So she kept at it. She tried every trick she knew. She lightly slapped him, pleaded with him, opened her eyes wide, crinkled them, made them doe-eyed and even questioned whether he was a man.

But the salaryman couldn’t respond. Despite his every yearning to do so.

Even when she slid off his pants, and took him into her mouth, the salaryman couldn’t move. He sat there stiffly, shame, pleasure, guilt, confusion diffused through sheer anxiety.

She kept her movements rhythmic, up and down, the tongue lashing this way and that but there was no response. When the salaryman finally came, it was the same anti-climatic response he felt when masturbating at home.

Disgust at himself channeled itself in another way, and found its target with the girl. His face underwent a transformation, one of reluctant pleasure to a cold mask of fury.

Mayu, having seen enough of these episodes in men, ducked away, terrified and quickly ran out the door.

Minutes later, two large yakuza came in, their loud disco-era shirts and flamboyant colourful suits, betraying their occupation. Scowling, they glared at the salaryman and swiftly punched him twice in the stomach. Doubling over, the salaryman vomited out the whiskey, snacks and takoyaki, causing him to hate the taste all over again, and the two yakuza deftly stepped away, their experience showing them what was coming.

They looked at each other, shook their head in scorn and grabbed an arm each before dragging him down the stairs and instead of going through the front entrance, kicked open a side door next to the elevator and tossed him into an array of bins.

Clapping their hands clean from his cheap suit, they yelled at him, and made several threats, the harsh words ringing in his ears. Laughing briefly at the salaryman prone form, the yakuza smoked cigarettes and flicked ash over him before stepping aside and allowing the manager to toss the salaryman’s briefcase on his stomach.

The door slammed shut and after what felt like ages, the salaryman gingerly began to pick himself off the trash. Anger flashed through his mind, but it soon died away, to an depressing emptiness that made him struggle to walk away.

As he moved out of the alleyway and back onto the Osaka street, he remained blind to the occasional stares and whispers, too wrapped up in his own thoughts to bother with them. Most gave him a wide berth, disgusted by what they thought was drunken behaviour.

The salaryman stumbled his way through Osaka, listlessly, aimlessly and carelessly. He didn’t seem to care where he was going anymore. As long as he could still walk, he would continue. He just felt like he had to go somewhere. But his mind couldn’t make a decision.

So on he went.

Until the chime and bells of a nearby arcade pierced through the fog that his mind had created.

The sounds bought him back to his childhood, where things were simpler, more engaging and touched with a mysterious spark that had faded in his adult life.

Struck by the wave of nostalgia and a glimmer of hope, the salaryman went in and found himself lost.

Dimly lit, the arcade was lively and smelt strongly of disinfectant and teenage deodorant. Lights flashed, coins clattered, and loud pop songs blasted through the speakers and cacophony. Attendants moved to and from cabinets and games, spraying down surfaces and occasionally bowing and point to the coin-exchange machine for people. Young boys and girls came in and out of the arcade, hovering over well-known games to peer at each others’ progress, before flitting away to try another cabinet.

Girls laughed at their cute photos in the photo-booth machines, whilst boys sweated away at the dancing and rhythm games, their eyes intent on beating high scores.

All of them ignored him, as he wandered past and tried to find the game he had mastered when he was one of these young men.

It was in the darkest and lonely section of the arcade, close to the toilets where it perpetually smelt like urine and surrounded by older machines. It was also populated by similar people, men wearing work clothes and their eyes glued to the screen.

Depression reared its head inside his mind and as he sat down in front of a fighting game from his youth, he hoped that this session would shoo it away.

Slotting in a 100 yen coin, he found himself engrossed again, in a virtual world where he was the strong one, the one able to defeat villains, rescue pretty girls and everything was problem free, as long as it could be punched and kicked.

But after the completion of the first and easiest chapter, everything went downhill. He started jumping into punches, losing health, buttons were unable to land his combos and he suffered defeat after defeat.

More coins were furiously deposited into the slot, but the string of defeats kept growing, until in despair, he stopped himself from putting in another coin and sat back, staring forlornly at the score and the crimson “DEFEAT” icon flashing humiliatingly at him.

He stayed still, letting every red flash from the icon wash over face. How long he sat there, he didn’t know, but the mellow sleeping music started to fade into his consciousness when he finally shook himself out of his reverie.

Picking up his bag, he shuffled out of the arcade, embarrassed to have stayed so close to closing time, and forcing the attendants to work longer.

The streets were beginning to empty out. Neon shone a little more dimly down on less crowded streets and the sensation of alienation was beginning to creep in.

