Riot (Fiction)

There is a code 10-101 in Downtown Los Angeles. All units respond. I repeat, there is a code 10-101 in Skid Row. All units respond.

Upon hearing the calm feminine voice cut through the metal music that blasted through my headphones, I pause mid-lift and stare up at the intercom.

Code 10-101 – Civil Disturbance – Mutual Aid Requested.

Sighing, I put the kettlebells down and place them carefully back on the rack, before tipping my headphones out and pausing the music on my phone.

Walking calmly back to the locker room of the precinct, along the way, I pop my head into the office of the Captain with a questioning look on my face.

He nods silently back and without saying a word, I clenched my jaw and nodded seriously, before pushing open the door to the locker room of the SWAT team.

My BLUE Team of operators were already gearing up.

In the left corner, seated on a bench, was John Watts, a huge African American officer, with an even bigger heart and smile to match his 6 foot 3 frame. Tattoos adorned his arms, many of them personal designs from his twin 17 year old daughters. His nickname was HALFBACK, because his specialty resided in breaching through doors or in the context of riot control, creating space in a crowd to arrest suspects.

Opposite Watts was Michelle Rivers, one of the toughest LAPD officers in history. Her arrest record was staggering, and had the distinction of easily being the fastest and quickest operator I’ve ever seen. At an imposing 5’10, Rivers was simply known by her last name, because it suited her calm and professional manner. She was rarely ruffled by anything, yet when the situation called for it, she was quick on the draw and even quicker on the trigger. Her signature was the 2011 race model pistol she carried on her hip, normally reserved for competitive shooting, but now used to arrest suspects instead.

The final SWAT Officer on BLUE Team was the most serious operator out us all. Whilst Watts was all smiles, and Rivers rested easy on her confidence, Johnathan Specter rarely ever cracked his mouth. A former U.S. Army Ranger, Specter was nicknamed after his Regiment. With even more tattoos than Watts, Ranger was your classic stoic, deadpan humour ex-soldier with more experience and training than all of us combined. In high stress situations, Specter was almost serene and slow in how he processed bullets flying over his head. But then I expected nothing less from a guy who came back from 4 tours of Afghanistan whilst working with the best special forces members in the world.

Together we were a well-oiled machine. In Watts, we had a specialist in breaching, Rivers was our main arrester, Specter, our weapon specialist and myself as the lead. Even our primary weapon varied between us, with Watts rocking shotguns, Rivers preferring sub-guns, Specter, longer barrelled rifles and myself choosing a carbine.

This meant that we could all complement each other when the situation called for it. Just like it did now.

Changing out of my gym clothes and into my dark blue tactical dress uniform, I pulled on my black plate carrier and slipped on my left thigh, a big gas-mask bag that contained my CM-6M mask with dual filters.

Stretching my arms out, Specter came up behind me and attached to the rear of my plate carrier, a magnetic holster that would hold our dense riot shields to our backs. Because we were SWAT, our shields weren’t as big and bulky as the regular Riot Control officers. We were also less armoured, devoid of any protective gear on our arms and legs, because our job wasn’t to fight rioters but to arrest them.

In every riot scenario, there will be the regular Riot police who will form a defensive barrier, protecting important structures or focusing attention on them, whilst the grab teams, SWAT officers normally, will come in from different angles and arrest particularly troublesome suspects.

As BLUE team, we were one of the best grab teams in the precinct. It was our job to get our arrest records up and we were all eager to ensure we got the most collars.

There was nothing quite like friendly competition between rival SWAT teams to dissipate a protest quickly.

Specter clipped the dense shield to my back and then handed me my guns.

A high capacity Glock 19 rested on my right hip, whilst in a cross draw holster, I slotted in a X26 taser gun.

Just below the Glock, rode a hoop where I locked in my telescopic baton, and just as I was doing my final adjustments to approximately 55 pounds wort of police equipment, Specter finally handed me a very unique pepperball gun, that was based on the AR-15 platform.

With orange tips, orange magazines and an orange buttstock, the VKS PepperBall carbine looked more like a toy than anything else, but it was loaded with paintball-styled projectiles that sprayed CS gas the moment they broke apart.

Our department had only been recently equipped with them and they were a godsend, capable of inflicting pain and incapacitating violent rioters with a few rounds that sprayed the irritant everywhere.

Whilst Rivers was running the same weapon platform as myself, Specter and Watts opted for the more painful, but shorter range, bean-bag Remington 870 shotguns.

As everyone made their final adjustments, I looked at myself in the mirror.

The letters that spelt POLICE was emblazoned across my chest in stark bold white font, and just above on my left chest, was my name, D. HAYES. Like most officers who had served for a long time, it was hard for me to picture the baby-faced graduate of 2007, fresh-faced and eager to serve his community to the seasoned veteran that stood in the mirror, decked out in dark navy combat fatigues, tattoos running down his left forearm, with designer stubble across his tanned face and a white scar running along his jaw.

My service had changed me irrevocably and there was no turning back.

Turning away from the mirror, I cast one last look over my shoulder, to see my callsign on the back of my plate carrier, emblazoned in blue font: NEPTUNE, given to me after my service in the Coast Guard.

The team huddled around me and I began to brief them on an tablet that was nearby.

OK BLUE TEAM. Listen up. We got a Code 10 101. This is big. There is a huge protest that has turned ugly in Skid Row. The precinct there is actually pinned down by protesters and our brothers and sisters need our help to turn the situation around.

As you know, our department is to the south of that precinct, which means we are going to push north upwards to the precinct and relieve them. We will engage and disperse any suspects along the way. We are going to be GRANITE TEAM’s shadow OK? Y’all remember Lieutenant Luiz yeah?

Rivers nodded. Fuckin’ A. Gunslinger himself.

That’s right. So Gunslinger is gonna be our wall and we’re his spear. Behind us, we’re gonna have our SWAT truck on standby, with the rookie team, GREEN TEAM ready to relieve us or provide back-up if necessary. They’re fully kitted up for medical and will be on-site for any casevac.

Any questions?

My team shook their heads.

OK. BLUE TEAM, bring it in.

Our four fists stacked atop each other and together we pushed downwards and yelled “BLUE” in unison.

~

It’s always the smell that gets you first. It’s the only thing that can’t be scrubbed from our truck’s protective shell. Everything else is eliminated. The heat, the rocks, the occasional brick. Even the sounds of chaos is muted. But the smell always filters through and perfume the cabin of our SWAT truck.

To describe it was difficult, but it was acidic in nature, almost sulphurous, the smell of a decaying city burning under the weight of its failures.

Our driver was taking it slow. Already the blasts of hundreds of sirens and the constant yells of angry voices were creating the unique soundscape in which we had to learn to filter through and ensure that our communication was on-point.

Looking at my team, I noticed that Specter was rehearsing his hand signals to Watts who was busying cycling through a print-out of all the major suspects that we had collated from surveillance drone footage of the protest. He used hand signals to indicate build, levels of aggressive and who was a priority, whilst Specter mimicked them to memorise crucial details.

Opposite them, Rivers was busy doing her final checks on our equipment, including shoving more flex-cuffs in our plate carriers, so that we could siphon off each other during arrests. She was also triple checking our more “lethal” options, in her case a tried and true, MP5A3.

Carefully inspecting her weapon, Rivers placed it on the rack that was in the middle of the truck, where Watt’s Beretta 1301 tactical shotgun was already prepped, along with Specter’s long Daniel Defence M4 V7 that had an LPVO in case we needed the ability to touch someone at extra long distances. Rivers then picked up my personal carbine, a BCM M4 Mod 2, opening the bolt and racking in a live round. She then peered through the Eotech EXPS3, tested my magnifier before placing the weapon back on the rack.

As for me, I was too busy listening to the radio chatter and growing more concerned about how many injuries were being reported over the communication network.

The protest, originally about climate change and how ineffective the government was at dealing with the current crisis in L.A had turned into a full blown riot. Water shortages amidst an increasingly unkind heat-wave meant that people were already running short on patience.

This once-peaceful protest was merely one of several being run over the week. However, according to police intelligence, an eco-terrorist group hijacked the cause, stirred up the crowd and began assaulting officers thus resulting in the current bedlam that afflicted Skid Row.

The entire situation was extremely ugly.

And we had no idea which group it was either.

I felt the truck ground to a halt and the driver turned back towards us, his gas-mask already equipped.

DROP OFF is here! Link up with GRANITE TEAM about half a klick up this street! Good luck BLUE TEAM! I’ll be right behind with your lethal options if you need them!

Slipping on my gas-mask, I heard the metallic hiss as the filters kicked in and could taste the slightly sour flavour of scrubbed air in my mouth. My breathing was now magnified, heavy breaths that was nicknamed the Vader cough.

Rivers swung open the rear doors and we were instantly confronted by the sight of rubbish strewn everywhere across the street.

That and an intense heat that wasn’t natural. It could only come from a scorched pavement and too many angry bodies clashing against each other. I instantly felt sweat bead on my skin and drip into my uniform.

Looking around the truck, our eyes widened as we saw the iconic hot trail of a Molotov cocktail being thrown high in the air and landing behind the strong wall of Granite Team. They needed our help ASAP.

I motioned the team to move forward and we jogged cautiously up the street, scanning every building, alleyway and crevice. Riots were an urban nightmare to control and we were all too wary about being flanked.

As we neared Granite Team, I unhooked the shield from the magnetic holster on my back and held it at the ready with my left hand. Unlike regular Riot Shields, which were transparent and bigger, our shields were more manoeuvrable and smaller, with a tiny window to look through, and possessing tapered wings that wrapped inwards towards us.

In the hands of a seasoned SWAT Officer, we could effectively hold this shield with one hand, rest our handguns on the tapered wing and exchange fire with suspects. It was also much more offensive weapon, owning to its smaller size, more frequently used to knocking suspects down on their asses than allowing them to charge at us.

Thumbing my radio mike on my chest, I checked in with Lieutenant Luiz.

Gunslinger. Check your six! Blue Team is behind you. What’s the sitrep!

Neptune, is that you?

Solid copy!

Thank fuck you’re here. We actually got a visual on 2 primary suspects. Foxtrot and Hotel. I need you and your team to grab those fuckers and then we’ll advance the line! Also, please slot any fucking idiot that keeps making those goddamn Molotovs!

