Weight: 85kgs
This is going to be a berating post but it’s also a reflective one.
Obviously, I’m not pleased that a month on, from my start time, nothing has changed much.
But change isn’t something that happens overnight. I also need to stop trying to place huge expectations on myself. I kept thinking that by this week, I would have lost at least 1 kilogram. That I was going to get a dopamine hit that somehow justified all the personal struggles and sacrifices I’ve made.
That was a mistake. Thinking like that isn’t really that helpful nor contributing to personal growth.
So instead, I’m going to look at some positives this past month.
I’ve been moving more than I’ve ever have in the past 2 years.
I’ve been more consistent with hitting the gym at least 3x a week. I would ideally prefer it to be 5, but we’ll get there. Whilst at the moment, I’m clocking in around the 1 hour mark, I think I want to slowly increase it to 1.5 hours and throw in more exercises. I feel like I need to do more to make up for the lack of movement I do for 7 hours in the office.
It would also be a good idea, if I threw in more walking at the office. Maybe it doesn’t hurt to go for a quick walk around the office, a few laps, or explore the nearby park. I could also use the hill nearby ….
Food for thought.
I’ve slowly started to cut down my excessive eating. There is no denying that I love food, but I feel like I’m slowly starting to shrink my stomach. I don’t feel the need to eat as much and I’m cutting the bad sugars ever so slowly out. I’m also prioritising more protein in my meals, discarding carbs and making meals that make me feel like I’m eating cleaner.
What has helped me so much along this journey though, is my girlfriend. She’s been a stern voice, yet at the same time, a boost of encouragement. She will shake her head when I try to suggest something sugary and go on walks with me to get our steps count up on our dates and be that annoying, but much needed reminder to prioritise the gym.
It’s exactly what I need to build healthier habits.
Now, we almost always check the dietary information on the back of foods. If something has too much sugar or saturated fats in it, we put it away or limit the amount we consume a day.
We both suffer from body dysmorphia at the moment. We’re self-conscious about our bodies and weight, but we’re holding each other accountable. We are starting to walk more, eat less and just be conscious about our food.
It’s so different to my previous attempt at dieting, because this time, I know that I have someone with me, helping me along and monitoring my efforts. It’s a lot easier to stay on track, when your partner scolds you for eating too many M&Ms.
What is kind of encouraging is that my weight has actually moved after 7 weeks of hustling. I’ve managed to shed a single, solitary kilogram and that has been such a morale booster.
It means that all of this sacrifice, monitoring and pain has been for something.
Now to keep the number dropping ….
~ Damocles.
Damocles' Journal 