The salaryman, depressed, saddened and exhausted by the night he had, kept ambling along, until he found the place, that he should have not moved from, from the very beginning … a bar.

Pushing open the heavy wooden door, he waited at the steps of the basement entrance, to let his eyes adjust to the dimness of the bar. There was just a single man working, his hands a blur as he washed, cleaned and polished the huge pile of dirty glasses in the sink. He was dressed casually, with a white shirt and dark suit pants and a pair of half-moon spectacles hung in the vee of his shirt.

Motioning to the salaryman to take a seat, the bartender looked at the sorry soul and wordlessly got out a bottle of cheap sake. When he got the nod, the bartender poured a finer of sake into a small cup and pushed it gently to the salaryman.

Knocking it back, and feeling the alcohol take the edge off his depression just for precious seconds, his eyes began to look around.

It was your standard bar, with a corkboard where the bartender hung pictures of regulars, celebrities and parties who had visited, an A-frame that listed the specials that the kitchen was offering and a large TV hung behind the bartender, showing music videos of idols dancing and preening at the camera.

Everywhere was made of the same coloured dark wood, and weak, faded, yellowing lights created an atmosphere of quiet melancholy.

It was perfect for the salaryman. He just wanted to collapse into a bottle. If he died doing so, so much the better.

There were few patrons, mostly single men like him, drinking alone, wrapped in their own thoughts. No one spoke to each other, no one acknowledge each other.

They were too busy trying to drown their sorrows. The only one who seemed like his life was together, was the bartender.

Raising his hand, the salaryman placed the rest of his money on the table and told the barman to keep the drinks flowing.

As the sake kept disappearing, the salaryman wondered what had all this been for. He was supposed to spend a night out, away from the depressing atmosphere of his tiny room, but everywhere he went, reminded him of the failure he had become.

Food was tasteless and devoid of any comfort.

The arcade showed him him that his skills had faded. He was older, slower, and less vigorous.

The red-light hostess bar turned out to be a reminder of his loneliness, his failure to find steady relationships and how unfulfilling sex and masturbation had become.

It had gotten to the point, where even a real girl, administrating to him, was as soulless and joyless as his hand. He tried to control himself, but he could not help but do it three times a day. He would sneak into bathrooms and open his phone, hands down his pants, craving release.

He briefly wondered he had an addiction to sex, but could it even be called sex, if he did it alone all of the time?

The realisation sunk his spirits even lower, and he chased another sake cup down.

If he could not please himself, what else was there to do? Everything was being robbed from him.

Looking across, he saw another salaryman like him, suddenly collapse into the crook of his arm, asleep and drooling out of his mouth.

Staring at the man, he was reminded of his friend in high school who had the same features, angular features that made him popular with the girls.

He remembered snippets of their conversations, about how his friend used to sneak girls into the locker room, and behind the closed doors of empty classrooms. The time when he managed to get together with one of the girls, and then told his friend who laughed and congratulated him.

His friend who laughed, smiled and had such a casual nature about him … those were the memories he cherished, before the suicide.

It had come as a shock to everyone. He was one of the most popular students in the school, academically and socially, and yet he had taken his own life, suffocating on the fumes of his parent’s Mazda, with a garden hose taped to the exhaust.

He left no clue, or note. No apologies, no sign that he was going to take his own life. He had behaved completely normally, flirtatious and helpful, cracking jokes and teasing friends.

The only sign of something going amiss, was that he didn’t write any notes in class. He just sat up, and looked at the teacher attentively, a warm smile on his face as he looked like he was absorbing information.

The salaryman was crushed when he found out. Insulted and angry, he had gone to the tombstone and angrily stomped around, asking why he had done what he did.

When no answer came, from the stillness of the night, the salaryman had cried and walked home, bereft and saddened that his best friend did not tell him about his plans to kill himself.

But it was only years later, when he became more and more withdrawn that he understood that selfish desire. People didn’t understand him, so why bother trying to understand them?

The salaryman felt that way now, staring at the guy who looked so similar to his best friend of yesteryear. He felt selfish and nihilistic, empty and determined at the same time.

Pushing the chair back, he ignored the briefcase and stumbled out, in a drunken stupor and thought about whether he could make it home.

He too would, copy his friend and craw into the space of a car and slowly die.

He was already halfway down the street, and turning into an alleyway when he realised … he didn’t own a car.

Shaking, he collapsed down on the quiet, dark, Osaka street, and slid himself against a wall.