Copy that Gunslinger. We’ll tune in to your channel and shout BLUE BLUE when we go in and come out!

Understood Neptune!

Tapping Rivers on the shoulders, we made our way over to the left side of the Granite Team wall, whilst Watts and Specter moved right.

Barely a minute had passed, when Rivers motioned upwards and we both sprinted out of the way, as a Molotov cocktail sailed through the air to our 2 o’clock and splashed in a fiery explosion behind us.

Rivers, clocking the suspect instantly, shouted into her mike BLUE BLUE as she and I surged through the Granite Team wall, along with 3 of their officers, and together we slammed into the angry crowd.

My shield was instantly assaulted with rocks, dirty rubbish and fruit, but I made solid contact with a protester, sending the angry man flying, his body rolling backwards with the force of the blow I gave him.

Using my baton, I blocked a kick that was sweeping towards my face, by jabbing at the limb before it could reach me. The protestor howled in pain, before being shot unceremoniously in the chest with 4 CS pepperball rounds that sent him reeling to the floor, retching all the way down. Orange CS gas enveloped the man and without any fear, Rivers immediately got behind him and man-handled his hands into her flex cuffs.

Two Granite Team members instantly hooked their arms underneath the suspect and carried him behind the wall, whilst Rivers and I kept pushing through the crowd, her pepperball gun spitting occasionally as people dared to come close to us, people staggering back, coughing in pain.

I felt a subtle tap on my helmet and looked to the right, as Rivers finished her slap on my bump helmet and gestured to our 3 o’clock. Only 10 yards away, a hooded protestor and his accomplice was about throw a Molotov Cocktail. Bandanas covered the lower halves of their faces and they were too busy looking at Granite Team to notice us.

The man about to throw the cocktail was gesturing furiously at his friend, whose Zippo refused to light.

With one her trademarked quick-draws, Rivers snapped up her pepperball gun and fired 6 shots in rapid succession.

All 6 rounds crossed the distance in a heartbeat and slammed into the Zippo protestor’s hands who immediately dropped the lighter. Not taking any changes, Rivers charged behind me and just over my shield, took out her taser, where with pinpoint accuracy she sent the electrical charges through the air and 50,000 volts through the central nervous system of the Molotov protestor, who immediately collapsed to the floor, urine staining the front of his pants.

I felt a tug of Rivers’ gloved hands pulling out flex cuffs from my plate carrier and she cuffed both protestors in under 30 seconds, where the remaining Granite Team hooked their arms under the two suspects and we stormed our way back to the safety of the wall, shouting BLUE BLUE over the comms.

As we made it through the wall, I looked over to my right and keyed my mike.

Specter, Halfback! Give me a sitrep!

Neptune, Halfback here. We’ve apprehended 3 suspects, all Molotov. No sign of Foxtrot or Hotel targets yet!

Copy that. Keep me posted Blue 2!

Understood Neptune!

Motioning Rivers to follow me, we walked over to Lieutenant Luiz, dodging occasionally to avoid a brick or rubbish.

Gunslinger, we just nabbed 5 Molotovs. Guide Blue to targets Foxtrot and Hotel!

OK Neptune. Switch over to this channel. I’ll guide you in personally OK? My drone operator got this.

Copy that. Blue team, switch to channel Alpha seven-niner.

Check, check. responded my team.

OK, Blue team, Gunslinger here, y’all read me?

We copy.

You guys ready? Foxtrot is deep. We’ll go for him first! Hotel is only 40 yards away from Foxtrot. Have a quick look up, the drone will be hovering above him!

I looked up towards the sky and saw the tiny red dot that was on a greyed-out drone hovering high above the air. At this distance it was hard to see it, but I knew that it was soon shine a laser down to indicate where the target was exactly.

Copy that! Let’s go Granite One.

Halfback bumped my left shoulder and together, we raised our shields up next to each other, pistols in hands. Specter and Rivers formed up behind us and together as a team, we surged past the Granite Wall and back into the crowd, as the Granite Team launched 6 consecutive CS Gas grenades to create a thick smoke screen for us to penetrate further.

As we barrelled through the crowd, that were in the middle of a coughing fit, Gunslinger kept guiding us through.

Blue team, head to your 1 o’clock! That’s it. Keep pushing! Foxtrot is only 50 more yards!

But the further we got in, the less effective the smoke screen was. Soon, Halfback and I were being assaulted and the now familiar stutter of River’s pepperball gun, began firing in earnest, followed by the shocking booms of Specter’s 870 shotgun.

It was the pump rack action of Specter’s shotgun that dictated our rhythm. As he pumped in a new shell and fired off a round, Halfback and I would shove our way forward by 4 steps, slamming our shields into people, sending them reeling back, as our batons protected our sides from random limbs that came our way.

Keep moving Blue team! Granite still has a visual on you. Foxtrot is close, he’s wearing a purple hoodie, has a black mask on, approximately 6 foot tall and is currently holding a baseball bat in his hand! Laser is now inbound!

A red streak from the sky shone down and it was literally just metres away.

Halfback kept up the pace and I followed. As we charged through and punched away protestors, we finally laid eyes on Foxtrot.

He was exactly as described by Gunslinger. Only this time, my team could see the fear in his eyes, as he pushed three of his men towards us and started to turn around to run.

Halfback and I looked at each other and we immediately executed our open shield move. Letting the three men come right at us, we turned our shields inwards, so they had to come between us and right into the solid bars of our nightsticks.

The three men, unable to check their momentum, flew ass over backwards, our nightsticks making solid contacts with their faces, necks and upper chest.

Meanwhile, Rivers and Specter moved behind us and took off after Foxtrot, their guns blasting away at anyone who came close.

Rivers, faster and nimbler, slung her pepperball rifle over her shoulder and moved ever so slightly to the left of Foxtrot.

Specter, knowing exactly what Rivers wanted, sprinted ever so slightly harder, before coming to an abrupt stop, aiming his beanbag shotgun, and letting loose 4 rounds in quick succession.

The 4 beanbags flew through the air, over-taking Rivers and slamming into the back of Foxtrot.

The force of the impact was so great, it flung him forwards two more metres and caused his face to heavily smash into the ground.

This bought more than enough time for Rivers to slam a pair of cuffs on him, and before Foxtrot even knew what was going on, Specter and Rivers had their arms under his and were dragging him back through the crowd, where Halfback and I were waiting, and a support team from Granite were already next to us.

As we escorted Foxtrot into the police van where suspects were being held, Gunslinger came running over.

Neptune, the Hotel target has run into a building along with 5 other guys. I think he’s spooked. It’s not looking good bro, drone footage shows they’ve got rifles and pistols. Come over here and check this out.

I walked around to the SWAT van where the driver pulls up the surveillance footage from one of the many drones flying above the riot. I frown, as I study the grainy image, and wince when I noticed the various weapons the men are carrying.

See the guy in the blue/white bomber jacket and the M16? That’s Hotel.

How many guys did you say he has with him?

5, bro. It’s not good odds. They’re literally barricading themselves in right now.

The hurried movement of the suspects barricading doors and positioning themselves behind cover would have been comical if it wasn’t for the fact that they were armed to the teeth.

Blue team, gather round.

Rivers, Halfback and Specter came in, and we all bowed our heads together as we looked down at our chests. A godsend from the department, we were one of the first to use the ATAK, the famous Android Team Awareness Kit, a specially designed smartphone that allowed us to create plans, observe livestreams from drones and so much more. All our ATAKs were synced to each other, so when I started to draft a plan for entry into the building.

An old staple of the Los Angeles aging and decaying architecture, the building in which Hotel had run into, was a dilapidated two storey brick structure, that had busted open windows and a mountain of trash outside and inside. The roof was completely blown apart, which made it convenient for our drones to look through and spot the targets. Two entrances, north and south, featured a large garage-door that indicated that this was some sort of former mechanic’s workshop.

Alright Blue, listen up. New mission parameters. This went from riot control to a barricaded suspect situation. Gunslinger here, has told us, our target, Hotel, is now inside this building, armed and dangerous. 5 other suspects are roaming inside, and they are just as hostile as their boss.

Gunslinger, I want support from Granite to prevent any egress from this building. I also want two of your best shooter teams to provide overwatch from this office building opposite. Ideally, they should find a spot on the 2nd and 3rd floor. Can you get on the horn and update Control on the situation now?

Gunslinger nodded and started talking on his radio to his team. Looking up at the driver of our SWAT BearCat, I smile at him in a slightly sadistic yet apologetic manner.

Deacon, looks like you’re going to be our distraction. I want cherries and berries on full blast and I want you on the bullhorn to convince them to surrender.

Deacon flashes me the thumbs up, before I look back at my team and at the plan we’ve drawn on our ATAK.

OK Blue, this is it. We’re going to breach from the North, whilst Granite secures any squirters running out back. Switch to lethals. We’re not taking any chances. We’re going approach from the east on foot, fast and quiet, whilst Deacon comes in with the light show about 6 minutes later. These suspects are going to be labelled Hotel 1 through to 6. Hotel Six is our main antagonist, so if possible, we want him in cuffs, not a bag. Drone surveillance shows they got a variety of weapons, mostly pistols, but at least 2 of them have long guns. A bullet is a bullet, so don’t get cocky.

Whilst they’re paying attention to the BearCat, we’re going to go in, work our way from the bottom, up. Granite is going to provide overwatch on us as we go in, so at least we got some type of sniper support. This one is going to be rough, so we’re going to need at least one shield going in. Also, I’m going to get on the horn, and ask GREEN team to come in for medevac and be on standby as our backup. Any questions?

Everyone shook their heads. I nodded seriously at all of them, before opening the back of the BearCat, so they could grab their lethal options.

Halfback came out first, with a new, heavier ballistic shield. Thick, strong and highly armoured, the shield was capable of taking a 7.62mm round to the glass and keep the operator in the fight. His pistol, a Glock 17, was compensated at the front, and a unique Surefire XR2 weapon light and laser combination was attached to the front, to allow him

Slung across his broad back, was Watt’s Beretta 1301 Tactical shotgun. A smooth, lovely weapon, I knew that Watts liked to customise his plate carrier to suit the ammo he carried.