There he cried and cried and cried. His body shaking and heaving, his breath ragged and dry, the salaryman wept for himself and the darkness inside that didn’t seem to end.

He would remain there for the rest of the night, ignored by thousands who walked past, oblivious.

Author’s Note

A quick exploration into the nihilistic and desperate loneliness that I saw a few times during my trip in Japan, I originally wanted to write this about a sex addict, similar to one of the most influential films I ever saw, as a university student: Shame (2011) by Steve McQueen, starring Michael Fassbender & Carey Mulligan.

I most likely will create a proper story based around the sex addiction, where I will have to practice how I balance erotic and melancholy language. But that film struck a deep cord within me, when I was single and spent a lot more time watching porn and being sucked into that virtual reward cycle.

This story of course, ended up mixing my desire to reference how sex can become meaningless if done too much and for the wrong reason, AND the nihilism I suspect anyone feels once stuck in a routine job, with no one to go home to and that special loneliness you only feel in a huge city. 

I drew heavily on my experiences to describe the city and environments, which I went with my girlfriend, and 3 friends, one of whom was kind enough to let me use one of his photos for this story. 

In a lot of ways, this was an attempt to mix Lost in Translation (2003)’s melancholy reflection on isolation among millions of people and Shame (2011)’s sad, existential crisis around loneliness and how you can be touched, but never felt.

~ Damocles

 

Getting Evil (Fiction)

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The Wolf’s Den, Call of Duty: Modern Warfare (2019)

This is a classic night-op raid. Dress your best, and get evil gentlemen.

Those words echoed in my mind, as I moved to my locker room, where thousands of dollars of gear awaited my selection. It was a featureless room, like so many others on the FOB, with strong, plain wood for walls, and black caged lockers that stored all my various weapons and war-fighting kit. I didn’t bother doing much to decorate the place either, just placing a flag in the corner and a picture of my squad mates on the central locker to greet me when I walked in. In total, I had 10 lockers, all with different equipment to address any situation I was going into. Other elements of the army, navy and air force would kill for this much access to the latest equipment.    

I chose my standard assaulter collection, a dark olive green jacket over my tan BDU, with dark woodland camouflage assault pants, that had a pair of tan knee pads strapped over the top. 

Plucking my body vest off the rack, I tucked in IR strokes, and 4 spare magazines for my primary, as well as checking my first aid kit strapped to the front. I inserted the heavy ceramic plates that would cover my vital organs last, after securing the vest to my chest. 

All operators like myself were OCD about our equipment. We triple checked everything. We never used anything that wasn’t tried and true. All our gear had been through multiple fire-fights and allowed us to survive. We were paranoid about our equipment, because they were the one thing that we could control. 

Next came my war-belt, with 3 spare pistol magazines, an emergency hip reload for my primary and various pouches for radios, miscellaneous notepads and markers. 

For the final piece of kit that fleshed out any decent assaulter’s load-out, I picked up my tried and true helmet and balaclava option. Weighing in at nearly 2 kilograms, the helmet was loaded down with a penlight, spare batteries, IFF strobe, a large headset with a throat mic and the latest quad goggles for night vision. Flicking them down, I checked the battery life in the NODs, and moved my head to ensure they were a tight fit.  

I always left my weapons for last. I looked after them more than I did anything else in this room. This was a classic night op raid. Which meant CQB weapons. 

I took a Sig-Sauer MPX, the latest upgrade on the iconic MP5 platform, and began checking the various attachments: laser, flashlight, suppressor, magazines and optic on the submachine gun. Pleased with the small dot on the small unobtrusive sight, and that the IR laser on the platform was working in conjunction with my NODs, I placed the MPX aside and picked up a pistol. 

The Glock 19 was small, compact and easy to draw. I hadn’t done much tinkering to the gun, just swapping out the sights for night ones, replacing the trigger for a faster, lighter version and adding a flashlight to the bottom. I didn’t bother suppressing the weapon, like I did with my MPX, as I knew if I had to draw my pistol, things were fucked anyway.

Attaching the pistol and holster to my right thigh, I did a few strafing movements in the limited space of my locker room, and satisfied that nothing was loose or needlessly moving around, I clipped in my radio to my headset, slung the MPX around my neck and under my arm, and walked out, several kilograms heavier and deadlier. 

Outside, the FOB, night had already well and truly taken over, so the entire helicopter landing pad was lit up with harsh floodlights, that glinted off the black metal of the four MH-6 Little Birds that taxied up. These small, skinny helicopters were the Lotus Cars of the aviation world, able to turn, in an instant, park in the tiniest places and accelerate away faster than a terrorist could aim a RPG. They had some bite too, with rocket pods and miniguns hanging underneath tiny stabilising flight struts. 

Tonight, I was part of Bravo Squad, so I was to go on the second helicopter, tasked with landing on the roof and assaulting my way down through an abandoned 5 storey building. Alpha would land on the street in front and work their way up. Charlie and Delta would land on neighboring buildings, securing their rooftops for sniper support on the target building.

We were to rescue the hostage, eliminate all hostiles and then radio in the Little Bird for immediate evac. A platoon of U.S. Marines would wait until we finish, then come in and begin securing the area, with intelligence indicating that a HVT would be in the vicinity. Once the hostage was secure, we would fan out if the Marines needed support and slowly begin clearing buildings in the immediate area, extending ourselves out only by a single city block. Otherwise if no support was needed, we would wait for extraction via a BlackHawk. 

The Marines were the drag net, ensuring no one escaped in a 5 block radius, clearing their way in, and be our QRF if any of us got bogged down at any time. The Little Birds would hover around and provide close-air support if need be. 

This was a classic night time raid. 

Checking my watch, I noted the time, 2200, and felt a tap on my shoulder. My buddy, Kyle, was handing me a hot cup of coffee. Nodding my appreciation, I took the hot cup and wrapped my hands around it, pulling my balaclava down to take sips here and there. 

We both stood in silence, watching the flight crews perform refueling on the Little Birds and the pilots going through their flight checks. At precisely 2215, our squad leaders yelled for us to mount up.

Tossing our cups into nearby bins, we dashed under the spinning blades, the rotor wash and strong smell of aviation fuel forcing our heads down. Kyle sat next to me, securing a strap of bungee cord to the hook on my vest, while I did the the same for him. We both gave each other a strong tug and were satisfied the cord would hold, if somehow we fell off the chopper. 

On the other side through my peripheral, I could see Bravo Leader, John, secure the bungee cord to the green new guy, a SEAL named Walt, who was going on his first raid with the SAS. 

In our unit, we didn’t care who or where you were from. As long as you did the work, watched your sectors and had our backs, all was forgotten. 

I, myself had been on secondment to the DEVGRU, the Polish GROM, German KSK (where I was the smallest guy there) and our cousins in Australia, and every time, the moment I had landed, I was treated like any other guy on the Teams. We all did the work and were in the fight together.

Differences in nationality, accents, training, gear … it all faded the moment we were going into combat. 

My feet felt weightless as the Little Bird throttled up and immediately gained speed, lifting off so quickly, it felt like a roller-coaster ride. Little Bird rides were always like this, the roughest, scariest and wildest ride, out of all the military birds we flew on. They loved to go up, down, left, ride, cant 45 degrees to the left, then jinx to the right … the pilots loved being sadistic in their attempt to induce vomiting in us.

But there were no-one we trusted more. American pilots in the Nightstalkers, the 160th Special Operations Aviation Regiment, were the absolute best in the world. They were all master aviators, and the sky was their kingdom. No weather was too rough for these men, no night too dark and no mistakes afforded. 

They could park their helicopters on a street, hover exactly to the metre above a target and rescue us in any conditions. 

Checking my watch again, I settled in for the hour long flight to Jalalabad, where the target building was located. Nicknamed J-Bad, it was one of the larger cities in Afghanistan, due to its proximity to the Torkham border with Pakistan, and a crucial hub for all NATO forces in the region. Despite the heavy military presence, somehow this cluster of buildings was where our hostage was held.

We didn’t like it at all. We had a gut feeling that the entire compound was rigged to blow. Kyle voiced his opinions about all this during the briefing. Command had simply shook its head and told us to do our jobs. 

There were no complaints, despite our foreboding. After all, we were getting paid to take risks. Maybe it would be OK. That somehow the enemy had so much faith in their hiding ability and the balls to risk holding a captured team of 3 Western journalists from CNN, right under our noses. Stranger things had happened in war.

As I pondered about these things, I looked across at the other Little Bird, which had Alpha squad. Squad Leader Murphy saw me and as the Little Birds crested a mountain ridge, that littered the Afghan landscape, gave me the bird. 

I returned the salute with double digits and continued to scan the dark foreboding landscape of ‘Stan, still entranced by the snow, the green and the sand that still came through in the half moonlight, despite my 7th tour here.

Then finally, in the distance, I started to see city lights. Then the pilot’s voice came through the comms. 