On the right, he carried a multitude of red slug rounds, which he used primarily against armoured suspects or when he needs to take a precise shot. Down the middle, were his main ammo, 12-gauge buckshot rounds that were coloured green. On the very left vertical strip, was a combination of blue non-lethal beanbag rounds and a few grey “Hatton” breaching rounds that he could load in his shotgun.

The versatile nature of the shotgun in CQB couldn’t be understated to a man like John Watts. For as long as I’ve known him, Halfback exclusively trained with shotguns. He loved them with a passion, and could almost pump and rack a round as fast as we could pull the trigger on our rifles. His 1301 was heavily customised to his liking and wasn’t even standard issue. It was his own shotgun that he bought, and used on deployment, preferring the soft kick of the Italian weapon over the Remingtons normally found in our gun lockers.

An Aimpoint T2 rested atop the Picatinny rail of the shotgun was supplemented by a Surefire Scout Light Pro, the same one we all used on our weapons. In addition, running along the left side of the gun, was a match-saver mount for a single red slug shot, in case Watts needed it for an emergency reload. Seeing that match-saver reminded me of the time, when I saw Watts dispatch a kidnapper with that competition shooting technique, his greasy head snapping back with such force, his neck snapped.

Specter was the next one out, his precious and expensive Daniel Defence M4 V7 cradled in his hands. The weapon was a clear reference to his time in the U.S. Army 2nd Ranger Battalion, where he learnt first-hand how important it was to get a longer barrel to touch terrorists in the mountains of Afghanistan. The venerable EoTech Vudu 1-6×24 LPVO was his favourite optic, but like most military men, he liked having redundancies for his redundancies. A Trijicon RMR was mounted on a 40-degree angle to his LPVO, enabling him to switch between higher magnifications to a red dot in an instant.

Unlike the rest of us, the Ranger also equipped his long barrelled M4 with a bipod and suppressor to further stabilise his shots and preferred to run with 20-round magazines. This kept his heavy weapon, light and manageable. For clearing rooms, Specter would collapse the stock as much as possible, whilst using his sling to punch his weapon out when needed.

Rivers, with a confident smile, waltzed out last, slapping the charging handle on her MP5A3. As tricked out, a submachine gun could be, Rivers’ Heckler and Koch was bristling. An Aimpoint T2 rode flush on the top of the gun, with an angled foregrip riding on the bottom of the handguard. A Surefire Scout Light Pro punched out, alongside the muzzle of the gun, accompanied by a unique charm.

Tucked in flush along the Picatinny quad rail, was a pink/white friendship bracelet, given to her by a grateful 9-year-old. The case in question, was what convinced me to sign Rivers to my team. Having been kidnapped by her drunk father, who refused to hand over custody, the car chase that Rivers went on to pursue the dirtbag was one of the longest in LAPD history.

It all ended when Rivers took advantage of a mistake the father made around a corner and performed a pitch perfect PIT manoeuvre, spinning his truck around. The man, without hesitation, put his 9-year-old daughter in between the muzzle of River’s 9mm 2011 pistol, and held a knife to her throat.

Rivers, having winded down the window to her police cruiser, waited 3 heartbeats, before placing the green tritium sights square on the father’s outstretched elbow and firing a single round that shattered the arm completely.

The scream from the man barely started, before Rivers’ next shots punched right through his left orbital and ended his life.

Weeks later, Rivers was on administrative leave, when a package arrived at her door. Cookies, a card and a police-woman action figure were inside the pink decorative box. When Rivers opened the card, the friendship bracelet with the words “MY HERO” and the initials of the young girl, a Madison Velaquez, MV was alongside hearts, and little studs.

Rivers, touched by the gesture, kept the friendship bracelet on everything important, a daily reminder of her duty and a bright spot in what was a largely ungrateful job.

As I climbed in to grab my own gear, I wondered about my own personal story. I knew for the longest time, that I wanted to serve. In what way, I wasn’t sure. I thought about enlisting in the military, but so many of my friends had already done so, and I wasn’t so sure it was the path for me. It wasn’t until I was in college, studying psychology, that I finally had my calling.

It was a late night on-campus where I was walking back to the library, eager for some sleep after studying far too late. As I was about to enter my dorm, I heard a sob nearby, that made me turn. There she was, a half-naked student, her long legs covered in bruises, her blonde hair a mess, and a ragged grey UCLA shirt covering everything above her waist. She was cowering in a bush, her sobs covered up by her hands, which were slick with blood.

I walked closer, vaguely remembering my lessons about trauma, my hands held up in a non-threatening manner, and doing my absolute best to look sympathetic. As I got closer, I asked in a gentle tone whether she was OK. The girl looked up at me with her green eyes and immediately fear shot right through her system and she screamed at me to leave her alone.

Now that I had gotten closer, I noticed the blood that trickled down her legs and instantly came to one conclusion: rape. This was a rape victim and I needed to back away. Placing a 911 call, I watched from afar, as the paramedics arrived on scene, along with the LAPD. It was the tough, yet sensitive behaviour of the officer questioning the girl that made me sign up. This was a job that could make a difference. I watched in delight, as the officers marched into my dorm, and walked out moments later, 3 men in cuffs and place them in the back of their cruiser.

It was that simple moment, of seeing something wrong, righted, that made me finish my degree and pursue a career in law enforcement. Someone needed to balance the injustice. That person was going to be me.

The BCM M4 Mod 2 carbine in my hand was my personal rifle. Having lived off a cop budget for years and knowing the number of times I needed to get the rifle out into the fight quickly, I trusted the Bravo Company quality at their price point to a tee. Lightweight, yet capable of longer distance shots due to my G33 x3 Magnifier, the rifle had seen a lot of street combat over the years. Oddly, as a SWAT Officer, I used it less, then when I was a patrolman. But it was battle-tested and vetted, many times over and I trusted it with my life.

I kept it largely stock, with my G33 magnifier and EXPS holographic sight up top, the same Surefire torch that the rest of the team was running and a short stubby foregrip with a sling.

Keeping my mask on, I inserted 4 rifle magazines into my plate carrier, before walking out to join my squad. Chambering a round into my rifle by pulling back the charging handle, I let it ride to the front, before holding out my fist.

Specter, Watts and Rivers placed their fists atop mine and we all shouted “BLUE!” in unison once more.

~

When you are walking down the streets of LA, you get accustomed to the rubbish that is strewn everywhere. This was a city that was heaving under the excess of 13.2 million people and struggling to breathe. She was a city that was fading by the day, but that didn’t mean that we, the LAPD, were going to let her die in ignominy. We still had a job to do, and that was to arrest the fall of this city as much as possible.

It was getting dark, with the twilight casting an orange glow over the sky and the street. Looking up, I was grateful for our foresight in bringing NODs with us. The dual tube PVS-14 would be invaluable in helping us fight in low-light conditions, and with shit going to get hairy inside the building, we needed every advantage we could get.

As we cleared our way to the target building, I looked up at the drone that was monitoring us. Holding up my fist, we all took a knee, as we looked at the target building directly in front of us, only 50 metres away. Fortunately, the side we were approaching from, had a mostly intact wall, which meant the guys inside couldn’t see us.

Granite Overwatch, Gunslinger, & Deacon sit-rep.

Overwatch here. We’re in position on deck 2 and 3. We see you. Recommend you activate your IR beacon before making entry. We got eyes on 1 suspect, armed with a pistol on the second floor. No sign of Hotel at the moment.

Copy that Granite. Confirm visual on our IR.

We all reached up on our helmets to activate the infrared strobe that would help differentiate us from the bad guys.

Copy Neptune. Overwatch has visual on all 4 IR strobes. You’re good to go.

Understood. Gunslinger, sit-rep on Granite and Green team?

Neptune, this is Gunslinger. We got you covered with our drone, and Granite is currently in position, in 2 squad cars to the South of the target building. Command has given us the green light on this op. The moment Blue makes entry, Granite will advance to the South of the building and establish a perimeter. Green team is currently split into two chalks, one with Deacon in the BearCat and two with Granite. How copy, over?

Copy Gunslinger. Neptune copies all. Deacon?

Go for Deacon.

Punch it.

Copy that. Cherries and berries on their way.

In unison, we looked across the other side of the street, where opposite us, we could see the glows of the red and blue sirens atop our BearCat light up a few blocks away.

Using hand signals only, I motioned my team forward, Halfback taking point, Rivers aiming her gun at the target building upper floors, whilst Specter and I covered the left and right of the street.

Halfback was only 2 metres away from the door, when he slung his Beretta and took out a C2 breaching charge. A small explosive designed to completely obliterate the door lock, it was also powerful enough to swing it open on its hinges. Behind him, Rivers prepped her 9-bang grenade, pulling the pin, but holding onto the spoon tightly.

30 seconds later, the BearCat arrived on scene, and all hell broke loose.

Gunfire immediately erupted, loud and harsh. It was coming from the floor above us. Specter and I glared upwards, as we felt the hot brass from an M16 rifle shower onto our clothes.

My comms unit exploded into calls instantly.

Green Alpha taking fire in the BearCat! Shots fired, shots fired! Granite Overwatch, do you have a visual on the shooter?

Affirmative Green. Overwatch, taking the shot.

I looked across at the building, and saw two muted flashes in the deep recesses of a room occupied by police snipers.

The M16 rifle stopped firing and we heard it crash loudly onto the floor, only to be followed by an even louder thud as the body followed.

All elements. Granite overwatch here. Hotel 4 is down. Confirmed suspect down.

Green team, not one to waste opportunity, popped open the hatch on the roof, and using a standalone M302 launcher, sent a CS gas round through the open window where the shooter had been just to make sure.

I squeezed Rivers’ shoulder, who then squeezed Halfback. Blue team, making entry!

Holding up 3 thick gloved fingers, Halfback counted down and then pressed the plunger on the detonator, shielding his head down away from the blast.

CRACK. The door blasted open in a shower of splinters and sparks, as it swung open noisily.

BANG, BANG, BANG, BANG, BANG, BANG, BA-BANG, BANG, BANG, went River’s 9-bang grenade as light and sound shot out at a deafening speed. We rushed in right after it, Halfback moving to the left side of the wall, Rivers peeling into the right corner, myself and Specter hot on their heels to cover the rest of the points of domination.