“ETA to LZ, 15 mikes out!”

There was a flurry of movement, as we began our final checks. I could hear the clicks of optics being switched on, see hands patting down body armour, pouches and holsters, memorising where everything was placed. PEQ-15 laser units being switched on, and as my NODs were flicked down over my eyes to begin acclimatization, I saw lasers stretch off into the distance, some pointed downwards, and others in front of the helicopters. 

It never got old. 

“5 mikes out.” said the co-pilot in a monotone, the strain in his voice evident as he began his descent. 

My legs flared upwards as the Little Bird began to throttle down and looking inside, I could see the pilots mouths move in unison as they spoke to each other, looking like bug-eyed aliens with their oversized flight helmets and NODs. 

“3 mikes out” 

Kyle undid the bungee strap, as I did the same for him. We both held onto the helicopter bars inside the fuselage as the lights of the city shone through underneath us, blurry and indistinct as the helicopter sped past and my NODs were unable to keep up. 

We were flying extremely low and fast now, my feet almost brushing antennas of houses and buildings below, the pilots bobbing and weaving the Little Birds up and down to avoid any potential locks from missiles. 

“1 mike out, approaching LZ now.”

The target building was exactly as the satellite imagery had presented. A squat, rectangular building that was 5 storey tall. It was dilapidated, old, ugly and reminiscent of many poor construction sites that were abandoned after the Taliban occupation. What windows were left, were dusty, grimy and mostly smashed in. It was a structure devoid of any personality, war had stripped it of any unique features, because it was never completed. The only decorative element was crude Arabic graffiti protesting NATO occupation. 

Another abandoned dream, in a land that had seen combat since prehistoric times. 

Afghanistan, the graveyard of empires …  

My gloved hands wrapped around the barrel of the MPX, as I thumbed the pressure switch and activated the PEQ-15 laser and gripped the small hand-stop underneath. My heart rate was going up, the fear spiking a little, but discipline, training and experience snuffing it out instantly. 

My trigger hand gripped the helo’s hand-bar hard and I braced myself as the Little Bird came to an sickeningly abrupt stop, flared up and to the side and in the span of 5 seconds dropped atop the target rooftop and the landing skids made a imperceptible thud.

Kyle and I immediately jumped off and within nanoseconds of us disembarking, the pilot was heaving on the flight stick and throttling away into the night, disappearing into the gloom. 

As we had rehearsed, the four of us immediately made for the rooftop door, a tiny shack like entrance atop the roof. To our left, we saw the Alpha Little Bird rise from the street, and spray dust everywhere as it begun its chase after its sister, Bravo, into the dark. 

We stacked up to the door and John whispered “Bravo 1, going dark” over the radio. Hearing the call, a tech at J-Bad’s NATO base, triggered an EMP blackout on the surrounding area of the target building.  

Immediately all lights, electricity and power got cut, granting us total darkness for 2 minutes. Kyle took out a sledgehammer from the pouch on his back and smashed the door in, my MPX’s stubby can taking point. 

As I aimed the weapon down the flight of stairs, I moved slowly and cautiously, my concern about booby traps paying off, when I saw a thin wire run across the open doorway that would lead to the 5th floor. 

Lifting my support hand in a fist, I waited a second for the squad to acknowledge with a squeeze on my shoulder before kneeling and taking out my multitool from my body vest. Running a finger along the wire, I saw that it was attached crudely to a grenade. 

Relieved that it wasn’t some huge building explosive, I snipped the wire, and resumed my point man duties, pocketing the grenade. 

The hallway ahead mocked us. There were about 5 rooms on each side. It would take at least a few minutes to clear. 

John and Walt peeled off to the right. I moved left. Kyle covered the hallway from the booby trapped door on the North side. 

Testing the knob, and seeing it was unlocked, I swept the MPX inside and checked every corner. Empty but for a few pieces of trash. It was devoid of furniture. Thankfully the rooms, if all were similar, were not multi-room issues. We were already stretched thin as it was. If we had to do multiple room clears for one hallway door, we risked losing the element of surprise. We were doing things quietly for a reason. 

As I came back out, throwing an IR beacon behind, I whispered into my throat mike “Bravo 2, room clear.” Kyle, hearing this, moved forwards and cleared the next left-side room. He encountered no resistance: “Bravo 3, room clear.” We continued to leap-frog each other to the end, each search turning up empty rooms. 

But John had heard from the support squads, Charlie and Delta who were covering the North and West side of the building that there was movement on the floor below. 

Motioning for me to take point, I moved to the South side staircase, as John relayed to the sniper teams our position. 

Peering around the corner, my laser coincidentally landed on a bearded face, the man climbing the staircase who was mirroring my action, his AKM sweeping up to me. 

I placed two shots into his face, the MPX spitting flashes in my green-tinted world, and he crumpled. 

I moved onward, ignoring the pool of blood that began to run down the stairs, moving a bit quicker now, our element of surprise nearly gone. Walt, who was the rear guard, spiked the AKM, by removing the magazine and emptying the chamber. 

We stacked up at the door to the 4th floor, and heard the slow whine from below as power was slowly beginning to be restored to the building, the generator working hard to get juice back into its system. But just as the whine started, it died, and Alpha team leader, Murphy, reported their charge had been blown, still leaving the building in the dark. They were moving onto the second floor now and reported they had 6 KIA, all of them MAMs (Military Aged Males), most were sleeping when they had been shot. 

That many dead, meant that there was a good chance the hostages were in this building. Charlie and Delta continued to report the most movement was on the 4th floor. 

I cracked open the door and swept it to the side. The 4th floor hallway was still empty.

John whispered to us over the comms as we copied our movement on the 5th floor, Kyle covering the hallway, Walt moving right, myself going left and John on the heels of Walt. 

“Charlie and Delta report they had movement in the rooms on the left. Wait for us, Bravo 2.”

As I paused outside the door, Walt and John cleared the room behind me, and noted with grim satisfaction that there were sleeping cots on the floor and that they were still warm. 

“Charlie 1, Delta 1, Bravo squad will clear west side first, please pull security on east side of target building Hotel. Good copy?”

“Check, Bravo 1.”

“WILCO, Bravo 1.”

“Bravo 2, Bravo 3, take this door, Bravo 1 and Bravo 4 will take next one. Go loud.” 

Reaching down, as Kyle grabbed his sledgehammer, I primed a flashbang as behind me, Walt did the same for his door, whilst John primed his bolt cutters against the door knob. 

Holding up three fingers, I closed them down, in a countdown, as Kyle swung the sledge, smashed open the lock and I threw in the stun grenade. 

A deafening sound reverberated through the air, and through a door an intense light shone through, a light-show we both missed, as we had our heads down and eyes slammed shut. 

The MPX swept left, as Kyle’s MP7 swept right, and we both slotted two men who were keeled over, trying to rub their eyes. I paused in the furthest left corner of the room, as I saw two hooded figures prone on the floor. Resisting the urge to stop, I continued to sweep left, making sure the room was absolutely clear, before heading over to the hostages. 

Kyle had found the last one in his corner and we both disarmed the AKMs that the two X-Rays held, before radioing it in. 

“2 X-Rays down. 3 Hostages found. Confirming their status now.”

Over the comms, we heard HQ relay the information to the other squads, as well as the bark from John, as he reported 

“3 X-Rays down, 1 HVT secured, alive. Bravo 4 and Bravo 2, secure the rest of the floor.”

I squeezed Kyle’s shoulder as he was kneeling over the hostages and he tapped my hand twice to confirm, before I moved out into the hallway and linked up with Walt. 

Walt gave me a terse smile of congratulations, and I picked up Kyle’s sledge and motioned to the east side doors opposing the ones we had just cleared. There were still 6 rooms to clear, 3 on each side.  

As we moved towards them, a west side door down the hallway opened and a voice issued a challenge in Arabic, a call to arms that was swiftly silenced as a sniper from Delta squad shot him square in the face. 

Moving more quickly now, I smashed open the door with the sledge and Walt, not bothering with a flash-bang, charged through with his distinct MK18 carbine, my own MPX hot on his heels and we shot dead two young men, who were nervously aiming their rifles at the door, but were unprepared and forgot to engage their safeties. Walt mercilessly strafed the head of his target, to ensure he was dead and I pulled the trigger twice into the torso of mine, dispassionately noting the lack of movement. 

Moving out in unison, we cleared the next west side room, adjacent to the HVT one, where we found just one guy who had his hands up. Walt looked at me, indecisive about what to do and in that instant, the man snapped his hands down. The MPX spat through the chest 5 times in response and Walt kicked the body over to reveal he had a grenade between his legs. Looking at me in gratitude, Walt rendered the grenade impotent, and we moved on. 

In the next east room, second to last of this hallway, the two men must have saw or heard us coming through the door and shot blindly through the  wooden door. 