The abandoned warehouse was a classic garage structure. A open floor plan, with a lot of trash mountains that covered a formerly pristine workspace, the two garage hydraulic lifts were still rusting away in the centre of them all. Near the rear of the building were 4 offices that were on either side of the side wall, and an old staircase lead to the second storey, where more offices were located, with a big boardroom in the centre.

Just above the central boardroom, was a small access ladder that lead up to the attic where the target Hotel was likely to be found.

To our immediate right, as the main door was along the west side of the building, was a huge mountain of rubbish. Using it as basic concealment, I motioned to Halfback and Rivers to peek the right side, whilst Specter covered the long line of sight down the left wall, and I would peek the left side.

As I peered around the corner, I saw the left hand hydraulic lift, orange with rust, and saw movement in the deep bay where mechanics used to slide under the car. Yanking my head back, I flinched as rounds came through, shredding dirty garbage bags and sending debris flying everywhere, and across the visor of my gas mask. I ducked down and turning my BCM sideways, I sent 6 quick rounds in the general direction of the shots.

As I did so, Rivers and Halfback aggressively moved forwards around the mountain to get a better angle on the shooter.

I began to bark orders

Suspect is in the bay of the left garage lift! Specter, on me! Suppressive fire on my flood!

Toggling my Surefire torch on, I aimed my M4 in the area where the suspect could have been and sent slow methodical fire in that area. Specter, guided by my torch, put his Daniel Defence rifle to work, covering Rivers and Halfback, as I changed magazines quickly.

Rivers’ voice came through loud and clear.

LAPD! PUT YOUR WEAPON DOWN, OR BE PUT DOWN.

Suddenly, Halfback’s shotgun roared to life, its blast punching through the air like a cannon would. A eerie moan followed, as the suspect made guttural sounds after having his chest ripped open by 12 gauge buckshot.

An awful wheeze could be heard, and I winced as I realised air was escaping through his chest. The man would be dead in seconds. Halfback, in his deep baritone, reported coldly. Suspect down, before we could hear his heavy breathing over the radio.

Neptune, Specter, taking fire! yelled Rivers, as she dove to the side as a suspect, in the boardroom that looked down on the garage opened up with a goddamn rifle.

Halfback, took a knee, and sent three quick rounds upwards, before diving to the side as well as another suspect on the ground floor this time, opened up with his pistol. He landed heavily in the bay of the right hydraulic lift, and kept his head down as bullets rained down all around him. Rivers, did the same as she hunkered down next to the corpse of a man who clutched a pistol, and not much else after Halfback’s Beretta finished him.

Specter looked at me, and I could see the Ranger’s mind going into overdrive.

We need to get fire superiority again sir. I’m going to lay down cover and join Rivers. You move to Halfback and get an angle on the ground shooter.

I didn’t waste my breath. I merely nodded and as Specter’s long barrelled M4 barked in response, shattering the window of the upstairs shooter, causing him to duck down, I sprint across and took cover behind a small mound of trash, just behind Halfback.

Going into a half-crouch, I waited for a muzzle flash in the dark offices at the back.

There. Got you, you fucker. I thought as I saw a muzzle flash open up at Halfback from the left office.

Activating the SureFire torch on the suspect with my thumb, and centering the red ring of death on the man crouched in the corner, I felt my M4 bark 4 times.

The man shuddered as the high velocity rounds punched through his chest, and caused his legs to cease working, the limbs sliding out underneath his body, his head lolling forward lifelessly.

Suspect down! Halfback you’re cleared to move! Rivers, you follow him on your side. Specter continue to lay down fire! I’m going to CS!

Halfback and Rivers rose from their bays and charged forwards taking cover by the nearest offices to them. They scanned each other’s respective room on the opposite side with their torches, making sure there were no suspects in them, before nodding to each other and walking down the hall.

Specter’s long M4 continued to provide cover on the boardroom shooter, as I grabbed a CS grenade from my chest, pulled the pin and threw it up and over, into the smashed window.

Specter, move! I yelled as I covered him, sending rounds after the gas, as it spread.

I moved forward as I fired, before kneeling next to Rivers. Flicking out my empty magazine, I topped up with a fresh one, before squeezing her shoulder.

Rivers, moving!

Halfback, moving!

I stayed close to Rivers, clearing the two offices next to us. We paused for a second as we waited for Halfback and Specter to cuff the dead suspect I killed, and spike his pistol, an ugly Hi-Point that probably would have blown up in his face, if I hadn’t killed him.

Looking at the staircase that lead up to the boardroom, where at least 3 more suspects would be waiting for us, I looked down at my ATAK and saw that Gunslinger was busy, listening to our comms and marking off suspects. Hotel 1, 2 and 4 were all killed. I tapped into the drone feed and saw through the thermal cameras that there were at least 4 heat blooms.

Blue team, wait one, they got a goddamn hostage up there.

Specter was the first to hiss his disappointment. Where, boss?

Attic, according to the drone feed. Hotel 3 and 5 are on the floor above us. I think you must have gotten Hotel 5 with your suppressive fire, because he’s on the floor and rolling about a bit. Halfback, Rivers, Hotel 3 is on your left when you breach. We’re going to make entry and use 9-bangs and CS gas to get him to surrender. As for the hostage, Hotel 6 is up in the attic with them. We’ll deal with that later, after Hotel 3 and 5

Solid copy, boss. said Rivers. I got the nades ready, on your go, Halfback.

Halfback nodded and checked his shotgun. Loading a single Hatton breaching round, he made sure the rest of the load was lethal, before racking it in. Let’s do it.

As we climbed the stairs, we kept our heads down, not wanting to expose our heads. Nearing the door, Halfback stayed as low as his huge frame could manage, aiming the shotgun at the door. Rivers pulled the pin on her 9-bang grenade. Reaching up above her, I pulled the stock of my rifle as far out as it could go, before reversing it and smashing a window open. Without hesitation, Rivers threw in the 9-bang and following it up with the CS gas seconds later.

As the grenades exploded, Halfback blew the hinges off the door and kicked the door open. Before Halfback’s leg even landed, I rushed through, with Specter right behind me. My gun up, I immediately made for the left room, where Hotel 3 was waiting, his eyes blinded, his lungs filled with noxious gas. Slinging my rifle to the side, I whipped out my taser and shot the suspect without hesitation, sending 30,000 volts through his nervous system and causing him to collapse face first on the ground, shuddering. I slammed my knee on his back, and wrenched his hands back behind him, slamming white plastic flexicuffs on.

Specter kept moving, clearing the rooms, with Rivers right by him, and Halfback taking my side of the room. A sixth instinct warned the Ranger, honed by years of combat experience that something was about to happen.

Without hesitation, he fell backwards, his left hand grabbing River’s plate carrier, tripping her. Landing heavily on their backs, Specter turned his head sideways, as a huge barrage of bullets came blasting through the air, entering the space he was just standing at. Rolling on his belly, Specter simultaneously grabbed a grenade off Rivers’ plate carrier and tossed it into the boardroom, where it landed right next to the prone suspect who was shooting blindly through the double doors.

The grenade, a unique and special explosive known as a Stinger, delivered hundreds of painful tiny rubber balls in every direction when it detonated. With the grenade so close to the suspect, it acted like a claymore mine, shredding his face instantly. If anything was still alive, it was ended soon after, when Halfback, thinking his fellow officers had been shot, sent 4 rapid shotgun blasts through the door and into the remnants of Hotel 5 bloody, headless corpse.

Officer down! yelled Halfback in a panic.

Hearing the gunfire, and the panicked voice, I got up instantly and ran over, checking both Specter and Rivers for any holes, but thankfully, there was nothing.

You guys are good. I said in a relieved tone.

Thanks Specter. I owe you one. said Rivers in a bit of shock. Specter shook his head and tapped the side of her helmet. You’re good Rivers. Don’t worry about it.

Knowing that we still had a job to do, despite how shaken we all were, I gruffly brought them back to reality.

OK Blue team, rally. Let’s sort out the final guy. The one we are really here for. Remember, there’s a hostage up there. Top up.

We all reloaded our guns, with Halfback making sure he had solid slugs, instead of buckshot. The attic was going to be extremely difficult to breach. It was an enclosed space, with only way in or out.

The ladder to the attic was the only way up and the first person up there, was going to be absolutely shredded with gunfire.

It’s a suicide breach boss said Specter coldly.

Then we’ll go around. I said curtly. Specter, Rivers, take the live suspects back to the BearCat and grab the assault ladder. Coordinate with Gunslinger. You’re going to make entry from above, and smoke him out. If you got a shot, take it. Halfback and I are going to be down here, and we’re going to see what we can do. This is going to take timing. You know what I am thinking, so let’s do it.

Without a word, Specter nodded and looked down at the few C2 breaching charges in his pouch. Nodding back at me, he left with Rivers, whilst Halfback and I began to consult our ATAKs. The thermal feed still showed Hotel 6 moving with an outstretched hand towards the ladder, the cold steel of his submachine gun barely discernible. His other arm was around the throat of a woman, who was wriggling furiously, but he kept an unsteady grip around her throat to keep her compliant.

The attic was small, barely 5 metres by 5 metres. The two pairs of feet stood approximately 4 metres away from the ladder, and there was no way Halfback or I could see up and over to spot them.

But it didn’t matter. We had a plan and we were going to execute. Halfback looked at me and nodded. He was ready. His hands, normally gripping a Beretta, had two flashbangs in them instead.

Whilst Specter and Rivers were getting ready, I tried the negotiation route.

Hey pal, this is the LAPD SWAT. My name is Damon Hayes. We don’t anyone else to get hurt here. So please put the gun ….

Shut the fuck up cop! If you come any closer, I’m going to cut you up to tiny pieces. I’m going to kill you and then I’m going to kill this bitch!

Come on man, it doesn’t have to go down this way. We can settle things peacefully. Just put the gun down and let the woman go. We don’t want any more ….

I already told you, you dumb pig fuck! I’m going to kill you all, and then I’m going to cop this bitch. I swear, if you try anything, I’m going to …

Before Hotel 6 could finish his sentence, Halfback, who had snuck up halfway the ladder, tossed both his flashbangs into the tiny attic.