Walt moving quickly, ducked to the side, whilst I prepped the grenade I had found from the booby trap earlier. Walt flicked the selector switch and fired short bursts from his MK18, the suppressing weapon making dull thudding noises as it opened up the door, and created a hole for me to throw the grenade in. The explosion blew out all the windows in the room and the internal organs of the two men who tried to make a stand. We didn’t bother checking the room. Frag would have turned everything into a mush.    

The west side door, where the hallway man had been shot dead by a sniper, remained opened and we heard the sounds of a woman crying and screaming in Arabic. As we entered, she looked up at us and wailed harder. 

I whispered in Arabic for her to calm down, but instead she wailed louder and scrabbled over the dead man, whose brains were all over the floor and smeared across her smock. Finishing our room clear, noting its emptiness, Walt bodily moved the woman across the other side of the room, and cable-tied her to a bedpost. 

There were still 2 more rooms. Over the comms, I could hear John and Kyle radioing in the Little Birds for immediate evac of the hostages and HVT. Kyle was reporting 2 were in a bad way, a male and female journalist who had suffered extreme torture and abuse, while the final journalist had not made it, an expected result, as he had been the victim of the militants’ abuse in online videos. The videos of the dead journalist that had been produced and circulated online were obscene. 

Walt and I chose the final west side room first, and found it empty, except for the corpse of an abandoned woman. Looking her over, it was clear, she was one of those poor captive women who were shared among men. Death had probably been a relief for her. 

Breaching the final east side, we saw three men cowering, their bodies prostate on the floor. The one closest to us, begged in broken English.

“No shoot. No shoot. Geneva. Geneva. You, no shoot.”

Walt looked over the men in disgust, his MK18’s laser hovering over their heads, and I shared his disgust, as the spokesperson kept repeating his broken phrase with a wide grin on his face. 

The guy even had the nerve to get up from his position, and adopt a more regular kneeling pose. Each and every MAM in that room had on combat webbing, a brace of grenades and magazines. But their weapons were piled in a corner and there was nothing we could do. 

Slamming the butt of the MPX into the spokesperson’s stomach, so he keeled over, I roughly slammed his face onto the floor and cable-tied his wrists, so tightly he squealed a little. Throughout he kept yelling “No shoot. You no shoot!” until I cuffed him in the side of the head, knocking him out. 

Getting up, I motioned for Walt to secure the rest, whilst my laser hovered over their eyes, ready to drop them if they did anything. 

“Bravo 1, this is Bravo 2. 4th floor secure. 3 MAMs secured, North-East corner.”

“Check Bravo 2. RV on the roof for extrac. Alpha squad will secure those 3 and the HVT. QRF is inbound.”

“WILCO. Bravo 1.”

Making a hand gesture to Walt, we filed out and climbed to the roof, to see a large UH-60 BlackHawk do the same manoeuvre as the Little Birds from earlier, flaring up and moving horizontally in the air to touch down on the roof in seconds.

It was still awe-inspiring, seeing this venerable workhorse doing what it did best, getting guys like us in and out of trouble time and time again. 

As we placed the body of the dead journalist on the floor of the BlackHawk, we saw our Bravo Little Bird fly over and provide close-air cover. Simultaneously, the Alpha squad’s Little Bird swept around, hovering like an angry bird of prey and kept an eye on Alpha, as they awaited a convoy from the U.S Marine platoon to escort the HVT and 3 captured MAMs, before they too would board their Little Bird and fly back to the FOB. 

Their overwatch mission complete, Charlie and Delta squads had elected to stay behind and assist the Marines, who were now doing their sweep through the city for more HVTs.    

Ignoring the military hardware on display, we gently guided the two journalists and strapped them to the hard seats in the back, before stepping in ourselves and providing the thumbs-up to the door gunners. 

The door gunners yelled the all-clear to the pilots and the BlackHawk vibrated as it took off the roof and hauled itself into the dark of the night. Our Little Bird escorted us, flying in tandem. 

I checked my watch. The digital readout read: 0015. The entire operation had taken an hour.  

Knocking my helmet back against the hard chair, I looked over the hostages, where a pair of Pararescue troopers were looking over them, busy trying to get IV drips into their arms and stabilise their patients. 

One of the PJs looked over at me and gave me the thumbs up. They would make it. 

Nodding back, I returned the gesture and slept the rest of the trip back to the FOB. 

I opened my eyes as I felt the rotors throttle down. We were finally back to the FOB, nearly an hour and a half later, due to severe headwinds. Paramedics greeted the journalists, wheeling them onto stretchers and straight into a medical bay, whilst the dead hostage was covered up with a body bag. Tired, and silent, we filed back to our lockers. 