As Hotel 6 eyes registered what they were seeing, a C2 breaching charge exploded in front of him, ripping right through the thin, weak roof of the abandoned garage. Hotel 6 raised his hand at the sight of bright daylight pouring through, and tried to squeeze the trigger of the gun, but the flashbangs went off and caused him to drop the gun, and clutch at his eyes instead.

Rivers, light and fast on her feet, dropped through the hole first, whilst Specter placed his LPVO’s red dot squarely on Hotel 6’s head. Rivers took mere seconds to cross the threshold, and tackle the hostage out of the way to safety. As she did so, Halfback, his taser drawn, popped up from the ladder’s entrance and sent the electrified prongs through the air and right into Hotel 6’s chest, where they dropped him like a sack of shit.

As I waited below, watching the drama from my ATAKs, I smiled when I saw Rivers flip Hotel 6 on his back and slam a pair of flexicuffs on.

Grabbing my radio, I sighed All elements, this is Blue Team lead. We are code four. All clear. Suspects are bagged and tagged.

Gunslinger was the first over the radio.

Neptune, that was the most ballsy play I’ve ever seen. A rooftop breach? You had us driving the BearCat right next to the goddamn building, then making poor Rivers and Johnathan walk across the support beams to breach from above ….

Bro, you’re fucking wild. But out-fucking-standing work Blue Team. This one is for the ages.

As Rivers, Spectre and Halfback brought down the hostage and Hotel 6, I clapped them all on the shoulders, our relief apparent.

Great work Blue. Good job y’all. Let’s get these guys back and call in our shifts at the Short Stop.

Amen to that boss. said Rivers wryly.

As we walked back to the BearCat, I looked out on the street and saw the final vestiges of the sun disappear behind the horizon of LA. With the light gone, the city was now entering a new phase, one that was going to get a lot more violent, dark and terrifying.

With that disturbing thought on my mind, I looked over at the flames that were still flickering a few blocks away, where the riot was still ongoing.

Job isn’t done yet. I thought. But that’s a problem for another team, for now.

Closing the door on the BearCat, I shut my eyes like the rest of my team, and started to run through everything we’ve done. There’s always shit that can be improved.

~i~

At close to 9000 words, this is definitely one of my longer pieces. I started this draft ages ago, but never got around to finishing it, until I had an eureka moment that solved how I was going to end the arrest. I’m starting to get the hang of writing things more in advance now, and it’s a nice feeling to actually end a draft that has been sitting around for far too long.

It’s been good practice, since I am about to start a new novel on a much more intimate LEO story.

See you at the next one!

~ Damocles.

The 2024 Formula 1 Rolex Australian Grand Prix

A Ferrari 1-2 at home, for my partner and I’s first grand prix together …. what a perfect weekend.

2024 will always be remembered as the year I took a break from my marshal duties to stop and smell the fumes of high octane racing petrol.

Whilst last year, my partner was unwittingly roped into the world of Formula 1 by her fanatic boyfriend via a free general pass, this year I wanted to focus on enjoying the actual race weekend by her side.

And what a difference it made, being an attendee instead of staff.

Gone were my 5am starts that required me to don athleisure underneath orange jumpsuits. Gone were the stale lunches that were all I ate to last 12 hour days. Gone are the struggles of getting back to my car, fighting patrons who didn’t understand how tired I was.

Gone too were the best views on the track, the whip of air that would ruffle my hair every time a race-car blast past me at 150km/h and the heady rush of staring at million dollar cars only metres away from me.

But it was worth it, to actually take a break, dress how I want, arrive when I want and be with a person I love.

Because there is no point in me being excited and invested in the world of Formula 1, if I can’t share that passion with my girlfriend.

It was also extra fun because we could both wear the same team colours and really coordinate our looks throughout the weekend. Look back on the photos we took still make me smile, because we really do pull off the Ferrari’s Rosso Corsa well and I felt so much tifosi pride as we walked around.

Add on top of that, I actually allowed to really help her dive in the world of motorsport better. As cars zipped around the track, I was able to point out finer details and watch as she got more and more invested, as she understood more. It also helped massively that the Australian crowd were excellent hype intensifiers, which meant that my girlfriend was riveted by what was happening on track. Questions after questions followed every mood of the crowd and I loved seeing how much she was enjoying herself and how fast she was acquiring knowledge so rapidly.

It was also a joy to reconnect with an old friend for his first Grand Prix. Waking up at an obscene hour, hauling camping chairs & snacks over my shoulder, whilst kissing my sleeping partner goodbye so that I could secure her seat early on race day, was just the cherry on top.

Even though I woke up incredibly early and met my friend at the tram stop, we were still the 600th group to arrive at Gate 8 by the time 0700 rolled around. Still, it did nothing to dampen our spirits and we caught up as we shivered in the early morning cold.

But that chill dissipated pretty damn fast the moment the gates opened and suddenly we saw a surge in the line and people were absolutely hauling ass across the green grass of Albert Park to secure the best spot. The moment we got our ticket scanned, I immediately took off, grateful that I had been training with my plate carrier for the past month, so the additional weight did nothing to slow me down.

To our delight, we actually secured a good spot atop the small hill that overlooks Turn 9, facing the huge TV screen opposite us. Campers chairs were deployed and we immediately got comfortable, two breathless, excited 30 yos grinning like schoolboys at our antics. Then it was time to settle in for the wait and entertain ourselves until some track action started.

Seeing the huge grin across my friend’s face as the cars roared around the track for the first time just made me nostalgic for the first time I went to F1 and got entranced by the speed, smell and atmosphere of motorsport events. In a way, seeing it live just does the concept of “speed” justice. On TV, everything looks slow, it’s obvious that the ability of the camera operators allows you to appreciate the cars more, but it looks too smooth, too slow even.

But in person, they are an actual blur. They whip past you in a blink of an eye, able to change directions faster than you can anticipate and disappear beyond the next corner before you can even register them.

And it’s also far more obvious the speed difference between the classes of cars. From the Porsches to the Supercars, to the F2 and F1, it’s abundantly clear just how fast Formula 1 cars are and how difficult they are to control.

That acknowledgment of difficulty then, made us all more appreciative of the moment when Carlos Sainz, number 55 of Scuderia Ferrari, overtook Max Verstappen for the lead of the race.

Seeing it live was exhilarating. The crowd went ballistic, their excitement at seeing the World Champion struggling and the chance to see a new race winner.

My partner and I hopped for joy, overjoyed to see a RED car in front for once, where she truly belongs.

For the rest of the race, we held hands, praying that nothing would throw a curveball in Sainz’s path to victory. Which in typical F1 fashion, there was nearly an incident, but thankfully we saw the first Ferrari 1-2 cross the line in a very long time together.

Seeing the beautiful red cars cross the line in the best two positions was just a euphoric feeling.

Add on top of that, I managed to find time to catch up with my cousin, who was a spectator marshal this year, but unfortunately at an awful corner with zero context to the rest of the race. That being said, Albon chose his corner to crash at, and my illustrious cousin definitely took home some Williams carbon fibre as a trophy for all his boredom at Albert Park. It was also lovely to have a double date with his partner too, who had flown down in support.

So all in all, this was a weekend to remember. I strengthened the ties between my friends and I at Albert Park, took a lot of amazing photos that focused more on the atmosphere than the cars this time, and overall, just had an amazing weekend where I spent more time with my girlfriend, saw our team win decisively and just soaked up a whole lot of sun.

2024 may still end with Max Verstappen winning the World Championship, such is his incredible form and synergy with the RB20, but it was nice to have a bit of hope for once, in an upset caused by Scuderia Ferrari.

I just pray next year when the boys in red come by again, they are dominating the timesheets and the leaderboard.

~ Damocles.

Anyone But You (2023) – Cinema Review

Y/N? Yes

Director: Will Gluck

Stars: Sydney Sweeney, Glen Powell, Alexandra Shipp, GaTa, Hadley Robinson, Michelle Hurd, Bryan Brown, Rachel Griffiths & Dermot Mulroney.

Review by Damocles.

Short, Sharp, Slick & Sexy … Everything one could ask for in a romcom.

When was the last time a romcom did well? Recently it seems like there is a push from Sony to produce fun B-movies that will return decent profit on relatively cheap budgets. No Hard Feelings with Jennifer Lawrence, now Anyone But You are both raunchy, fun movies that are very clear about what they are.

This isn’t a complicated, Oscar-defining art film that will challenge the way how people view cinema. If anything, Anyone But You is extremely simple, with a focus on setting a romantic, tourist backdrop in Sydney, Australia and the way how the chemistry between two extremely attractive leads sizzle in the foreground of that backdrop.

Sydney Sweeney and Glen Powell shine as the two leads. They are effortlessly charismatic, charming and fun together. It’s hard to not like the two actors who are clearly enjoying their working holiday in Australia. They are having fun, soaking up the gorgeous scenery and the light-hearted nature of the shoot and it’s infectious.

You can’t help but smile and laugh along with them, as they go through their will they, won’t they hijinks. After all, romantic comedies like this are a breath of fresh air. They aren’t pretentious, they just want to make you believe in love again, despite all the obstacles thrown in the characters’ way.

And the plot is exactly that … a series of obstacles, misunderstandings, complicated emotions and eventually the sweet endorphin rush of seeing our main leads share their final kiss on screen. Perhaps because I watched this film with my partner, I enjoyed it even more than I thought I would, but that aside, Anyone But You was genuinely a fun time, despite how predictable it was.

Cinematography wise, the film was essentially a tourism ad for Sydney. The shots throughout the film were showcasing the very best the town had to offer … gorgeous beaches, beautiful skylines, icons like the Opera House, the Harbour Bridge and even nature walks. It made you want to travel there and that is definitely something to commend. It’s obvious that they really wanted to showcase how romantic Sydney is as a location and whilst I am a proud, stubborn Melburnian who will always say Sydney is a shithole, I am still happy to see an Australian location whenever I can.

The shots didn’t really push any artistic limits, but I did appreciate a lot of framing.

Score wise, the film is dominated by one catchy song and at the very least it was used well, to define a character moment than to enforce any scene. It was largely forgettable, typical soap music that is the same across all romcoms.

Costume wise though, I have to commend the stylist, as I really enjoyed seeing all the summer styles that both leads were in. From flowing dresses that Sydney Sweeney wore, to Glen’s slick cream suit, they perfectly suited the hot weather Australia is known for, without sacrificing style.

Overall, this is a movie that is about the two leads. The rest of the characters purely exist to draw out character moments from the leads. They encourage, tease, bully, guilt-trip and grow the characters throughout the entire film constantly. In fact, the whole reason why the two leads even reconcile, is because the brides who invited them to their wedding, wanted them to.

Anyone But You isn’t trying to be something it isn’t. It’s a fun, movie with very attractive people and gorgeous scenery. It’s a rip on Shakespeare’s play, Much Ado About Nothing, and it isn’t trying to reinvent the wheel.

Nor does it have to, because sometimes, it’s not about trying to create something new, it’s about executing something to perfection.

And Anyone But You, nails ell the things we want in a romcom.

Sexy leads, fun side characters, beautiful backdrops, a safe and fun story and mostly importantly … a genuine expression from everyone involved in the film-making process to say to us, as the audience … love is not dead, love is crazy and love always wins.

So if you want a short time but a good time, go check out Anyone But You.

A scene to recall: When Glen Powell’s character, Ben was arguing with his friend along the famous Goerge St in Sydney CBD, right in front of the very pretty Queen Victoria Building. It reminded me of the last time I was there, and I couldn’t help but go in the cinema … “Hey I know that place!”

A Consul’s Record – 22-04-2024

FIT Lvls: BMI 27.4 // 83kgs

Work is not fulfilling and I’m eager to quit.

The past couple of weeks have been taken over by a lot of chaotic issues. Primarily, the chaos around employment … my initial and slow decision to truly get back into job-hunting. It has taken me too long to come to this conclusion that I was not fulfilled by my current job at Messina.

It’s back to that old adage that I have stated so many times on this blog. My brain is rusting away in my job. I haven’t truly found a job that tax my mental capacities to its limit and now it’s back to job hunting.

But at the same time, I’m also looking at things in a new light. Yes, I have a lot of down time, yes, this job isn’t pushing me, but …. I have a lot of breathing room to do things whilst being paid. I can use my working hours to do things that I’ve always wanted to do.

My boss herself, literally told me …. “I know you are not being kept very busy, but live your best life whilst being paid.”

I took that line to heart. Because now, when things are finally stable, my routine is now more manageable and most importantly … I can truly establish and remove the thorn in the side of my desired work-life balance.

What this has resulted in is … a happier relationship with my partner.

More time to exercise.

Less stress in my daily life.

An actual moment in my life where I can wrestle control and truly focus on the things I want to.

It feels so amazing to actually commit to an exercise routine, to know that Mondays, Wednesday and a Weekender is dedicated to physical health. This has in turn alleviated my mental strain and boosted my confidence. I’m now able to actually write, destress with some time set aside for gaming, my hobbies, and actual start reading again.

I’m speaking from a position of privilege. I’m sure thousands of people would love to get paid to do nothing but their interests, so I’m not taking this for granted. This is just a temporary reprieve, a calm moment in time where I can actually focus on me and get paid doing so.

I can take more Fed Square shifts, dedicate hours to reading, tune in to youtube and learn more geopolitics, and destress from everything with a gaming session that helps me reset for the week.

It took me a while to get to this point, but the struggle was worth it. I know I put in a lot of time and effort to get this work-life balance in my favour, and so I’m going to actually sit back and reap the awards while I can.

Sometimes life isn’t all about work and I need to take advantage of this moment to really focus on other things that will make me happy.

This moment reminds me of my yesteryears, where I had so much energy to do all the things I wanted, because I had the time. I could hang out with my friends more, devote myself to a rigorous exercise routine and just develop myself more as a person.

Only this time, I got the love of a girl that I truly adore and she is pushing me just as hard as I am.

Life is good at the moment. There’s no denying that. I’m so much calmer, so much more relaxed and happier. I can do the things I want and get paid.

It truly doesn’t get better than this and for once, on Consul’s Records … I just want to say I’m happy with where I am at.

Yes, things could be better, but right now … I’m cruising and there ain’t nothing wrong with that.

~ Damocles.

The Beekeeper (2024) – Cinema Review

Y/N? Yes.

Director: David Ayer

Stars: Jason Statham, Josh Hutcherson, Emmy Raver-Lampman, & Jeremy Irons

Review by Damocles

The escalation of the plot in this movie … is hilarious and brilliantly evocative of cocaine-fuelled script-writing that ruled the 90s action movies schlock.

To describe the Beekeeper in one word is easy.

Fun.

To describe it in two words is even easier.

Fun & Dumb.

The Beekeeper as a movie, is one of the most aggressive, relentless and stupid films I have ever watched. It is a throwback to the 90s where films just had the most insane scripts and treated it as seriously as possible. Because the only way to actually get the audience onboard is to commit to the joke, take it as seriously as possible and dare to try and pull it off.

And I’m happy to say that the Beekeeper does that extremely well. It never once tries to wink, or act like it is in on the joke that is the script. Instead, it commits in a way that can only be described as the David Ayer style.

To describe the style of David Ayer is a complicated task. On one hand, it’s clear that Ayer has real, genuine knowledge of the streets, due to personal experience. This street knowledge can been seen in every single film Ayer has ever been involved in. He showcases gang violence, corruption, and ordinary people in ways that not many other film directors are able to.

But he always struggle to piece together the overall story. His films are like vignettes, implausibly put together by a tiny plot that struggles with pacing and emotional investment. You catch glimpses of a violent, tragic world, but it’s not quite compelling enough to keep you in your head till the end of the movie.

Bright, End of Watch, Street Kings, Sabotage, Suicide Squad …. these are all gritty crime dramas that never quite breathe beyond the murky, dark lens that Ayer loves to shoot in.

In Ayer’s eyes … the whole world is dark, grimy with truly garish splashes of colour. Think the dark backdrop of Suicide Squad contrasting with Harley Quinn’s bizarre outfit, or in this film, the use of gold colours mixed in with random splashes of purple or red.

If I had to point out the signatures in an Ayer film, it would be bizarre costuming with garish colours, gritty, grimy urban landscapes, and loose characterisations that barely drive protagonists or antagonists forward.

However, in the Beekeeper, all of this actually works. Statham’s character is as simplistic and one dimensional as it gets. He can kick ass, he is on the side of good and he’s out for revenge for an elderly black woman who literally gets about 5 minutes of screen time.

For you see, this movie isn’t really concerned about character development. In fact, it speeds through that, just enough to justify the next insane plot point and why the characters are behaving like they are.

To illustrate that point, the dog which features in John Wick had more screen time and impact than the motivation for Statham’s character, Adam Clay, to go on his killing spree.

It’s that kind of movie and I absolutely adored it.

To continue the John Wick comparison, the world of “Beekeepers” is nowhere near as intriguing as the assassin world of John Wick, but it does serve a different function and that is to keep the insane plot developing even further.

As you are probably aware, it is the Beekeeper’s plot that truly sells the movie. The implausible leaps that this film takes is so ludicrous that it becomes fun. The action too, keeps escalating, with a bizarre escalation of threats that keep getting more zany.

Fellow beekeepers, gangsters, FBI HRT, Tier One operators, Secret Service, crazy cowboy mercenaries …. never once does the movie stop to explain nor further charaterise these villains. They exist solely to up the stakes and be cannon fodder for Clay to beat down.

He is also ridiculously inconsistent with how he kills or incapacitate people. At first, it seems he is above using guns, but by the end of the movie, he’s has no issue with using them.

The rules in this movie are just tossed aside for whatever purpose the plot needs. Much like the side characters, who barely rate any mention. Even the villain, played by Josh Hutcherson, is too boring, bland and obviously a take on Gen Z tropes warrant any interest.

Even when it comes to the rules of film-making, there are several strange goofs that puzzle me. Such as a scene where the background of two characters talking is extremely distracting due to the actions of the extras in the back. Or the colour grading of the film, which veers from ugly dark colours to excessively bright locations with a very obvious yellow tint.

Nothing really stood out visually either. The framing of every shot was relatively bland, the action was serviceable but in a fun, iconic Statham way and the music definitely did not impress either.

While it may seems like I am saying that this film is very vanilla, it is not to the detriment of the film. It’s one of those perfectly serviceable action films with no illusions about what it is. And for that lack of pretension, I actually admire the fact that it knows it fits squarely in the B-action movie category and is unashamed of itself.

Much like those trashy, fun, silly action movies in the 80s, where a man goes on a killing spree, just because he happens to be the right man, in the wrong place and time, the Beekeeper is slotting itself right in that genre with aplomb. Things just keep escalating, and the stakes keep getting higher, and whilst it makes no sense as to how one solitary black woman who took her life due an online scam, led to the conclusion of the movie …. it sure was fun along the way.

Watch this movie with your friends and a couple of drinks, and it promises to be a good time.

A scene to recall: When Adam Clay decided that subtlety was out of the question, walked right up to a squad of FBI HRT operators and just incapacitated them singe-handed, whilst regular FBI agents nearby took no notice of this insane rumble literally metres away until one of these poor cops was slammed on a car.

Honestly …. how did they not notice multiple gunshots, yelling, screaming, punching and kicking …. but as I’ve clearly stated in the review above … these kind of questions are not the ones you should be asking in a movie as dumb as this.

Training for War

Lately, my motivation for fitness has become solely revolved around combat readiness.

Perhaps it’s the constant geopolitical and “gun-tuber” content that constantly updates itself on my social media feed, but there is a niggling concern in the back of my mind about the state of the world.

As a child of refugees, there is always this small anxiety that lives in the lizard part of my brain. It’s the fear of losing everything due to human conflict.

Security. Comfort. Possessions. Home. Friends. Family. Lover. Country.

It happened once to my parents. Why can’t it happen to me too?

In what seems like back to back years, I’ve seen the eruption of warfare in two different regions of the world.

Ukraine & Gaza.

These two conflict zones are indicative of a strong change in the winds of warfare.

Drones rule the battlefield now. Whoever has the ability to command cheap disposable drones and use them to maximum combat effectiveness, now control the area of operations.