I placed my dirty gear away, hung up the helmet, the vest and the war-belt and put the MPX and Glock 19 aside for cleaning later. Changing into shorts and a T-shirt and sandals, I grabbed a fresh cup of coffee and sat in the debriefing room. 

In terms of a raid, it was a textbook operation. No injuries, all objectives completed. But we didn’t get to where we were by slapping each other on the back and congratulating ourselves. 

So instead, we poured over every detail of the operation, gave each other feedback on how smooth our room clearing procedures were and what could be tightened up and wished we could have mounted this operation sooner to rescue the dead guy. 

But at the end of the day, we knew that was out of our control. HQ made the call to go in. Not us. 

Retreating to the mess, and cracking open a cold lemonade, I clinked glasses with John, Kyle and Walt and we stayed up till 5am, waiting to hear that the entire squadron had made it back, no injuries were reported and the entire raid was a success before heading off. 

I stayed up a tiny bit longer, watching the dawn rise over the mountain tops and wondering when this would all end before committing myself to another cycle of vampire hours where I would wake at 9pm and stay up to 5am. 

Getting evil. Doing good. It was all blurred.  

Author’s Note:

A request from a friend who wanted something militaristic. This is my first time writing an actual squad doing work. Before I had mostly written stories about lone wolves doing the business, but it wasn’t that realistic. 

I mostly wrote this from all the books I’ve read recently about standard operations held by Special Forces solders in Afghanistan and in other theatres of war. I think it’s a lot better than my earlier work, a lot more grounded. I also chose to lessen the details of gun accessories, which don’t really mean much to a lot of people, except other gun-nerds like me. 

Instead, I focused on more descriptions about actions, scenery and I think it flowed a lot better narrative-wise than what I’ve done before. It was fun writing this.   

Here is a quick guide to all the acronyms and mil-slang in this short story, since I used a lot of them: 

  • AKM – The most common assault rifle in the world. 
  • BDU – Battle Dress Uniform 
  • CQB – Close Quarters Battle
  • DEVGRU – DEVlopment GRoUp or SEAL Team Six is the elite unit within the U.S. Navy SEALs
  • EMP – Electro Magnetic Pulse – A shot burst of energy that has the ability to knock out all power and electronics in an area. 
  • ETA – Estimated Time to Arrival
  • FOB – Forward Operating Base
  • GROM –Grupa Reagowania Operacyjno-Manewrowego. Poland’s elite Special Forces Unit, similar to the SEALs or the SAS 
  • HVT – High Value Target 
  • IFF – Identification Friend or Foe – A system used to ID friendly forces in an area.
  • IR – Infra-Red. IR Lasers are used by Special Forces in conjunction with NODs to lase enemies, as IR are beyond visible spectrum. 
  • J-Bad – Jalalabad, an important military base in Afghanistan.
  • KIA – Killed in Action
  • KSK – Kommando Spezialkrafte. Germany’s elite Special Forces Unit, similar to the SEALs or the SAS. 
  • LZ – Landing Zone
  • MAM – Military Aged Males. Used in battlefield reports to describe enemies. 
  • Mikes – slang for minutes
  • MK18 – A short barreled AR-15 weapon, commonly used by U.S. Special Forces for CQB (Close Quarters Battle)
  • MPX – Sig Sauer’s label for their latest submachine gun, a successor to the HK’s MP5. 
  • MP5 – Heckler & Koch’s submachine gun, many consider to be the best of its class. 
  • MP7 – Heckler & Koch’s personal defence weapon. 
  • NATO – North Atlantic Treaty Organisation
  • NODs – Night Observation Devices or NVG – Night Vision Goggles are equipment used by military units to operate in the dark
  • OCD – Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
  • PEQ-15 – A device mounted on guns to beam IR lasers 
  • PJ – slang for Pararescue troopers, soldiers who specialise in parachute jumping and medical care in combat
  • QRF – Quick Reaction Force, a convoy or support unit designed to help any soldiers during a mission. 
  • RPG – Rocket Propelled Grenade – a common weapon used by insurgents to down any type of vehicle. 
  • SAS – Special Air Service, Britain’s elite Special Forces Unit, commonly regarded as the best soldiers in the world. 
  • SEAL – SEa, Air and Land, America’s elite Special Forces Unit, commonly regarded as the best soldiers in the U.S. Armed Forces. 
  • ‘Stan – slang for Afghanistan
  • WILCO – WILl COmply. 

~ Damocles