From using them in kamikaze attacks, conducting small, immediate searches of dangerous areas, to precise, minute by minute reconnaissance, drones have made the modern battlefield an uglier fight than it already is.

In what seems like a bizarre twist of irony, despite the advances of technology, weapons that were common in World War 1, are now being fielded again to use against drones. Fixed machine guns, rapid shotguns are now being used to take down drones, instead of their ancient counterparts (balloons and biplanes). Those same weapons are also being fielded in the trenches of Ukraine, or the tunnel systems of Gaza.

Warfare it seems has regressed and advanced at the same time. It’s bizarre, fascinating and horrifying to see history repeat itself.

All this knowledge about the state of contemporary warfare has left an undeniable mark on my psyche.

My paranoia about the world has been subtly increased due to all the information I am processing about wars and geopolitical clashes across the world.

This paranoid mindset has created a very dark motivation for me to get fitter and stronger.

For as the man in the photo above is often fond of quoting …. if you don’t get fit, you die.

Being functionally strong isn’t enough though. I need to be able to run long distances, possess good reflexes, sharpen my hand-eye coordination and be able operate my mind in high-stress situations, whilst trusting or overriding my body’s natural reactions.

It is about being as well-rounded a person I can become. Improving everything overall, not just focusing on one element.

That is why I do circuit training. I like to hit everything at once, and really push my limits. I never know when I need to push something, run somewhere, drag an object, climb an obstacle or exceed my mental limits. But the point here, is that I am ready to activate the proper muscles when I need to.

And I push myself even further, because my body weight isn’t enough. Yes, I’m already a heavy individual, but adding on the extra 6kg plate carrier that stimulates the normal weight of plates, is just a small taste of the things I need to do when shit hits the fan (SHTF).

After all, if society does truly collapse, there is no point in me being able to just push myself with nothing on me. No, I need to prepare my body in getting used to extra weight, whether it’d be body armour, the hand of my partner and child, or hauling extra supplies across vast distances.

These are important factors that really stick with me, every time I go out to train now. I’m motivated by a paranoid desire to protect those around me, by being strong enough to take care of myself and them.

To invest in my fitness, is to invest in my survival and future.

Even though, I live in a country that has is far away from anything, a city that is beautifully pristine and a house in a safe neighbourhood, I’m always aware that everything can be stolen from me, because of a bully, a dictator, a psychopath or a truly desperate individual.

And it is those desperate people, that I fear the most, because they are the ones who will do absolutely anything to survive, even if it means walking over my corpse.

Where once I was focused on getting lean and fit for a race-car, the motivation now is about being physically strong with a strong emphasis on stamina.

If there is anything I’ve learned about the men who serve in special forces, is that they all possess a freakish level of endurance and pain tolerance.

They come in all shapes and sizes, tall, short, muscular, skinny, lean or having a bit of survival weight on the belly.

But one thing is true amongst them all … they have an unholy amount of willpower to tough it out in the most extreme conditions. That incredible willpower is boosted by an individual’s operator high level of fitness.

In other words, the fitter, tougher and stronger you are, the more willpower you can put aside for when things get really shit.

It’s a performance booster.

Where once, when you were not the fittest, you could only push to a certain limit, now, at the height of your physical prowess, you can exceed and outpace that previous limitation.

This is why most of my exercise lately have been revolving around circuits. I don’t just do the exercise in isolation anymore. Instead I combine them, so I never quite get a rest.

Jump Rope for 2 minutes

x20 Bench Dips

x20 Incline Push Ups

Dead Hang for 1 minute

x5 Chest Dips

x20 Incline Sit Ups

x20 Squats (Bodyweight)

Run 500 metres.

Rinse and repeat for a total of x5 circuits.

Cardio, strength, core and stamina. They are all targeted ferociously in my workout, and I do my utmost to keep all these exercise within a 10 minute window.

The part I hate the most, is the run. It’s uphill, and never fails to rob me of my breath after all the exercises I’ve done before.

But running is the most crucial skill I need to learn. Running will help me run away from drones, artillery, and anything else I need to face in a modern war. Running will keep me alive to fight another day. Running will let me see my family again.

This is why I always throw it in and the distance will continue to grow in the coming months. Soon, it won’t be 500 metres up a hill once, it will be 1 kilometre up a hill twice.

Because there is no point in staying stagnant. If I want to be fighting fit for a war, I need to destroy my personal limits and reach deep for something truly inhuman inside of me.

That is the only way I can protect my partner, my family and my friends.

This motivation to get fit has never felt so sustaining. It’s such a deeply personal reason, that it marries both the caveman brain inside of me and the rational mind that is living in the 21st century.

And nothing will frighten me more to get fit, than the thought of losing everything I hold dear.

To make the record clear, I’m not doing all of this training to fight a war in another foreign land.

I’ve made peace with the fact that I’m too old to enlist, and the fact that I’ve never felt comfortable fighting people who have never done me wrong personally, on behalf of a government who never really had my best interest at heart.

I will never pick up a gun to get into a fight that isn’t on my home soil. If someone comes here, to my home, then I will fight with everything I have.

But to fight overseas and potentially die there, isn’t and will never be on the cards for me.

I’ve got my own home to protect, as do the supposed foreign enemies of the “state.”

No, I’m getting fit, getting strong, getting tough for my own selfish reasons.

I’m here to protect what I have, and that’s all that matters to me.

Life can be simple when we want it to be, and I’ve decided to cast aside all the useless factors that used to cloud my thinking.

The mantra is simple:

Get fit, to protect yourself and those who you holds dear.

That’s the mission. That’s the motivation.

That’s the endgame.

So let’s get strong for those around us. They’re depending on you to do your part.

~ Damocles.

A Consul’s Record – 26-02-2024

FIT Lvls – BMI 28.1// 85kgs

The damn eyelid has been twitching like crazy this week.

Messina has become this inferno and I feel like I’ve become a fireman, desperately trying to beat back the flames. It’s unrelenting just how often things go wrong and I always feel like I’m being reactive instead of proactive.

In other words, the flames are licking at my feet and the damn hose I’m using it’s pumping out water fast enough.

It doesn’t help that for the first time in my life, I’ve truly felt my insecurities blossom up. They’re bubbling up so frequently that I’m wondering what the hell is going on. My confidence has waned and I’m not quite sure what is going on with me mentally. The past few weeks of struggle regarding my health hasn’t helped the quiet anxiety that has been etching away at the granite that was my confidence.

As I was talking to my partner about the struggles of work, it was then I realised the gravity of my situation.

An epiphany hit me like a truck.

It’s not like I wasn’t happy working full time, or in a hospitality field that included events … it was the fact that I knew, deep down, I had fallen into another rut.

For some reason, I seem cursed to constantly land jobs that cause me to rust away inside. They are dead-end jobs, jobs that don’t have clear ladders, futures or something over the horizon. They are jobs that expect me to be happy, knowing that my brain is not being stretched to its full capacity.

They are positions that will become routine and deathly boring. I can’t climb, I can’t exercise and I can’t think.

Just like the retail stint before. Or the menial hospitality jobs. Or the mind-numbing air-con factory work.

I

Hate

This

Feeling.

It’s what causes me to break mentally. I can sense it.

Whenever I come to this realisation about my job, an stark, clear image always burns itself onto my mind.

The picture of a medieval sword, rust all along its once shiny blade. The knight goes to draw, but the weapon becomes stuck in the scabbard and he is struck down, because the blade was ill-maintained.

And the picture terrifies me. I hate seeing it, because I can see my reflection along the blade. I have no desire to become a rusty sword, and suddenly I feel myself bucking around internally like a wild horse, eager to escape it’s stable.

There have been too many big revelations in the past few weeks. Things have gotten way too heavy and it’s time to shed some weight. I’ve come to term about my current health and am currently working hard to fix the diet and make more time to exercise. It doesn’t matter if I do my super-set/circuit twice a week. What matters is that I move, I do it often and I try to burn as much as possible.

It’s time to pick another day where I will always exercise. Currently, Mondays are the days I do my circuit training, but it’s time to add another day of the week and commit to it hard.

The other realisation that I’ve hit in this blog just now, is about the nature of my job. Yes, it’s shit. Yes, it’s unpredictable, chaotic, stress-inducing and all consuming.

But … that is the hand I’ve been dealt with. There is no point in bitching about it now.

Mentally, I’ve complained enough. It’s counter-intuitive, it’s counter-productive and it’s counter-revolutionary. I was bought in to shake up, redesign and establish myself in this job and I’ve failed to do so.

All because I kept getting hung up over the smallest of issues. That my life was being dictated by work and its event schedule.

It’s time for me to acknowledge that fact and learn to work around it. It doesn’t matter if its the morning, the afternoon, the evening or zero dark thirty … I’ve got to make the most of my day and that means getting away from the computer, more onto books, more into exercise and more into friends.

Sure it sucks, but if I want to be any semblance of the man I can be, I’ve got to embrace this suck. Things will start to look up, the moment I focus more on the things I can control and be OK with the things I can’t.

I’ve also got to discover if I truly have a future in Messina, whether they will actually let me grow or whether this is it.

If this is all there is to my life for the foreseeable future … I’m out. I refuse to settle for this, when I know deep down, my potential is yet to be fully unlocked.

But if there is something ahead for me in this company, then I shall ride out this wave and find myself on a beach that will promise me something greater than what I am doing now.

Until that happens though … I’ve got to put my head down, focus and stop making little mistakes that chip away at my credibility and my ego.

Rebuilding starts now and the moment I feel the urge to exercise, it’s time to pick up the plate carrier and go to work.

The sword of Damocles needs some restoration and that will only come with proper work and care.

Embrace the suck and remember …. ex nihilo nihil fit.

Nothing comes from nothing.

~ Damocles.

A Consul’s Record – 05-02-2024 // 12-02-2024

FIT Lvls – BMI 27.7 // 84kgs

Recently, stress is ruling my headspace and it’s highly concerning.

If I had to list all the issues causing me stress at the moment it would be in this order

  1. Finances
  2. Finances
  3. Finances
  4. Physical Health
  5. Work
  6. Diet
  7. Sleep

Out of all of them, you can see which one is causing me the most anxiety. Money, the root of all evil they claim. The paper that has plagued humanity since the 7th Century China. The reason why my physical health has taken a hit. The reason why I’ve seen the doctor twice now, booked myself in for a neurologist session, seen an optometrist and searched WebMD far too much.

Recently, I’ve begun to self diagnose myself with a lot of things. I can feel something creep into my mind like a virus. A brain-worm called fear. Fear of losing my partner due to my lack of finances. Fear of opening the bank app to see the debt that has accumulated and has consumed my life choices. Fear of being unable to make enough money to achieve my dreams. Fear of missing out on important occasions. Fear of being unable to buy the things I want. Fear of being unable to afford to eat properly.

Fear of the Australian Taxation Office.

As I’m sitting here, writing this, listening to the Batman soundtrack, Can’t Fight City Halloween, I’m reminded that even the Joker is afraid of the IRS. The ATO has reminded me that taxation is quite obviously one of the biggest contributors to my anxiety ever devised. The sum I owe is astronomical. It’s due within two months and has forced me to completely revamp the way I live my life.

I’m now splitting my weekly paycheck in half to ensure I try and get close to the total before the deadline and I thought I could get away with committing to a payment plan, but the ATO’s interest rate is absolutely criminal. So instead of committing to that flawed plan, I’m scrambling every dollar I have to clear this debt.

How my money has spiralled so far out of control is honestly, the final wake-up call for me to get my shit together. The new job has actually given me a massive 500 dollar pay cut and has created a mind worm that won’t shut up.

The call of work is persistently nagging away at my mind now. Where once, the beauty of work at Fed Square and Melbourne Showgrounds ended the moment I left the venue, now I am constantly bombarded with calls, texts and new updates that stresses me out. They don’t arrive during normal hours either. Sometimes they hit at 7am, 4pm, or once at 11pm. It’s all horrifically stress inducing.

Throw in constant new last minute changes, additions and cancellations and the unpredictability is disturbing.

Sometimes an event for Messina will appear with only 4 days to spare and it’s just shit dealing with it. I hate it when things randomly add an extra stress element that is unnecessary. I’ve become accustomed to preparing things well in advance so that the execution of the plan is smooth and flawless. When my manager gives me random additional stress, it places a huge strain on myself, my colleagues and throws a bad look on my professionalism.

I don’t look proactive, instead I’m reactive.

The exact opposite of what I thought this job was going to be. I thought, being full time at Messina, would herald a new chapter in my life.

Instead, it has stripped me of an additional 500 dollars, given me health issues, destroyed my physical fitness further, created more uncertainty, caused more friction in my relationship and cost me valuable time.

My roster is only ever known a week in advance.

This

Fucking.

Sucks.

I can’t plan my life in advance, nor can I actually put aside time to breathe and get some much needed mental breaks. Instead I’m constantly on edge, not sure what days I can see my girlfriend, what days I can put aside for exercise and what days I can hang out with friends.

Instead, now I’m cancelling more often, I’m arriving late to scheduled meetings and I lack a lot of willpower to get up in the morning or go to bed.

This week has pushed me to an important realisation.

I have to manage my time wisely and enforce rules. I can’t be slacking off on working out or being healthy.

Because I’m not the immortal twenty-something that I was of yester-years. Instead it takes me longer to lose weight and if I continue down the bad path of not sleeping well, not eating right, not maintaining a rigorous exercise regime, it will only get tougher for me in the later years.

I have to look after myself more. Sleep earlier. Eat simpler meals, because my body can’t process things as easily. Exercise more regularly and come to grips with the fact that … I’m older now.

It doesn’t mean I can’t be in good shape or anything stupidly defeatist but it does mean … I have to come to grips with the reality of being old.

After all, it was only two thousands years ago, that the average human life expectancy was approximately around my age.

Mortality is really the big theme I’m going for here. A reflection on my health and how my systems are not quite as durable as they once were. Stress hits me harder now. Exercising hurts more. Fat builds up quicker.

I need to course correct now.

Simple as that.

And that is why the little embarrassing BMI tracker is at the top …. it’s a brutal reminder to course correct.

Because if I can’t look after myself … I can’t look after others.

~ Damocles

A Consul’s Record – 29-01-2024

Lvls – BMI 28.1 // 85kgs

The past week has been one of unrivalled excess.

Too much food, too much dancing and too much cake. It has completely destroyed my weight loss over the past week, and I can feel myself getting hungrier instead of actually learning to lean down my diet.

This is obviously not good. But like any setbacks, it’s how you deal with it that matters the most and fortunately, even though my body has gained weight again, my motivation to lose it hasn’t lost any of its edge.

I still plan on exercising just as hard and really weaning down the amount of food I eat. This is just a minor setback and I know I will lose it again soon.

But to really discuss what happened last week, it was fun. The wedding, held by one of my long time friends, was a beautiful moment, even though I felt sad that I couldn’t attend the entire thing, because I had work earlier that day.

However, the reception itself was amazing. It was clearly an expensive venue with plenty of space for dancing, custom floors, a beautiful white theme that was accentuated by huge centrepieces and candles. My friend and her husband clearly spent a lot of time and thought into the decor and it was indeed a beautiful moment in time. The music was fun, the food was amazing even though it was definitely too much and overall I had a really good time, chatting with my friends and my partner.

Speaking of my partner, she looked amazing in her dress and style. It was such a new thing to see her in curls properly, by my side and literally looking like my better half. I thought we looked really good together and from what I could tell from the general looks coming our way, it seemed like I wasn’t too far off in thinking that.

Nothing makes me happier to be honest. I love her so much and it’s still a beautiful thing to see that our chemistry is so strong that people can sense it from afar.

I’m still really deeply in love with her and I don’t think that will ever change. If anything, the wedding we attended that night proved to me that I really want to create the same magic with her again in the future.

In other news, I also visited the doctor for a series of frequent headaches that I’ve been slammed with recently. It’s been a long battle for about 6 weeks, constantly trying to relax and calm myself down. Apparently the cause is due to too much tension in my head and I’ve been actively working to relax my muscles so that it calms down.

It’s been an annoying thorn in my side, but thankfully a few days ago, I finally got the headaches to calm down, without any medication needed. By relaxing my neck muscles and allowing the blood flow to course through without too much speed, it actually helps me avoid the headaches.

Which is a huge relief, because for the past month, these headaches have been a massive concern and I was petrified I was developing something more serious.

But so far, it’s looking OK and I plan on revisiting the doctors in about 2 weeks to make sure everything is still OK.

Whilst last week has been a hectic rollercoaster, it’s time to get back into a routine and really start working on my goals again.

It’s time to reset.

Redo.

Routine.

~ Damocles.

A Consul’s Record – 22-01-2024

FIT Lvls – BMI 27.7 // 84kgs

The dieting mindset is starting to kick in and exercise is now following suit.

I know I am in a good place mentally when I feel like my day is incomplete without some form of exercise. Whether it is skipping, push-ups, kettlebells or just a run, I’m starting to zone in on my fitness. There is an inherent primal satisfaction when I look down at how much I’ve managed to push myself.

But the more crucial thing here is … habit building.

Just like I promised myself and my partner at the beginning of the year, 2024 is all about establishing positive routines, habits and rituals that will aid in my mental acumen and physical growth. Writing this Consul’s Record every week is a good habit to ensure I get to reflect on what has happened and what lessons I need to remember. It also allows me to write more, a habit I need to keep until I am no longer able to type and just remind myself how fun it is to actually engage in something creative.

Even if it is just writing down my thoughts.

Last week, work was very manageable. I got a new co-worker who will ensure my life is easier as the manager of events for Gelato Messina. He is from Europe, a well-travelled Muslim man and soon to be husband. So far, he and I get along just great and I’m very relieved to know that he has a solid head and that he and I have similar views to work … get it done, fast and efficiently and call it there. Don’t be lazy, don’t be slow, just do everything as quickly as possible, ensure everything gets done, stay until the bell, but if there is nothing to do … play truant.

Event work can be the biggest hack, if you are a screwed on operator and I’m very thankful my new colleague is one of those kind of workers.

My manager has also arrived back and it’s fun to see her actually get excited. I could sense her burn-out near the end of the year, but it seems a long holiday in Europe, with her friends and peers, has managed to revitalise her. All in all, work seems to look really positive, with new and old colleagues actually smiling at work, my wishlist of equipment being largely fulfilled and I’ve really done my best to integrate into the existing structure seamlessly.

Aside from work, my health is looking better. I’m not sure where I lost two kilograms, but my conscientious decision to cut back on the amount of food and a more structured weekly exercise regime is clearly paying off. I really like knowing that I can lose weight and that positive feedback is now fuelling my desire to lose even more. It’s like an addicting, exciting game and I’m really keen to see myself at my target of 74kgs within a few months.

Yes, it is boring eating the same food almost every time, but it is immensely assisting me with my finances and diet, and like I’ve always told myself … everything comes at a cost and if looking and feeling good is the end product of boring lunches and restrictive dinners, so be it. I’m in my 30s now … taking care of myself is critical for how I will face my 40s and beyond.

Speaking of health, I’ve had a strange revelation recently, from one of my partner’s friends. It served as a wake-up call and a reminder that I need to prioritise my friends and family more. The timing of it too, was so strange, as I had just finished listening to the Shawn Ryan Show’s podcast episode, featuring Christian Craighead, the 22nd SAS trooper of Obi-Wan Nairobi fame, in which he detailed a similar revelation about life, how people move through it and the importance of always ending every conversation on a positive tone.

It was a sobering reminder, and I instantly reverted to cold, morbid humour to cope. It’s always interesting seeing how I react to such news and I am always shocked at my automatic decision to resort to dark humour. Whether it’s my upbringing where I was typically exposed to stiff British upper-lip attitudes in my media (Blackadder, Fawlty Towers, Monty Python etc) or the fact that I was probably too immersed in trying to be a cynical detective out of a Raymond Chandler noir book/film, I noticed that this attitude to dark news, is ingrained in me now.

However, moving past that dark observation about myself, when I heard the news, I’m just reminded of how much stuff I want to achieve.

And that motivation is still going strong even now.

Last week was definitely a motivational one. A push to do better, to be stronger, tougher, fitter, smarter and more financially well off.

It’s been a good start to the year so far, and I want to keep that direction going.

Ain’t no quitting now.

~ Damocles.